I live in a small town where, if you have acute chronic pain (I was in a 1997 5 vehicle car accident - another driver). When I moved here after leaving an abusive husband in 2012 I was told methadone or nothing for pain. I was in severe pain so I agreed. The methadone gave me horrible anxiety and panic attacks but the doctors here will not give you anything for that. I went off methadone in 5-6 weeks ending about Feb 3rd 2015 but was in so much pain I allowed myself to be talked into trying morphine (needle) and now I have to go off it because my brother started me on it and now I know he was just looking for company and money for his habit (which is huge)! I have not been doing much but need to know what to expect when I go off the morphine and how long it will take. Ex. I had one shot today only and feel fine so far. My brother said I have not done enough for long enough to get VERY sick but I will get sick. PLEASE someone help me with this and what can I do to help ease the symptoms. Restless leg/spine when I went off methadone was horrific and I am scared. I think I had cotton fever a few days ago and it was hell. I went to emergency and they knew right away what was happening. They were very kind to me though and gave me Tylenol #3 (Atasol 30) which really helped and I finally slept. What do I do????My Webpage
Sammi,
I am so sorry for what you are going through. Can you go to a pain specialist?? They might be the one thing that can offer you some help. Across the top of this site are places you can get help as well, Find treatment, programs and resources, addiction medications, Holistic approaches,etc. Go thru those and make calls to any or all of them. Maybe somewhere in the group you can find someone or someplace that can help you or refer you. What have you got to lose??
Good lucky sweetie, hang tough.
granny
I am so sorry for what you are going through. Can you go to a pain specialist?? They might be the one thing that can offer you some help. Across the top of this site are places you can get help as well, Find treatment, programs and resources, addiction medications, Holistic approaches,etc. Go thru those and make calls to any or all of them. Maybe somewhere in the group you can find someone or someplace that can help you or refer you. What have you got to lose??
Good lucky sweetie, hang tough.
granny
Thank you Granny. I seriously have been thinking of trying yo join NA here but am not even sure there is one. The Doctor's motto in this town is "Methadone or nothing" and the town is dried up even as far as streets drugs. So much for the Hypocratic (sp?) Oath. They are making addicts out of every one they can.The sell Medical Marijuana Certificates that cost $150.00 per year and the government dispensary charges $5.00 to $15.00 an ounce depending on what you buy. I do not smoke, never have so I do not want to to that. Besides - I do not want to get stoned - I want out of pain, panic and anxiety to stop and to sleep.
I find that I feel less and less like I have anything to live for.
One year ago on April 5th 2014 my Yorkie dog (named Sammi Boy) died in my arms. I have told no one but I had been doggy sitting my ex husband's female Yorkie (which was once mine but he stole her) and my Sammi Boy was having some seizure activity so I was taking him to the Vet. When I picked him up (he was very tiny) he slipped through the blanket I used since sometimes his seizures would make his legs shake and I got scratched. Anyway, as soon as he fell back on to is back the female jumped the barrier in the car and landed on his neck and broke it. I can't get over it. I miss him so much. Believe it or not he is the only thing that EVER REALLY loved me. I can't stand life without him. I believe in an "afterlife" and do not want to do anything that might stop me from seeing him once I cross over but the temptation is there. I am all alone. Desperately broke - I can't even buy food or pay my rent this month. My brother kept telling me how much he cares but I realize I was just another source of money for him so he could pay his dealers and so he could get me hooked to keep it going. Now, I use dilaudid and can not get off even though I did get off the methadone after a 2 year stint with that "for pain". Car accident left me disabled and in terrible pain. I found the methadone was the most AWFUL drug to use for pain because it gave me terrible anxiety and paNIC attacks but they will not give you anything for that either. I should have stayed away from my family when I fled the 30 year abusive marriage but they were FAMILY and I thought they loved me and cared. They only cared about getting hold of my money and now I owe $25,0000.00 in credit card bills and no money to pay it. My ex stole the business, the jewellery out of it and hid all the cash to make it look like the "economy" was crashing so he pays $800.00 a month and I get $1050.00 in disability pension. I am slowly sinking but it is getting faster and faster. I live in Canada and the Canadian Government changed all the Family Law Acts here so I could not even get a lawyer for Court. It was a bloodbath and I lost everything. I can not go on like this. I just can not. Sammi Boy - I LOVE YOU and I MISS you.
I find that I feel less and less like I have anything to live for.
