I had one today...in fact, I think I am still having one.
Tough, tough day.
Sarah:
I am so sorry to hear you are having a hard time. If you need me, I am here for you.
~Rachel
I am so sorry to hear you are having a hard time. If you need me, I am here for you.
~Rachel
Sounds like this is melt down day. I'm sorry Sarah. I got your email btw and haven't had a chance to get back to you. I'll do it this weekend though, have lots to tell. Just know I love you sistersue.
Thank you so much my friends. You have no idea how much you mean to me. Thank you.
I think the shock of losing my friend is starting to wear off, and the reality of his absence is about to suffocate me.
Today, a kid at school, one of his students and one of mine too, came up to me and said, "Miss Sarah, I know you had a pain pill addiction that you kicked this summer...Mr. Glenn told me, and he was so proud of you for that...he talked about it a lot to us kids". Something in me just snapped.
I thought I was going to faint.
Had to get out of there quick...been crying ever since.
I think the shock of losing my friend is starting to wear off, and the reality of his absence is about to suffocate me.
Today, a kid at school, one of his students and one of mine too, came up to me and said, "Miss Sarah, I know you had a pain pill addiction that you kicked this summer...Mr. Glenn told me, and he was so proud of you for that...he talked about it a lot to us kids". Something in me just snapped.
I thought I was going to faint.
Had to get out of there quick...been crying ever since.
Sarah:
You have touched so many peoples lives. I think he wanted you to know how proud he was of you. Maybe he was making sure you got a message of just how proud he was of you through your student. You are kind and gentle soul.
Love,
~Rachel
You have touched so many peoples lives. I think he wanted you to know how proud he was of you. Maybe he was making sure you got a message of just how proud he was of you through your student. You are kind and gentle soul.
Love,
~Rachel
Hey honey...take a deep breath......be still. Damn don't cha just hate it when life gets in the way. I can relate to how your feeling. Its a tough time of year...feelings can come up...resentments...fears....but you are an amazing strong women...I have so watched you grow.
Its ok to "meltdown" go ahead...you have earned it. We don't have to be perfect!! Scream, cry..laugh....hug...sleep...do what ever you have to....this too shall pass!
Hope your feeling better soon! You are my hero!!
Its ok to "meltdown" go ahead...you have earned it. We don't have to be perfect!! Scream, cry..laugh....hug...sleep...do what ever you have to....this too shall pass!
Hope your feeling better soon! You are my hero!!
You know Rachel...in life, I only think about people in terms of what they mean to me...I never really consider what I may mean to them. It is awkward for me to think in those terms, I am not really sure what that is about.
I hope my friend isn't missing this ole world.
I know for sure, this ole world is missing him.
I hope my friend isn't missing this ole world.
I know for sure, this ole world is missing him.
Sarah, I think Rachel is right, Glenn was proud of your accomplishment. I understand the feelings that come with "letting the cat out of the bag" and I'm sorry that you have to deal with people knowing....try not to let those negative feelings get you down
Add: You can be a good role model for younger people
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Add: You can be a good role model for younger people
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Are you a teacher?
Hello Sarah,
I just finished writing you an e-mail and saw this.
You deserve to fall apart, you have been through a ruff time. Falling apart is healing.
That is a whammy having a student tell you about your pill addiction. It was said with love, but I sure understand your leggs starting to go out from under you.
You know I love you Sarah.
Catherine
I just finished writing you an e-mail and saw this.
You deserve to fall apart, you have been through a ruff time. Falling apart is healing.
That is a whammy having a student tell you about your pill addiction. It was said with love, but I sure understand your leggs starting to go out from under you.
You know I love you Sarah.
Catherine
Honestly...I didn't take it badly about anyone knowing. I do not care who knows about my addiction...I really don't. I hope anyone who needs to know will know and come to me and lean on me if my pain can somehow help them out of theirs.
I was humbled by the fact that my friend was speaking to me through the mouth of a young person...I am just missing my friend so badly right now it feels like the world is passing through my chest.
Honest you guys...I don't have guilt or shame about the pain pill problem. I am human, I fail, and will continue to do so. It happened and it is a part of the fabric of who I am.
I was humbled by the fact that my friend was speaking to me through the mouth of a young person...I am just missing my friend so badly right now it feels like the world is passing through my chest.
Honest you guys...I don't have guilt or shame about the pain pill problem. I am human, I fail, and will continue to do so. It happened and it is a part of the fabric of who I am.
Sarah...I know exactly what you meant...that it was heartwarming yet heartbreaking that your friend spoke of you with such compassion....and he was speaking to you...through that person. And then you realized that he really is gone...is that right? don't be surprized...I know how sad you must be...but like you loved him....he loved you too! Thats amazing!
kee kee,
exactly.
exactly.
I'm so sorry about your friend, Sarah.
He did something wonderful for you, you know.
He shared the legacy of your journey with young people. You might never know how profoundly the knowledge of your accomplishment will effect their lives but you can bet it will. Who of us in this world isn't touched by addiction in one way or another?
Take care
xxxoooo
He did something wonderful for you, you know.
He shared the legacy of your journey with young people. You might never know how profoundly the knowledge of your accomplishment will effect their lives but you can bet it will. Who of us in this world isn't touched by addiction in one way or another?
Take care
xxxoooo
Thank you all so much for posting with me this evening.
I needed to share.
I think it is amazing that when you reach out, someone here always grabs your hand.
I hope you all have a good evening...and peace in sleep.
Sarah
I needed to share.
I think it is amazing that when you reach out, someone here always grabs your hand.
I hope you all have a good evening...and peace in sleep.
Sarah
Sarah,
Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you. So sorry you are having such a rough time.
Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you. So sorry you are having such a rough time.
((((((((((((((((((sarah)))))))))))))))))))))
being kinda young myself and i am still learning and i love to be close or near
people with kindness and wisdom in their heart....
every since you came here, i have seen nothing but kindness and gentelness.
you are an inspiration to me...........
your post are beautiful and sincere.........
i am so sorry about your friend and i truely believe that.........
he was reaching out to you through a student........
truely amazing to me...........
love and respect,
thumper
sarah..............God Bless you this holiday season...
your are beautiful.......
you have a kind warm loving spirit about you...........
being kinda young myself and i am still learning and i love to be close or near
people with kindness and wisdom in their heart....
every since you came here, i have seen nothing but kindness and gentelness.
you are an inspiration to me...........
your post are beautiful and sincere.........
i am so sorry about your friend and i truely believe that.........
he was reaching out to you through a student........
truely amazing to me...........
love and respect,
thumper
sarah..............God Bless you this holiday season...
your are beautiful.......
you have a kind warm loving spirit about you...........
just wanted to pop in and say i hope you are feeling better :o)
cuz you are clever. ;-)
xoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
skeeter
cuz you are clever. ;-)
xoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
skeeter
Sarah-
Just saw this thread.......
Hang in there, You are one tough chick.
Will be thinking of you, and hope things start going better for you
Hugs.
Just saw this thread.......
Hang in there, You are one tough chick.
Will be thinking of you, and hope things start going better for you
Hugs.
Thanks Jody...
At the moment you were posting this...I was sending you mail!
Sarah
At the moment you were posting this...I was sending you mail!
Sarah