i am not sure what to write,i am a pot head and i am really over it.I want my life back,posotive outlook and all.My kids are 3,7,and 10,they have no idea that mummy has such an addiction,i feel like i am ripping them off of their childhood by being stoned,i can only try and try and keep trying.
Hi Moose,
Oh I am so sorry you're at this place......although it's a good one that you're ready to quit........I'm not an expert in regards to weed, but there is some really good people here who I know will respond.
I'm a recovering addict though.......absolutely I feel your pain and guilt.....it's such a tough place to be, Moose..........but it will get better I can promise you that.......you made the first big step.........you did good.
Right now though with your guilt about your children, Moose......easier said then done, but it's important to put that aside right now.......you need to recover.
Hope you come back as I know people will help you......hang in there....you're doing a great thing........hang on, K?
Oh I am so sorry you're at this place......although it's a good one that you're ready to quit........I'm not an expert in regards to weed, but there is some really good people here who I know will respond.
I'm a recovering addict though.......absolutely I feel your pain and guilt.....it's such a tough place to be, Moose..........but it will get better I can promise you that.......you made the first big step.........you did good.
Right now though with your guilt about your children, Moose......easier said then done, but it's important to put that aside right now.......you need to recover.
Hope you come back as I know people will help you......hang in there....you're doing a great thing........hang on, K?
Do you want memories of this age and stage of their lives ? When they ask you at 15 about who they were at 8 ? How about when they're twenty and they don't remember their childhood and you can't help them to ? Stop now. You think they don't know. Maybe they know. They know something is not quite "right" and they're wondering how they can make it better. My son was constantly trying to make me laugh....I had no idea how freaking miserable my face looked to him. They're just kids. Maybe they'll think it's their fault eventually.
Good on you for admitting your truth. When you're ready to face your emotions head on, you're ready. Who can you call ? Your Doctor ? A family member ?
Keep trying, make a plan, come back.
edit to say I don't mean to sound like a biotch....this has just been my experience and guilt motivated me along with the obvious physical/mental/social health issues......
Good on you for admitting your truth. When you're ready to face your emotions head on, you're ready. Who can you call ? Your Doctor ? A family member ?
Keep trying, make a plan, come back.
edit to say I don't mean to sound like a biotch....this has just been my experience and guilt motivated me along with the obvious physical/mental/social health issues......
to bryn and wonderwoman,i am hanging in there...as you can tell i keep writing in here so i dont go get stoned....writing about my thoughts is a distraction.I think that trying to turn the guilt around is a challenge,but i know that my kids love me,and that alone is strength for me.I am feeling a bit sick and have sore head,from what i have read,its normal.Is your son old enough to understand?my eldest is 10,she would be disgusted,although i think she is suspicious. I went to a shakra site,that was interesting..ta. i think a walk would be beneficial.
Walking is a wonderful idea, it's helped me with focus, clarity, breathing properly, awareness of all my senses...who knew there was so much more to just putting one foot in front of the other ? How's your sleep ?
My son is 11 and he knows I have alot of addictions, he sees me on the website and laughs at me sometimes because I laugh out loud especially at Bryn and we talk about chakras, meditating, dreams and he keeps talking about God, even though I use the term Higher Power or Spirit Guides. He says it's easier to just say God. <smile>
Anyway, keep at it, is this board your only support right now ?
My son is 11 and he knows I have alot of addictions, he sees me on the website and laughs at me sometimes because I laugh out loud especially at Bryn and we talk about chakras, meditating, dreams and he keeps talking about God, even though I use the term Higher Power or Spirit Guides. He says it's easier to just say God. <smile>
Anyway, keep at it, is this board your only support right now ?
no,i have no other support as of yet,i have not spoken to any councellors either,its only been cple days,i just need to pick up the phone i guess.This is not my first attempt at this and i havent told anyone,i think its because i have failed a couple of times and i dont want to make myself seem weak.I will tell soon,i just want to get ahead a bit.I am not familiar with the chakra (not shakra!!!),however it was interesting.I really used to love doing yoga,i might take that up again...
