Made it thru a killer headache all day yesterday and most of today. Lack of sleep + an unGodly amount of stress this week really put knots in the neck. I pounded advil and tylenol and felt guilty about each pill. Excedrine finally worked today.
With a clean mind today, I realized that in the past year & 1/2, I
-watched my mom die of cancer
-started a new stressful job with lots of travel
-planned my daughter's wedding
-was heavily involved in my sister's o.d., detox and relapse
-cared for another sister who quit smoking but is addicted to fioricet
-intervened on a suicidal son 6 hours away at college
-watched my girl dog go thru cancer surgery
-put my dad in assisted living
-remodeled a bathroom (did the demo myself)
-got clean!
Got Stress? Yeah, but I'm a miracle today. And if you're clean and reading this, you are too.
......And now,it will only get better because it's time to start taking care of you.You don't have to be Mother Theresa to prove a damn thing.God blessed you with that strong will because you are going to need it now.
I would get a sponsor,if you don't already have one,and have them get you started on the steps.I have a NA Step Working Guide book I will send you when you're ready.I've sent it out already to 3 or 4 people on this forum and it helped them a lot.I also think you could use a chat buddy who has some clean time that won't bulls*** you.Tropical[Carol] comes to mind for some reason.She can see right through an addicts game.
I'm proud of you and when you're ready for this guide,e-mail your address.If you're not comfortable with that I can tell you how to get one.
timlincoln@aol.com
Hooray for you.
I would get a sponsor,if you don't already have one,and have them get you started on the steps.I have a NA Step Working Guide book I will send you when you're ready.I've sent it out already to 3 or 4 people on this forum and it helped them a lot.I also think you could use a chat buddy who has some clean time that won't bulls*** you.Tropical[Carol] comes to mind for some reason.She can see right through an addicts game.
I'm proud of you and when you're ready for this guide,e-mail your address.If you're not comfortable with that I can tell you how to get one.
timlincoln@aol.com
Hooray for you.
Tim - my step working guide is gathering dust in my closet, and I got thru step 4 last time. I haven't gotten it out yet and re-read what I wrote last time, but I assure you, whatever it was, was probably a lot of BS. I wasn't honest last time and I had reservations all over the place!
Thanks for the offer, tho. I have a sponsor, she was my second call (my first was Sammy) after I decided to get clean again. And believe me, the cleaner I get, the more about ME it's becoming.
Thanks for the offer, tho. I have a sponsor, she was my second call (my first was Sammy) after I decided to get clean again. And believe me, the cleaner I get, the more about ME it's becoming.
Hey Betsy - Congratulations. Your are doing great!
I think what Tim said was spot on (I learned that from my British friends on the H Board) about God giving you that strong will cause you're going to need it now.
You got through an awful lot in the past year. You did what you had to do for others and now it is time to do for yourself. All this you did while sick yourself. Time for your healing Betsy! I'm proud of you. This time you came on the board you are like a different person. I could see your surrender from the first post.
I think what Tim said was spot on (I learned that from my British friends on the H Board) about God giving you that strong will cause you're going to need it now.
You got through an awful lot in the past year. You did what you had to do for others and now it is time to do for yourself. All this you did while sick yourself. Time for your healing Betsy! I'm proud of you. This time you came on the board you are like a different person. I could see your surrender from the first post.
AM, I need to run help my wife sand blast my man-cave.
I wanted to just drop a line to let you know that I am here to support you. There is little I can add to what Tim and Alice have said, other than perhaps, Keep it Simple. Make those meetings, listen to the suggestions, and do not use EVEN IF YOUR a** FALLS OFF!
Please check in and let us know how you are doing. You and Jodi are the ones to whom I am directly all of my psychic energy these days (after my beloved Pearly, of course).
August
I wanted to just drop a line to let you know that I am here to support you. There is little I can add to what Tim and Alice have said, other than perhaps, Keep it Simple. Make those meetings, listen to the suggestions, and do not use EVEN IF YOUR a** FALLS OFF!
Please check in and let us know how you are doing. You and Jodi are the ones to whom I am directly all of my psychic energy these days (after my beloved Pearly, of course).
August
Bets, Dang, could you please add something more to your life? Aren't you bored yet? LOL Doesn't surprise me at all that you can have all of these balls in the air and not let one fall, but........stop it! From here on out it about YOU and no one else. Well, except maybe your daughter's wedding. But other than that, you have got to let the rest go. You know that, though!
You are a miracle, and it's an honor to watch you ! Keep it up, just for today.
(((((hugs))))
Thanks folks, I feel truly blessed in a million ways today. I just got back to my hotel from my nephew's wedding. I danced, sang, laughed - in other words, all the things I never would have allowed myself to do on pills. A fleeting moment went by when I thought a drink would be pretty good - but the thought fled on by.
I am honored to be in the thoughts of some darn fine addicts on this board. I am grateful for your replies. And I'm grateful I am going to wake up tomorrow with a clear mind and a clean body.
I am honored to be in the thoughts of some darn fine addicts on this board. I am grateful for your replies. And I'm grateful I am going to wake up tomorrow with a clear mind and a clean body.
Betsy - You are amazing! Keep up the good work. It only gets better.
I'm really proud of you Betsy...you are a miracle for sure.