Hi Guys:
I haven't been around much due to my last minute persona and much running around trying to tie up loose ends before tonight. I hope you all have a wonderful clean and sober holiday and if you are fighting any demons, that you have peace in your heart. Be good to yourselves and to others. Most of us are just trying to find our way. May God be with you as you trudge the road to happy destiny! I love you guys. You are an extremely important part of my journey.
Rachel
Hi Rachael, that was very sweet, and Merry Christmas to you as well!!!
Merry Christmas Rachel and to all my friends here.
Its been 6 weeks since I last took a pill and its been quite a journey. I can honestly say I wouldn't be where I am without all of you here and I can say its been a pleasure to spend the last six weeks in the company off all you good people.
Everyone enjoy the holidays and be safe
JohnDee
Its been 6 weeks since I last took a pill and its been quite a journey. I can honestly say I wouldn't be where I am without all of you here and I can say its been a pleasure to spend the last six weeks in the company off all you good people.
Everyone enjoy the holidays and be safe
JohnDee
Merry Christmas to you also, Rachel. Are you staying on the West Coast? I'm heading to Maine with my wife and kids, do some skiing, spend some time with my wife's family.....
John Dee, congratulations on your time! You're a great contributor here. Have a good holiday.
Peace,
M.
John Dee, congratulations on your time! You're a great contributor here. Have a good holiday.
Peace,
M.
Merry Christmas Rachel,
Have a safe and loving holiday. I hope Santa brings you what you want, you deserve it.
God bless,
Have a safe and loving holiday. I hope Santa brings you what you want, you deserve it.
God bless,
Merry Christmas Rachel and everyone! Hope everybody has a blast! Love you guys, Kat
John...way to go..
Rachel, thanks for the nice post.....and merry xmas. I don't know where I would be either if I didn't have this spot,
I love you all also..
Kerry
Rachel, thanks for the nice post.....and merry xmas. I don't know where I would be either if I didn't have this spot,
I love you all also..
Kerry
Merry Christmas to all of you guys. I am being the biggest, laziest person in the world today. I'm still laying around, lol. I don't know if I will even venture out. I went to Starbuck's, that's enough for today isn't it? I hope you are all having a wonderful day with family and friends.
Love,
Rach
Love,
Rach
Rachel, sometimes the best Christmases are the ones when you do absolutely NOTHING! Who cares if you left the house all day? You're sober, you're alive.... and you have all of us as friends.... What more could you want? LOL
Congratulations, JohnDee.... I've got 5 days under my belt and praying that I make it work this time.... Thanks for emailing me with support like you have...
None, WHERE ARE YOU??? I know you said you were going skiing, but I hate not having you around to talk to...... I need new friends.... (just kidding)
Kerry, did you take the kids to the beach for Christmas? It has to be such a different experience celebrating the holidays in Hawaii....
Congratulations, JohnDee.... I've got 5 days under my belt and praying that I make it work this time.... Thanks for emailing me with support like you have...
None, WHERE ARE YOU??? I know you said you were going skiing, but I hate not having you around to talk to...... I need new friends.... (just kidding)
Kerry, did you take the kids to the beach for Christmas? It has to be such a different experience celebrating the holidays in Hawaii....
Danielle:
Awesome! I am so proud of you for your five days. Wow! You made my morning. Btw, I did venture over to a friends last night! Being by myself can be trouble for me. I miss None too but I guess he can spend time with his family, lol! Only if he hurries back. How are you feeling?
Love,
Rachel
Awesome! I am so proud of you for your five days. Wow! You made my morning. Btw, I did venture over to a friends last night! Being by myself can be trouble for me. I miss None too but I guess he can spend time with his family, lol! Only if he hurries back. How are you feeling?
Love,
Rachel
I have good moments and bad moments.... Today I am really cold (then again, it is 30 something degrees outside) and can't seem to get warm --- the thought has gone through my mind a hundred times "3 Norco would do the trick".... (don't worry - I don't have any).
But all in all, I can't complain.... I hear about so many people getting so sick and I'm just lucky I guess (even last time, I wasn't that bad off except for the fatigue).
I have no energy to get up and get dressed, but am scared my husband will leave me if I don't put some makeup on this face (LOL - just kidding)..... so hopefully the sinus medicine and diet coke will kick in and Day 5 will be a piece of cake!
Glad you went out last night.... Was it cold in your area? (Aren't you in the L.A. area?)
But all in all, I can't complain.... I hear about so many people getting so sick and I'm just lucky I guess (even last time, I wasn't that bad off except for the fatigue).
I have no energy to get up and get dressed, but am scared my husband will leave me if I don't put some makeup on this face (LOL - just kidding)..... so hopefully the sinus medicine and diet coke will kick in and Day 5 will be a piece of cake!
