Music And Triggers

Heroin
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Was wondering what everyone thought about this subject....I know so many of us here who music has been a saving grace for.....it helped them through detox on out to sobriety......the very essence of the lyrics, and notes sounding clearer each clean day.....so I was thinking how about it as triggers?

Many, many rehabs will not allow any music.....not even a radio.....as it would trigger someone when they heard it because they heard it while out there...fixed to a certain song......it's not so for myself, but anyone else? I actually thought music as therapy would be better than silence OR the daily news on TV which we watched in rehab......all murders, and drive bye's, and some poor soul lsoing someone or something to the wicked world.....it makes you feel safe to be in rehab actually....you're glad you are there.

One thing though will NEVER leave me.....my last/final detox.....pit of hell....next stop prison.....and being someone's biotch.....so's we all are waiting in the lobby......some smarter than others....all dumb.....cause we wound up in this situation.......but I came prepared, and used before I got in there....poor people coming in sick already......so we hear this woman.......barking real loud......"ALL YA ALL FOLLOW ME I NEED SOME KETCHUP FOR MY FRIES"..........WTF.........swear......we follow her like sick ducks.....to a fridge with a lock on it and up to an office......heaven knows what she was doing in there.......BUT I do know I hear this.......repeatedly.........over, and over:

"Errrrrrybody In The Club Gettin Tipsy"........O.K. I think am I on a sick version of candid camera.....and it's BLARING.....thankfully she changed up to some Al Green, and Luther Vandross......over, and over.....some homemade CD I guess.
So now when I hear the new copolation of Luther's Mary J. Blige singing....Looked at your picture just to get me started...I called you up but you weren't there, and I was broken hearted....A THOUSAND KISSES FROM YOU IS NEVER ENOUGH.......I think of that chick, and how sick I was waiting, and the one dude who after four hours waiting......got up and left....and we all chased him saying.....Yo, yo just a little more....he'd been crying he lost his wife, kids, house, parents, siblings, and had NOTHING...nada...living on a curb.

That don't trigger me....it makes me thankful....I can dance to a Luther song clean......although I don't want to hear that jawn "Errrrrybody In The Club Getting Tipssy"......LOL.....great song for detox....LOL....anyone else?
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Music has always been a MAJOR trigger for me. It triggers me to drink and kicks in heroin cravings. Mostly it triggers drinking but, certin songs I CAN'T hear without wanting to shoot. I don't watch t.v, I use to have several roomates as a nightly thing we Blasted old punk rock and drank gut rot beer. Songs I use to get drunk to "which was about everything" really kicks in the beer crave. I quite drinking when I started using but, I drink now and then now that i've stoped using. Dashboard Confessional "Vindicated" song is one of the biggest heroin trigger songs for me "i don't even personally like the song" my lil brother and I were shoting together one time and that song was playing in the car we were nodding off and it's always STUCK.
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Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

[Chorus]
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that

[Chorus]

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away [3x]
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away [4x]

[Chorus]

Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

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My dear sweet brynn....CAPITAL brynn now.....LOL....thankfully music is not a trigger for me.........music is my heart and soul.......spent my life going to shows, and it has always brought me my greatest happiness....but when I was high...didn't give a s***.........all i cared about was gettng some and then getting more......never even really listened to the radio much..
In recovery, music has again become my greatest high......so no thankfully music doesnt trigger me. and although i have always enjoyed my smoke at a show and perhaps a lager, and thought i would miss that terribly.......as u know I can still have a kick-a** time clean and sober.......we both can, and have.......still do love that reverb inside though from being right next to the speaker.......hmmmm....could be y i am just a wee bit deaf
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Remember,I lot of the toones I grew up listening to were drug related. A lot of the songs thru the 60,s & 70,s leaned toward doing them ,the experiances of them ,or getting off of them.

So when I hear them now,they dont trigger any "boy,I wanna shoot dope feelings"- except save a few Loe Reed/Jim Carrol stuff.

What they do however,is remind me of a time that was reckless,and when I had few responsibilities and many more friends.
I need those memeories because now there are many responsibilities in my life and few true friends.Its nice to hear stuff from a time when I could use innocence, and ignorance as an excuse.

So I would say no -not a trigger to use- - but they do trigger some terrific memories.

older & wiser
jack
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Da*n I should be a scientist or sumptin....very interesting.

We have our ZG who is haunted by that Meatloaf, and Tres who nobody knows what the heck she is listening to anyway.....LOL....I'd always switch her tunes in the car while we'd go to cop.....luxury a car it is....then Jack is interesting in that unfortunately Neil Young, Lou Reed, and I guess maybe Janis took over airwaves in his time......Jim Carroll.....heaven's to Bettsy, Jack....you and Tres might as well join forces.....I only know leo playing an extremely fake, junkie.
Couldn't do the man justice.

So what does this all mean......I have no idea.....just don't want to hear that song called....."Errrrybody In Da Club Getting Tippsy".

I don't think it is a trigger for me either...but I definately believe ya ZG.....good too you recognize it.....that stinks though.....maybe you could listen to Gospel....you'll start cleaning everything with that on.....or how about some disco......that should be just fine.

Thanks for taking my survey, people, and Jack you are not old, baby boy.
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bryn
. You seem to have a positive energy level thats off the charts
Keep it up girl,you da best

muchlove
jack
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I have trigger songs-one in particular, but it always triggered a desire to do speed (icky thought, now) cause we used to listen to it & do that. Some songs I definetly associate w/ doing dope,& would rather not hear. Funny too, when I am chilling, I really listen to the lyrics & get the Massive Weepies, even dumb stuff I would normally dismiss as hogwash suddenly becomes really profound-just goes to show how messed up my brain is...