O.K. so now this guy....I met at a meeting.....many months ago....we've gone out a few times....really nice guy...funny, ambitious, caring.....it's dating stuff...so the several times we've gone out are cool....no biggie.....he's helpful too....so I was happy to see him pop up the other day...out of nowhere.
He helped me through a little fit.....we took a drive, went out to eat, and then shopping....just ordinary stuff....cell phone rings.....I HEAR THIS.....Man, I'm telling you.....I got like $130 on me.....that's it...and I told you theother night, man I can't help you if you keep this up....I hear THIS....SO GO GET TWO BAGS OF HEROIN........Ughhhhghghhhhh.....here it's a friend of his, and he's been on this binge, and kick, and binge....the wife is a complete enabler...and no matter what he does takes him back.....I actually know of the guy, but not personally....so's I think to myself....hmmmm well I was that guy once, and I needed help.....BUT this has been going on now for months.
I tell this dude.....look I don't know what that is about....I can't be around it....I can't....I hear two bags of dope....I'm thinking.....Hmmmm that'd be nice.
So he says.....yeah well your not good in your recovery....WHAT...I got a year and ten months to your eight months pal.....then I think it don't matter...ya know time wise.....I just don't want to be in this s*it....I might meet his friend.
BAM BOOM......new connection...we know how it goes.
So that night...my date friend says....you know what.....you are right....I totally got rid of him....he needs to help himself....whatever....he's like NO I mean it.
I was compromising ME for him....alright.....so last night I see my friend go in this guys house....just happened I was taking my walk that way...well O.K. I didn't SE HIM GO IN.....but he parked there on his street....I phoned, and he didn't pick up......I was like "Look I saw you blah, blah".
Calls me today.......NOT LAST NIGHT.....he says "Yo, you ain't a very good cop".....pfffff.....I ask what....he says I was going to the bar there...I'm like O.K.
Then he goes "Naaaaaaaah".....I was up there cause I wanted to go in that restaurant right down the block.......IT IS A FREAKIN GOURMET RESTAURANT......why would a single, dude who lives in the diner's go in there an hour before a meeting.....see this how this crap comes down....now is he a liar or am I nuts....well yeah I am nuts....still don't sound good to me.
Men on here.....what is up with this.....I ain't needing it......would you purposely lie..why am I saksing that....people lie....what is up with this?
Bryn
Alright girl still Tapping hahahaha.
You are such a character when ever i read your post ,and they could be serious at times your sence of humour just makes me want to roll up.
You sound brilliant .
Keep it up Bryn
Your freind
Emily
Alright girl still Tapping hahahaha.
You are such a character when ever i read your post ,and they could be serious at times your sence of humour just makes me want to roll up.
You sound brilliant .
Keep it up Bryn
Your freind
Emily
You just worry about your pain.....Wednesday.....ahhhh Em's, sorry.
Just what an addict hates to do.....WAIT.....but how many times did we wait like some kind of demon.....waiting on the man.....madness it was.
Now you have two more nights....hope it feels a little better.
Ummmm, oh yeah so nobody will tell me "Look fool a*s girl, the dude is lying".
Great.....I'll spend the next months going back, and forth...truth/lie....LOL....I just ain't seeing a man walking in a gourmet restaurant ALONE....for COMFORT FOOD........P-L-E-A-S-E....and I believe it.
Just what an addict hates to do.....WAIT.....but how many times did we wait like some kind of demon.....waiting on the man.....madness it was.
Now you have two more nights....hope it feels a little better.
Ummmm, oh yeah so nobody will tell me "Look fool a*s girl, the dude is lying".
Great.....I'll spend the next months going back, and forth...truth/lie....LOL....I just ain't seeing a man walking in a gourmet restaurant ALONE....for COMFORT FOOD........P-L-E-A-S-E....and I believe it.
What do you think, and how does this feel.....
If your radar is up, then well you know you must take yourself out of the situation, and fast.
For some reason I am not getting any good vibes with this. And you should know what is up, probably more than any of us would. It is because you can't seem to believe that he would put himself in this kinda of situation.....And WTF, he is putting you into this in a way as well....