Glad you went out last night.... Was it cold in your area? (Aren't you in the L.A. area?)
danni -
who said you had to get dressed? some days i just adore "bumming" in my most comfortable jammies.
it's cold here too! brrrrrr - real cold and it's going to snow this afternoon. i'm still waiting on my best friend to return from the mall, she's at the mac cosmetics counter and v.secrets, which i bet that takes longer than i imagined. she asked if i wanted to go with her and well - the jammies were just a little comfortable to weather a change at the time.
i'm up and dressed now and hungry! i hope we get brunch before the snow hits. i get monkey nerves driving in the snow.
oh yeah - here's a thought - instead of the thought of 3 norcos to keep you warm, how about a shift in those thoughts - 3 blankies instead? or cuddle with your main squeeze? i'm sure you are gorgeous without the makeup. it's what is in the heart that counts and honey your heart is beautiful.
be gently with you - you deserve it!
namaste'
sammy
who said you had to get dressed? some days i just adore "bumming" in my most comfortable jammies.
it's cold here too! brrrrrr - real cold and it's going to snow this afternoon. i'm still waiting on my best friend to return from the mall, she's at the mac cosmetics counter and v.secrets, which i bet that takes longer than i imagined. she asked if i wanted to go with her and well - the jammies were just a little comfortable to weather a change at the time.
i'm up and dressed now and hungry! i hope we get brunch before the snow hits. i get monkey nerves driving in the snow.
oh yeah - here's a thought - instead of the thought of 3 norcos to keep you warm, how about a shift in those thoughts - 3 blankies instead? or cuddle with your main squeeze? i'm sure you are gorgeous without the makeup. it's what is in the heart that counts and honey your heart is beautiful.
be gently with you - you deserve it!
namaste'
sammy
Danielle:
I'm so glad that your withdrawal has been minimal. Mine was horrendous. I was sick for 16 days. My back was frozen stiff. Of course, my run was three years so... Yes, I am in L.A. I live on the beach, close to Santa Monica, and the weather is nice. It's been blue skies and relatively warm. It snowed or, I guess, hailed last year in the ghetto. Right smack in Watts, it was crazy. I've lived here my whole life and the last time it did that was when I was in the 9th grade. What are your plans for today? I wish I had some money left to go spend..
Love,
Rach
I'm so glad that your withdrawal has been minimal. Mine was horrendous. I was sick for 16 days. My back was frozen stiff. Of course, my run was three years so... Yes, I am in L.A. I live on the beach, close to Santa Monica, and the weather is nice. It's been blue skies and relatively warm. It snowed or, I guess, hailed last year in the ghetto. Right smack in Watts, it was crazy. I've lived here my whole life and the last time it did that was when I was in the 9th grade. What are your plans for today? I wish I had some money left to go spend..
Love,
Rach
Yeah, lots of back pain.... but back pain was the main reason I started taking these pills in the first place, so I don't know if it's back due to withdrawals or just that I have nothing to numb the aches... It's okay... I can live with that....
Going to try and go to work tonight.... We'll see how that goes..
I'm staying out of the stores today..... I'd spend money I don't even have! LOL
The last time I was on these, I was pretty much on them over 2 years when I got clean, so it was rougher.... This time, it wasn't but maybe a month and a half.... I just wish the mental part of it would go away.... Pain pills consume my thoughts 24 hrs a day.
Going to try and go to work tonight.... We'll see how that goes..
I'm staying out of the stores today..... I'd spend money I don't even have! LOL
The last time I was on these, I was pretty much on them over 2 years when I got clean, so it was rougher.... This time, it wasn't but maybe a month and a half.... I just wish the mental part of it would go away.... Pain pills consume my thoughts 24 hrs a day.
Danielle:
I spend money I don't have unfortunately, all the time, lol. I am addicted to clothes, makeup etc. Expensive s**t at that but I am going to get a handle on that. Unfortunately, I work in Beverly Hills so shopping at Louis Vuitton, Burberry, Barneys, Neiman's is normal for me. I don't know how I managed when I bought pills, geez! Anyway, I'm still in my pjs watching "Laguna Beach, the real Orange County." I love MTV, lol. I think my age was stunted due to drugs.
Rach
I spend money I don't have unfortunately, all the time, lol. I am addicted to clothes, makeup etc. Expensive s**t at that but I am going to get a handle on that. Unfortunately, I work in Beverly Hills so shopping at Louis Vuitton, Burberry, Barneys, Neiman's is normal for me. I don't know how I managed when I bought pills, geez! Anyway, I'm still in my pjs watching "Laguna Beach, the real Orange County." I love MTV, lol. I think my age was stunted due to drugs.