One year ago on April 5th 2014 my Yorkie dog (named Sammi Boy) died in my arms. I have told no one but I had been doggy sitting my ex husband's female Yorkie (which was once mine but he stole her) and my Sammi Boy was having some seizure activity so I was taking him to the Vet. When I picked him up (he was very tiny) he slipped through the blanket I used since sometimes his seizures would make his legs shake and I got scratched. Anyway, as soon as he fell back on to is back the female jumped the barrier in the car and landed on his neck and broke it. I can't get over it. I miss him so much. Believe it or not he is the only thing that EVER REALLY loved me. I can't stand life without him. I believe in an "afterlife" and do not want to do anything that might stop me from seeing him once I cross over but the temptation is there. I am all alone. Desperately broke - I can't even buy food or pay my rent this month. My brother kept telling me how much he cares but I realize I was just another source of money for him so he could pay his dealers and so he could get me hooked to keep it going. Now, I use dilaudid and can not get off even though I did get off the methadone after a 2 year stint with that "for pain". Car accident left me disabled and in terrible pain. I found the methadone was the most AWFUL drug to use for pain because it gave me terrible anxiety and paNIC attacks but they will not give you anything for that either. I should have stayed away from my family when I fled the 30 year abusive marriage but they were FAMILY and I thought they loved me and cared. They only cared about getting hold of my money and now I owe $25,0000.00 in credit card bills and no money to pay it. My ex stole the business, the jewellery out of it and hid all the cash to make it look like the "economy" was crashing so he pays $800.00 a month and I get $1050.00 in disability pension. I am slowly sinking but it is getting faster and faster. I live in Canada and the Canadian Government changed all the Family Law Acts here so I could not even get a lawyer for Court. It was a bloodbath and I lost everything. I can not go on like this. I just can not. Sammi Boy - I LOVE YOU and I MISS you.
Sammi,
I am so sorry for what you have had to go through and losing your little dog, but hold your head up and stay strong. Bad things happen to good people every day, but you cant give up!!!!! Do you think that for ONE MINUTE your little dog would want you to feel this way because he has passed? NO! He would want you to remember the good times you and he had together.(Have you considered getting another little dog to keep you company?)
With all that you are going through it may be of help to speak to someone that can give you ideas on how to better care for yourself emotionally. I lost a lot in my life too and while I didn't always make the right decisions in all matters I tried to be appreciative of what I DID HAVE. I had a place to sleep, I had food to eat and while I wanted other things I had to bide my time and slowly I was able to get some of those things again. As they say, God only gives you what you can handle.
Take care sweetie, be patient, things will get better just maybe not as fast as you'd like. Count your blessings. It seems you are finally away from what was toxic in your life so there should only be smoother sailing in front of you.
granny
I am so sorry for what you have had to go through and losing your little dog, but hold your head up and stay strong. Bad things happen to good people every day, but you cant give up!!!!! Do you think that for ONE MINUTE your little dog would want you to feel this way because he has passed? NO! He would want you to remember the good times you and he had together.(Have you considered getting another little dog to keep you company?)
With all that you are going through it may be of help to speak to someone that can give you ideas on how to better care for yourself emotionally. I lost a lot in my life too and while I didn't always make the right decisions in all matters I tried to be appreciative of what I DID HAVE. I had a place to sleep, I had food to eat and while I wanted other things I had to bide my time and slowly I was able to get some of those things again. As they say, God only gives you what you can handle.
Take care sweetie, be patient, things will get better just maybe not as fast as you'd like. Count your blessings. It seems you are finally away from what was toxic in your life so there should only be smoother sailing in front of you.
granny
Sammi,
So sorry to hear about your beloved dog. Its like losing a child.
Time heals.
And if your family is "toxic" just stay away. Yes i know their family but that makes their ability to screw with you that much more damaging. Just do like I do and stay COMPLETELY away. (I have 5 out of 8 brothers I will probably never speak to again for very good reasons. Abusive father. Evil stepmother. Literally crazy mother.) Let them live their miserable empty lives without dragging you down! Stay strong!
Good luck.
So sorry to hear about your beloved dog. Its like losing a child.
Time heals.
And if your family is "toxic" just stay away. Yes i know their family but that makes their ability to screw with you that much more damaging. Just do like I do and stay COMPLETELY away. (I have 5 out of 8 brothers I will probably never speak to again for very good reasons. Abusive father. Evil stepmother. Literally crazy mother.) Let them live their miserable empty lives without dragging you down! Stay strong!
Good luck.
