Message From Lou

Hey everyone,

I hate to write this but I need to be honest and let you all know that I failed at my most recent attempt to detox. I get two days and then can't handle it. I am so depressed. I am not giving up because I know that if I keep trying maybe just maybe one of these times I will succeed. I just called a detox center here in my town and asked about their detox program. He said it was 5 days and they have a medical staff on hand to assist and the cost is $1100.00 He told me not to use before I come in?????? Whatever that means. Maybe they want me in withdrawal when I get there. I am not sure. I am so mad at myself for not being able to do this. My boyfriend and I are fighting all the time now and I live under constant stress and terror. Stress that I am F****ing up a good relationship and terror that I won't be able to stop. I hate my life and yet I have so much to be thankful for. For those of you who have some clean time under your belt, read this and be glad that you are not still in this HELL.........

All my respect,
Lou
Lou, most of us have been in that hell. I got to the third day quite a few times and caved. You seem determined and thats half the battle. Its tough for our significant others to understand what were going through and it puts a strain on the relationship, I barely survived mine.
Bob has some good advice on another thread about husbands and wives and helping them understand.

JD