Rach
Sam, you should see me now..... I HATE to be cold - hate it... I woke up this morning and on top of my pj's I put on a sweatshirt, some sweatpants, and my thickest robe.... I get cold soooo easy..... I'm the type that will have on V.S. lingerie and a pair of white cotton socks... LOL
My old neighbor used to laugh.... Every morning I used to go out and get the paper in my PJ's .... I always wore sexy little boy shorts or something cute to bed... Then I got married and had a baby and he said my entire wardrobe changed - now I sleep in pants and a long sleeved top (but, in my defense, who wants to take care of a baby in a slinky two-piece?)
My old neighbor used to laugh.... Every morning I used to go out and get the paper in my PJ's .... I always wore sexy little boy shorts or something cute to bed... Then I got married and had a baby and he said my entire wardrobe changed - now I sleep in pants and a long sleeved top (but, in my defense, who wants to take care of a baby in a slinky two-piece?)
hiya rachel - i noticed you posted that you live in santa monica. below i posted the schedules that are available in california for pills anonymous face to face meetings. if you see any that you think you might want to attend, i can provide you with a contact name to call for further directions (if need be). i'm particularly close to the person who started the pasadena meeting.
a lot of these people who started these meetings contribute quite a bit at pills anonymous online. you can contact me at dsam2u@comcast.net if you see a meeting you may have a question about or think you might want to attend.
love ya -
sammy
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pills anonymous face to face meeting schedule, california
CA Canyon Country - Thursday ,7-8 p.m. - Recovery Room at 18402 Soledad Canyon Road.
CA Encinitas - Monday, 7-8 p.m. - Episcopal Church, corner of Encinitas Blvd and Balour.
CA Fremont - Friday, 8-9 p.m. - Our Savior Lutheran Church, 858 Washington Blvd., room in back, across from restrooms.
CA Glendale - Saturday, 6-7 p.m. - GAADS, 335 Mission Road
CA Huntington Beach - Thursday, 7:30-9:00 p.m. - St. Wilfrids Episcopal Church18631 Chapel Lane
CA La Jolla (Closed) - Tuesday, 7:30-8:30 p.m. - McDonald Center, on grounds of Scripps Hosp., 9904 Genesee, Ste. 103
CA Merced - Sunday,7-8 p.m - KAP Sales Group, 1560 Winton Way, Atwater
CA Newport Beach - Sunday, 6:30-8:00 p.m. - Hoag Hospital, 1 Hospital Drive, (in Lab Draw waiting room).
CA Newport Beach - Wednesday, 7:30-9:00 p.m. - Hoag Hospital, 1 Hospital Drive, (in Lab Draw waiting room). Closed mtng.
CA Pasadena - Tuesday, 7-8 p.m. - First Church of the Nazarene3700 Sierra Madre Blvd, Reed Hall, Room 248
CA Sacramento - Monday, 6-7 p.m. - Kaiser Permanente CDC unit, 2829 Watt Ave.
CA Sacramento - Wednesday,6-7 p.m. - Kaiser Permanente CDC unit, 2829 Watt Ave.
CA San Diego - Wednesday, 6:15-7:15 p.m. - Sharp Mesa Vista Hospital, 7850 Vista Hill Ave.
CA San Diego - Thursday, 12-1 p.m. - Continental Rehab Ctr in Village Hillcrest Shopping Ctr, 555 Washington,off University exit of 163 fwy. Take GREEN elevator from parking to lobby and ask security guard where confernce room is.
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CA San Diego - Saturday, 12-1 p.m. - North Shores Alano Club, Pacific Beach, 4681 Cass St.
CA Torrance (Womens Stag) - Sunday, 7-8 p.m. - National Council on Alcoholism offices, 1334 Post Avenue
CA Walnut Creek - Thursday, 7:30-8:30 p.m. - 1414 N. Main Street
a lot of these people who started these meetings contribute quite a bit at pills anonymous online. you can contact me at dsam2u@comcast.net if you see a meeting you may have a question about or think you might want to attend.
love ya -
sammy
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pills anonymous face to face meeting schedule, california
CA Canyon Country - Thursday ,7-8 p.m. - Recovery Room at 18402 Soledad Canyon Road.
CA Encinitas - Monday, 7-8 p.m. - Episcopal Church, corner of Encinitas Blvd and Balour.
CA Fremont - Friday, 8-9 p.m. - Our Savior Lutheran Church, 858 Washington Blvd., room in back, across from restrooms.
CA Glendale - Saturday, 6-7 p.m. - GAADS, 335 Mission Road
CA Huntington Beach - Thursday, 7:30-9:00 p.m. - St. Wilfrids Episcopal Church18631 Chapel Lane
CA La Jolla (Closed) - Tuesday, 7:30-8:30 p.m. - McDonald Center, on grounds of Scripps Hosp., 9904 Genesee, Ste. 103
CA Merced - Sunday,7-8 p.m - KAP Sales Group, 1560 Winton Way, Atwater
CA Newport Beach - Sunday, 6:30-8:00 p.m. - Hoag Hospital, 1 Hospital Drive, (in Lab Draw waiting room).