If I had to guess based on what I lived something is up, not sure how bad it is but something is going on. Is he worth the time, and maybe more importantly do you deserve better....
Take care of yourself sweetie,
Love,
Tina
If your radar is up, then well you know you must take yourself out of the situation, and fast.
For some reason I am not getting any good vibes with this. And you should know what is up, probably more than any of us would. It is because you can't seem to believe that he would put himself in this kinda of situation.....And WTF, he is putting you into this in a way as well....
If I had to guess based on what I lived something is up, not sure how bad it is but something is going on. Is he worth the time, and maybe more importantly do you deserve better....
Take care of yourself sweetie,
Love,
Tina
Tina,
You are absolutely right. Yes. I'd tell someone else to trust their instincts. Why not me? I had that feeling, and come on!
I was telling a friend of mine about it today. Non-addict. Chick stuck by me through thick, and the thin. You know how that is. She said "I'm afraid to tell you what I think". I was dumbfounded. I'm like "YOU AFRAID". She said she likes him ,but, but, but. You almost echoed her words.
Tina, thanks. Your words just hit me. You convey things in words so well. Maybe I had to SEE it in words. You're the best. I wish things could go that way for yourself forever, man. I do. You keep it ALL together. Too bad that bridge gaps us. Maybe not though cause we'd be beating someone's tail eh?
I needed you today, and who knew? That was bothering me, and I spoke to him. See I was never a good liar. EVER. So I trusted people. Then I thought when I used I could know immediately a liar. Nope. I mean come on. WHY would a guy, alone go into a gourmet restaurant? This guys chicks place is like three doors away. Nah, something is wrong. Absolutely. I was up that way for a reason. I'm still a dunce. I shouldn't have said a thing, and let the dude drown himself. Ugghhh. No biggie. Another lesson. Oh I was getting creeped out when he was talking to the dude. Money=how many bags=a dirty urine=rehab.
No way. I'm out of the loop, and staying that way.
Big thank you, Tina. You're cherished, and appreciated.
Bryn
You are absolutely right. Yes. I'd tell someone else to trust their instincts. Why not me? I had that feeling, and come on!
I was telling a friend of mine about it today. Non-addict. Chick stuck by me through thick, and the thin. You know how that is. She said "I'm afraid to tell you what I think". I was dumbfounded. I'm like "YOU AFRAID". She said she likes him ,but, but, but. You almost echoed her words.
Tina, thanks. Your words just hit me. You convey things in words so well. Maybe I had to SEE it in words. You're the best. I wish things could go that way for yourself forever, man. I do. You keep it ALL together. Too bad that bridge gaps us. Maybe not though cause we'd be beating someone's tail eh?
I needed you today, and who knew? That was bothering me, and I spoke to him. See I was never a good liar. EVER. So I trusted people. Then I thought when I used I could know immediately a liar. Nope. I mean come on. WHY would a guy, alone go into a gourmet restaurant? This guys chicks place is like three doors away. Nah, something is wrong. Absolutely. I was up that way for a reason. I'm still a dunce. I shouldn't have said a thing, and let the dude drown himself. Ugghhh. No biggie. Another lesson. Oh I was getting creeped out when he was talking to the dude. Money=how many bags=a dirty urine=rehab.
No way. I'm out of the loop, and staying that way.
Big thank you, Tina. You're cherished, and appreciated.
Bryn
You made me blush with this, and then again you wrote in Becky's thread.
I am glad to help, and it was just what I saw. Got this real yucky feeling. I have to wonder if it is being on the other side of things, and what we see, and hear........
I could ask a dozen questions about this guy and have you running nuts in you head in them senario's that really don't show much because we can't be in thier heads. I am not sure what your plans are for you in this, but you have to just keep you first.....Them phone calls talking of bags, and him outside the house puts you in danger and he should have not put you in this position. Shouldn't be putting himself in as well, usually nothing good comes of stuff like this for anyone in recovery.
You wrote of trust, you trust to easy. I think that is the first time I ever saw someone who was an addict (I hate that word, we need something more socially acceptable) say that. The hubby trusts no one, but maybe me and I think that is hard for him. The lifestyle doesn't afford to much trust......I don't trust to easily either but that is a street thing and how I grew up. I think he gained more trust in the way that he learned who he real friends were when it all came out. He has 3 guys he is real close to and they are all still in his life, no one ran. I learned a lot from that.
