Martin I am posting to you because I did not want to invade Zipper thread too much. I agree with both your posts in reply to her. I believe that when it comes to prayer God do indeed know what we want before we ask for it. He also knows if our prayer is an honest one or not. People might think I am a terrible person for finding it so difficult to be forgiving. To me the resentment I have runs very deep. It's easy to say to not let ourselves become a victim but sometimes we are made a victim whether we want to be one or not. You have children Martin and for those of us on this site who do .you know how fierce and strong the love for our children can be. We want to protect them from all harm . When someone does something so wrong and hurtful as this man did to my daughter I think it is only natural to feel the way I do. This man took a young girl(only days into her 15th birthday) who was a virgin and brutally raped her. What an horrible and painful experience this was for her. This man was a trusted family member( to be exact my husband's brother.) Someone she barely knew because he lived in another town for years and was just visiting at the time, but still someone she trusted because he was her uncle. Because of this mans actions. lives of many have been devastated. The lives of my daughter, her siblings , my husband , his mother,(his father who have since passed away,)his siblings. and the negative impact it has had on my marriage. This week we are dealing with court issues over this and to face that man in person again is nothing less than torture. I believe God knows my pain and the pain of my daughter . I believe he knows our feelings. I also believe this man has done the work of satan and if anyone should be asking for forgiveness it should be him. Not us. If I appear cold and angry and resentful then maybe it's because I am. On the day that this terrible deed was done to my daughter it was a beautiful day. she and her dad were building a cage for some rabbits that we had just gotten for her as pets. she was so happy and the sun was shining and it was a warm summer day. Little did we know that before that day was over that her life would be changed forever. He took all the happiness all the innocence and in a brutal and selfish act destroyed it all. How can I ever trust again? My faith in people is gone . It made me realize that you never ever really know someone, Something evil can be behind a mask of what appears to be normal. I have tried praying for this man like I have been told to do. when I do that it's like I am praying for one of satans' demons and like I had said before it makes me feel worse so I am not going to do it anymore. I just want justice and that is all I am going to ask God for. Thank you for letting me share Martin and instead of seeing me as a cruel person I hope you see me and understand me as a very hurt and pained Mom.God bless and take care.
No worries on jumping in on my thread. I look at these threads as conversations where anyone can interject at any point.
What I found useful from the suggestions were to awake and pray for God to help me stay sober for the day and to pray that I will trust Gods will and also, to pray for the WILLINGNESS to forgive or let go of a resentment. Doesn't have to be a prayer for forgiveness, just willingness.
You are in my thoughts and prayers, Pirate.
What I found useful from the suggestions were to awake and pray for God to help me stay sober for the day and to pray that I will trust Gods will and also, to pray for the WILLINGNESS to forgive or let go of a resentment. Doesn't have to be a prayer for forgiveness, just willingness.
You are in my thoughts and prayers, Pirate.
pirate, I have no words but words I will write....God made us human. He made us as we are and that's how he loves us. He loves you for who you are and for Him you are where you are supposed to be. Who knows why? Perhaps to teach those of us who think we have trouble what it is to have Faith. A Faith that is still strong and striving despite a crime that many would see as evidence of God's neglect or death. Your innocent child. People ask for evidence of God's existence when such things happen. The evidence is in the Faith of those who hold her and sustain her and will help her grow. Such a faith is almost beyond belief, almost beyond what human beings are capable of. Your faith is our strength, your brave spiritual struggle your unlooked-for, unasked-for, unwanted glory. He calls us saints. God is Just and you are a saint to pray for Justice. We are called to fight Evil and you are winning that fight.
Sorry if I sound evangelical...I am so moved to write pirate. I do not say God bless you, there is no need.
As for me, I admire you immensely and am inspired by your strength and courage. I am honoured to know you in this place. I feel we have met in a way, and in a way that our grandfathers would have described as miraculous.
Sorry if I sound evangelical...I am so moved to write pirate. I do not say God bless you, there is no need.
As for me, I admire you immensely and am inspired by your strength and courage. I am honoured to know you in this place. I feel we have met in a way, and in a way that our grandfathers would have described as miraculous.
It is not God's way!!! It is man's way! Behind all evil acts, all lies, there is the father of all evil acts all lies it is Satan. We all have free choice! We all we sin!
