Hi out there, what a tough weekend. I had terrible cravings and was completley miserable in my skin. I fought with my husband, again acting out in ugly, angry behavior. I was just hating myself and my life. He is the closest to me and took the brunt of it. I did a lot of reading on how bad pot is for the brain, memory and lungs. Why do I still want it so??? Tried to distract myself by creating a Bebo webpage and putting some pictures on line. Today I feel better to have made it through the weekend and back to work. (That's different) My cat, Zoe, sits in my lap and she's a big comfort to me. I hope you are all "hanging in there." Best wishes on keeping the wolf at bay.
Hi Rachael, Well done for making it through the weekend. You are doing brilliantly! I was interested to read what you wrote about reading up on pot and how harmful it can be yet still craving it. I am right with you on that!
I am about to enter week 9 of being pot free and I am still having good days and bad days. The good days really are good and I don't crave and I am pleased to be free of the 'monkey on my back'. The bad days are really bad and I feel miserable and think about my 'lost' friend all day long. I am still dreaming about it as well. Oh well..................... ;-( Best wishes, Ruby x
I am about to enter week 9 of being pot free and I am still having good days and bad days. The good days really are good and I don't crave and I am pleased to be free of the 'monkey on my back'. The bad days are really bad and I feel miserable and think about my 'lost' friend all day long. I am still dreaming about it as well. Oh well..................... ;-( Best wishes, Ruby x
Hi Ruby,
Good on ya, as we say in New Zealand. Keep up the good work! I took the "Phelps Nourse Addictiveness Test" that was posted by the moderater of this site. The reading I did was from the British Journal of Anaesthesia website http://bja.oxfordjournals.org/cgi/r...nt/83/4/637.pdf Hope you have more good days than bad. We have our 12 year old nephew with us for 3 days so it's a good time to not be smoking. I have a friend from the States coming for a visit in Dec. Would much rather save some money for that rather than smoke it into thin air. Best Wishes.
Good on ya, as we say in New Zealand. Keep up the good work! I took the "Phelps Nourse Addictiveness Test" that was posted by the moderater of this site. The reading I did was from the British Journal of Anaesthesia website http://bja.oxfordjournals.org/cgi/r...nt/83/4/637.pdf Hope you have more good days than bad. We have our 12 year old nephew with us for 3 days so it's a good time to not be smoking. I have a friend from the States coming for a visit in Dec. Would much rather save some money for that rather than smoke it into thin air. Best Wishes.
Hi Rachael, Thanks for that link. I shall dare to have a look at it when I am ready to remind myself what I have done to my body and mind over the years!
The last two days have been good for me, no real desire to use but I know that the horrid craving will come back. I did dream about it yet again last night though. I dreamt that I shared a joint with a friend and all the lovely old mellow feelings came back!
Great to hear that you are in NZ, a lovely country I have been there myself. My partner is a Kiwi and I am a pom ;-) We are in London at the moment.
Hope it's going well for you. Ruby x
The last two days have been good for me, no real desire to use but I know that the horrid craving will come back. I did dream about it yet again last night though. I dreamt that I shared a joint with a friend and all the lovely old mellow feelings came back!
Great to hear that you are in NZ, a lovely country I have been there myself. My partner is a Kiwi and I am a pom ;-) We are in London at the moment.
Hope it's going well for you. Ruby x
Hi Ruby, I'm glad to hear that you're holding up and experiencing less craving. I am into the 3rd week w/o and most evenings are getting a bit easier. I was irritable last night and just stayed at the computer rather than taking it out on my husband. I feel so ashamed the next day when I take my "feeling of deprivation" out on him. It seems so much easier for him. He doesn't really talk about it.
NZ is a beautiful country. I would love to see England one day. Keep up the good work. Best Wishes
NZ is a beautiful country. I would love to see England one day. Keep up the good work. Best Wishes