Remember to trust your instincts,
Love,
Tina
I am glad to help, and it was just what I saw. Got this real yucky feeling. I have to wonder if it is being on the other side of things, and what we see, and hear........
I could ask a dozen questions about this guy and have you running nuts in you head in them senario's that really don't show much because we can't be in thier heads. I am not sure what your plans are for you in this, but you have to just keep you first.....Them phone calls talking of bags, and him outside the house puts you in danger and he should have not put you in this position. Shouldn't be putting himself in as well, usually nothing good comes of stuff like this for anyone in recovery.
You wrote of trust, you trust to easy. I think that is the first time I ever saw someone who was an addict (I hate that word, we need something more socially acceptable) say that. The hubby trusts no one, but maybe me and I think that is hard for him. The lifestyle doesn't afford to much trust......I don't trust to easily either but that is a street thing and how I grew up. I think he gained more trust in the way that he learned who he real friends were when it all came out. He has 3 guys he is real close to and they are all still in his life, no one ran. I learned a lot from that.
Remember to trust your instincts,
Love,
Tina
I just thought i'd drop my 2 bob's worth here. If he is telling you lies he is covering for something. He has been caught out and didn't know wot to say so said something stupid. later he relises it sounded stupid so changes his story. Thats my view of the little you have told here. Sounds like you kinda know it anyway! you can't out sh#t a bull sh#ter.
Well as we know not the best judge of character here......I trust everybody.trusted the ppl we met on the street to bring our dope back.......trusted many people who screwed me over.but just see good in most people........
I dont know.....I just cant seem him using...although he is too cocky in his recovery for eight mnths.....telling US we need more meetings.....
the story is kind of shady bout the gourmet store but really just think he was enbling mr clean every few days and didnt want to tell u again.....he knows your nuts and he likes ya and didnt want to piss u off.....do think he needs to stay away from said friend though, but its different for all of us.......the program drils it in to you how u have to give back and help others, think he just thinks of himself as mr Na the saviour lately, but some people just dont want help <like said friend> he just wants an enabler, which is what mr mystery has become. Like who goes on a NA ski trip wiht loads of oxy's
u r the best girl and I love ya....keep trusting your insticts, just try and not be so cynical.........Damn i can babble cant I?
I dont know.....I just cant seem him using...although he is too cocky in his recovery for eight mnths.....telling US we need more meetings.....
the story is kind of shady bout the gourmet store but really just think he was enbling mr clean every few days and didnt want to tell u again.....he knows your nuts and he likes ya and didnt want to piss u off.....do think he needs to stay away from said friend though, but its different for all of us.......the program drils it in to you how u have to give back and help others, think he just thinks of himself as mr Na the saviour lately, but some people just dont want help <like said friend> he just wants an enabler, which is what mr mystery has become. Like who goes on a NA ski trip wiht loads of oxy's
u r the best girl and I love ya....keep trusting your insticts, just try and not be so cynical.........Damn i can babble cant I?
I'm worrying about me.....I can't worry about him....thanks all....I am trusting my instincts....clean or enabling or a lie.....no matter....I tell ya that conversation had my head going.....hmmmmm, an oxy would help.....no way....like I said what am I an entertainer....if so pay me the admission of a movie ticket see cause I ain't here just to amuse someone.....heck no.....that's what he thinks I am entertainment....might as well do a tap dance for him.
Nah I'm outta that.....thanks all.
Nah I'm outta that.....thanks all.
OH NOOOOOOOOO U R NOT ging to do any oxys or anything....u just better call me........and I like when u protect u ((((((((((((my bryn))))))))))))))
You know I would call you Ms. Tres.....that conversation just had me go "Hmmmm, now one wouldn't hurt.....no way though.
If you could throw an 80 was it....right down the toilet after you found it fresh out of rehab.....I'm not daring ever.....don't be worrying bout that.
If you could throw an 80 was it....right down the toilet after you found it fresh out of rehab.....I'm not daring ever.....don't be worrying bout that.