CA Newport Beach - Wednesday, 7:30-9:00 p.m. - Hoag Hospital, 1 Hospital Drive, (in Lab Draw waiting room). Closed mtng.
CA Pasadena - Tuesday, 7-8 p.m. - First Church of the Nazarene3700 Sierra Madre Blvd, Reed Hall, Room 248
CA Sacramento - Monday, 6-7 p.m. - Kaiser Permanente CDC unit, 2829 Watt Ave.
CA Sacramento - Wednesday,6-7 p.m. - Kaiser Permanente CDC unit, 2829 Watt Ave.
CA San Diego - Wednesday, 6:15-7:15 p.m. - Sharp Mesa Vista Hospital, 7850 Vista Hill Ave.
CA San Diego - Thursday, 12-1 p.m. - Continental Rehab Ctr in Village Hillcrest Shopping Ctr, 555 Washington,off University exit of 163 fwy. Take GREEN elevator from parking to lobby and ask security guard where confernce room is.
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CA San Diego - Saturday, 12-1 p.m. - North Shores Alano Club, Pacific Beach, 4681 Cass St.
CA Torrance (Womens Stag) - Sunday, 7-8 p.m. - National Council on Alcoholism offices, 1334 Post Avenue
CA Walnut Creek - Thursday, 7:30-8:30 p.m. - 1414 N. Main Street
Rach, we always talk about how much we have in common and I almost died laughing reading your post....
Earlier this week, I stayed in bed watching all day watching reruns of Laguna Beach... I have never seen the show, but I had just quit the pain pills and wanted to watch something mindless and pointless. All I kept thinking was, "God, these kids are in for a real shock. Things that matter at 17 don't mean anything at 20. Talk to them then."
I have a "designer" addiction as well..... I've gotten better about it (mainly because I chose to spend my money on pain pills instead of expensive purses), but I still would rather save up and splurge on something then buy a cheap item I'll never wear.
By the way, my son got Burberry boots for Christmas... How cute is that??
Earlier this week, I stayed in bed watching all day watching reruns of Laguna Beach... I have never seen the show, but I had just quit the pain pills and wanted to watch something mindless and pointless. All I kept thinking was, "God, these kids are in for a real shock. Things that matter at 17 don't mean anything at 20. Talk to them then."
I have a "designer" addiction as well..... I've gotten better about it (mainly because I chose to spend my money on pain pills instead of expensive purses), but I still would rather save up and splurge on something then buy a cheap item I'll never wear.
By the way, my son got Burberry boots for Christmas... How cute is that??
Danielle:
I got the Burberry pancho for Christmas, beautiful! I bought the cashmere scarf for myself, lol. When I had 30 days clean I bought myself a Marc Jacobs bag, OMG. I can NEVER buy another purse because it was so over the top expensive. About Laguna Beach, I'm in love with Steven! There is only a 23 year age gap, lol. In L.A. everything is so close even Orange County is only an hour away. i think I might have a chance, lol.
Love,
RAchel
I got the Burberry pancho for Christmas, beautiful! I bought the cashmere scarf for myself, lol. When I had 30 days clean I bought myself a Marc Jacobs bag, OMG. I can NEVER buy another purse because it was so over the top expensive. About Laguna Beach, I'm in love with Steven! There is only a 23 year age gap, lol. In L.A. everything is so close even Orange County is only an hour away. i think I might have a chance, lol.
Love,
RAchel
I bought the new Louis Vitton bag when it first came out (the one with the colored letters.... can't spell the actual name of it... lol)...... Spent over $1000 for the stupid thing..... A few months later, all the knockoffs came out and every 3rd girl I saw had one..... It's been in my closet ever since..... LOL
Bought the black epi leather one in 1999 or 2000, but made the stupid mistake of getting one that doesn't have a zipper at the top..... It's so nice and holds up really well, but everything is constantly spilling out of it. It's a pain!
Now I carry around a $30 teal scalloped purse from Banana Republic.... I took it to the Virgin Islands with me in October b/c I didn't want to have security throwing my expensive bag around, and I get more compliments on this one than I do on any of my other ones! LOL
God, I miss being rich......
Bought the black epi leather one in 1999 or 2000, but made the stupid mistake of getting one that doesn't have a zipper at the top..... It's so nice and holds up really well, but everything is constantly spilling out of it. It's a pain!
Now I carry around a $30 teal scalloped purse from Banana Republic.... I took it to the Virgin Islands with me in October b/c I didn't want to have security throwing my expensive bag around, and I get more compliments on this one than I do on any of my other ones! LOL
God, I miss being rich......
