hello all. Well i was doing so well felt okay most of the day up untill i had to take my mate to the social and seen someone (the only person i assume down here who could if i asked get hold of herion) there were 2 scousers in there who were ovbiously gouching their tits off, my mates response to them was disgust and disbelief mine well was lucky bastards!!! how bad is that and why did i even think like that,then that someone came in and said hello and i instantly thought if worse came to worse i could ring him but i didnt do nothing about it He then came back to me (he knew im taking subutex) and said" take me number babe" i said no its ok i dont think it would be a good idea he said its ok i dont deal with any of that s*** we could all go out for a drink one time so i took the number I knew he was lying he went over to the 2 scousers and asked "when are they going to give you your giro i need the money u owe me so i can reload"
I did delete his number after the longest 5 minutes of my life that little devil on my left shoulder was saying keep it he is a mate and you dont know many people here and if eva theres a rainy day well he is your man who can" My angel on my left shoulder won the day but not without some regret. All that has made me think am i going to do this ( get off the subutex in the next 2-3 weeks)or am i just heading towards another relaspse? Im friggin scared at the moment im not feeling to good either its now 10pm in the uk and well lets just say i want another subutex i might just take my hidden 1 but ill feel guilty about letting my bfriend and my med counciller down HELP X X X
congratulations on deleting the number, just hang in there minute by minute
Cozza,
I want to post something encouraging or inspirational, but I have no clue what you're talking about..... LOL....... I know we both speak English, but I need an interpreter to figure out what you people from the U.K. are saying! <smile>
I think what happened is that you ran into an old dealer and he gave you his number.... and you contemplated keeping it but knew it would be trouble, so you deleted the number.
If that's the case, then congratulations for being so strong...... You did the right thing!
Danni
I want to post something encouraging or inspirational, but I have no clue what you're talking about..... LOL....... I know we both speak English, but I need an interpreter to figure out what you people from the U.K. are saying! <smile>
I think what happened is that you ran into an old dealer and he gave you his number.... and you contemplated keeping it but knew it would be trouble, so you deleted the number.
If that's the case, then congratulations for being so strong...... You did the right thing!
Danni
Thank god Danni. I thought it was me.
Frank
Cozza I love that slang, what does this mean
there were 2 scousers in there who were ovbiously gouching their tits off???
JD
there were 2 scousers in there who were ovbiously gouching their tits off???
JD
JD
I just fell of my chair.
Frank
Cozza, consider that a positive experience. You showed great courage. No need to feel bad or guilty about it. I remember once driving to my old dealer's house and stopping right out front. I sat there for awhile and you can imagine what I was thinking. The point is I drove away. I didnt do it. Almosts don't count. The fact is you did not score, you threw away the number. You took control. You are a success story today. Be proud of yourself. Love, Kat
Danielle fsguy and johndee SCOUSERS =people from liverpool an area in the uk GOUCHING=what you do when you have had herion and you look like you are asleep sat up!!! Sorry i forget about the slang ill be more understsnding in future Danielle you understood it anyway almost he wasnt an old dealer just someone i met when i moved down here who i presume could get herion well i know he can anyway had a s*** night again but doing it ive still got the worse to come when i cut them out completly take care all got to go see my medical advisor/counseller person who im going to tell this is getting harder by the day in my mind not physically my legs arent hrting as much
I like the slang...just translate...lol
cheers,
kerry
cheers,
kerry
ok littlebeach lol I need an interpretor everytime my son speaks to me these days with all the slang they use its confusing like if he sees a nice car he will say thats sick ??? meaning thats cool or nice anyway i really have got to go got a job on my hands this morning to try and look half alive lol before i go out I went and brought some dark sunglasses yesterday need i say more!!!! lol take care will be back on line later
THANKS kat you are right well done yourself too for driving away x x x
THANKS kat you are right well done yourself too for driving away x x x
I know what you mean...I am getting old...but I love uk slang.
I thought trainspotting was great; it made mewant to go to scottland..
Kerry
I thought trainspotting was great; it made mewant to go to scottland..
Kerry
hi cozza
i understand ya mate but hey that might be cos im from the uk!!!! how are you?,you done well mate i would of asked straight out "have you got any drugs?" see you are strong im weak cos i would of given in xxx
i understand ya mate but hey that might be cos im from the uk!!!! how are you?,you done well mate i would of asked straight out "have you got any drugs?" see you are strong im weak cos i would of given in xxx
frank, I am weak too...some lady offered me methatdone today....I turned it down. In the past, if it got you buzzed, especially of the opiate type, I would have been allover it.
The farther away you get from your last drug, the easier it gets.
Kerry
The farther away you get from your last drug, the easier it gets.
Kerry
hello all trainspotting was a good film it was after i seen it i started stupid but true anyway my med advisor relly pissed me off i sat there like a twat told her how i felt the truth and her answer was well its all cuz you are withdrawing let me teach you some relaxtion exercises so like an even bigger twat i tried to do them but kept tapping my foot cant help it she eventually gave in and cut the meeting short I want to scream at her but she is a nice lady and elderly so i cant wish she was a man So im afraid i didnt get any joy today at all except how to breath and go dizzy!!! i felt bad tonight it was my friggin legs again and im getting goosebumps every 10 mins god knows what ill be like when i have to cut them out all together My bfriend wants me to go and lie down with him and watch scary movie I AM A SCARY MOVIE i dont want to lie down next to him at the mo it helps me talking to you lot on here when i feel like this so he will just have to wait im going to confess to something now and im sorry but yes i deleted that guys number yesterday but i made my mate put it in her phone and i know she hasnt got the sense to delete it so that if i ask for it its not there I really feel like just going now and sitting on the seafront and having a smoke
cosa I feel your pain you must be young and strong BEST to u Roger
glad i read this post, made me realize that i have one number of a good friend (well, addict friend) who has numbers to all the dealers....gonna delete that baby, i don't need added temptations....just made a major delete on my directory, didn't realize i had THAT many numbers left...ALL GONE
really proud of you cozza , even if i don't understand everything you say...lmao...though my 18 y/o son has seen trainspotting
really proud of you cozza , even if i don't understand everything you say...lmao...though my 18 y/o son has seen trainspotting
