Hey Martin, I thought I should say something. I don't feel qualified to answer any of your posts, sometimes what you say goes a little over my head but I get the point of it. I'm rubbish with words and in the beginning of my recovery I would tell all to everyone and anyone. It just came pouring out of me too, which I later learned was a symptom of my illness, so now I am less inclined to go so much out there with my words. I do however think it is admirable that you have so much of an insight into yourself and other people and your posts always intrigue me and lead me to think about myself in a different light.
You are close in age to my dad and the difference between you and him, in terms of emotional acceptance is astounding to me. He is the total opposite to you and sometimes I find it hard to get my head around the fact that you are a bloke!! LOL... I hope this has not offended you!!!
Just like everyone else here, I read what you say with interest even if I can't find the words to respond to it, yet another thing I struggle with. In my head I can see your pain and confusion at times, but these guys here have it covered!!
Wishing you well,
Izzy
Hey Izzy, great to hear from you. Thanks for your kind words....if I demonstrate any emotional awareness I'd guess 95% of it has arrived in the last of my 50 years....in fact probably in the last 2 months....so there's hope for everyone! lol
Shame my HP had to better me over the head for so long before I'd open up and pay attention.....it's not as if my ex-wife didn't try for 18 years and my ex for 9 lol...
I'm interested in the outpouring being part of your illness Izzy....for me this is the first time in my life I've told anyone about how I'm feeling. Everything is so new. I have to say I'm wondering if I might be falling apart faster than I'm healing....I think both are happening....is it a race to the finish I wonder? Or just an ongoing process....
As for your kind words about my words....I wonder if what happens is I'm trying to capture how I feel for myself....to make it real, give them some weight.....as I've said, feelings are usually so flimsy for me much of the time that I feel the need to express them vividly, to make them clearer, make themstand out....I guess I'm assuming other people have as hard a time as me understanding them, when probably they don't....
Thanks for caring Izzy, keep well.
Shame my HP had to better me over the head for so long before I'd open up and pay attention.....it's not as if my ex-wife didn't try for 18 years and my ex for 9 lol...
I'm interested in the outpouring being part of your illness Izzy....for me this is the first time in my life I've told anyone about how I'm feeling. Everything is so new. I have to say I'm wondering if I might be falling apart faster than I'm healing....I think both are happening....is it a race to the finish I wonder? Or just an ongoing process....
As for your kind words about my words....I wonder if what happens is I'm trying to capture how I feel for myself....to make it real, give them some weight.....as I've said, feelings are usually so flimsy for me much of the time that I feel the need to express them vividly, to make them clearer, make themstand out....I guess I'm assuming other people have as hard a time as me understanding them, when probably they don't....
Thanks for caring Izzy, keep well.
