I just had to share this, i was getting some food for my twins not even two yet and i looked at one of them after reading the last post and said ok honey mommy is geeting of of the pitty potty and she said good girl!! i almost chocked , i picked her up and gave her a million kisses, isnt that sooo cute, :)
that picked me up!! thanks for reading...jazzy...
Hey jasmine! We can always count on our little ones for inspiration! How sweet! Are your twins identical? Girls? Boys? didn't you say you have 3 kids? Mine are 4 yrs(he'll be 5 Dec 16) and 7 yrs (8 Jan 2). Talk about being financially stressed!LOL! Lots of love, Jess
jess, they are so sweet and inocent as well , ok i have three girls the twins will be 2 in January and my oldest will be 8 in febuary.. oh and my twins look like night and day! one lookes just like me blue eyes bright! and the other looks like her daddy, so its cool, the lady next door has twins and they look sooo alike, i can never tell them apart, she is such a good mom, i envy her , being a normee.. i wish i was.. jazzy
Jasmine, I see moms all the time and want to be just like them! I soooo envy them and wonder, how do they do it? I guess people who aren't addicts don't know any different (as far as energy and all that is concerned), but we will do this. Are you having withdrawals from your "setback"? Don't quit trying, jasmine. You know that you can do it because you've done it before! I have very few moments were I feel happy, but I try to think positive. my husband says I should get on antidepressants, but I honestly think that those pills just numb your feelings as well. (I was on Paxil for 3 yrs and had terrible withdrawal symptoms from it). There's got to be another way!?
yes, i am having a little withdrawl, ahhhh however i have been staring out vthe window thinking , i know what made me use, i since i can rember have always been a real nervious person and i shake anyways have high anxiety and when i am using i feel normal so i guess i am self medicating?? & xaxax or any kind of that stuff does not help, for some reason?? so i am afraid this condition will make me keep using?? , what do u think?? i need help to help myself..
Jasmine, I am a very anxiuos, nervous person, too. Pain pills always calmed me ( and my nerves) down. That's why they put me on Paxil--for anxiety. I hate the way Xanax and that other stuff makes me feel, so I never took it. But, there are other medicines that are not addictive that they can give you for nerves. Just talk to your doctor about it. Don't keep taking pain pills for it, though. It will just lead to disaster, but you already know that. I don't know about you, but having "bad nerves" made my withdrawals worse! I was very shakey and cold, but sweaty. I don't take anything for nerves right now. I just want my body to be as clean as possible for now. But I do understand. It's no fun, but you can fight it. You are a strong person! Are you on any other medicine?
Hey jazz that sort of sums up a addict when a 2 year old knocks us into our senses eh? lol bless em. Better then any counsellor jackie xxxx
yeah your right, those little angels they need me, i need me!! i am going to call someone or help right know in NA, i will keep ya posted, i need help!
Jaz, I have anxiety too and when I used percs I felt better. The doc put me on an antidepressant for anxiety (anafranil) that is non addicting. I have to say I feel better not taking the percs, my head is clear and I dont want to go back to that cloudy haze I was in when on percs.
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Hi Jasmine....oh, I am having a tough Saturday....my 9 year old rebelled this a.m. so bad...she said I was "being mean"....and really gave me the guilts....you know, I haven't been the "sweetest" mom through this. Today, I came alive and decided it was time to clean the house. You know, the past months, my house is so gross and I am doing Thanksgiving and stressing out....etc.....I need some advice.
Hi, Jasmine
I don't know what I would do if it wasn't for my precious little granddaughters and thoughtful daughters through this thing with my son. He is breaking my heart with his lies and deceit. I don't know if I will EVER be able to trust a word he says. He doesn't care about ANYTHING or ANYONE, only about where his next "hit" is coming from. I almost feel like my son is dead because he isn't at all like my son anymore. Can someone help give me a boost of faith? I have faith in God, but God won't take away a free will and my son's will doesn't seem to be to get help.
Susan :(...
I don't know what I would do if it wasn't for my precious little granddaughters and thoughtful daughters through this thing with my son. He is breaking my heart with his lies and deceit. I don't know if I will EVER be able to trust a word he says. He doesn't care about ANYTHING or ANYONE, only about where his next "hit" is coming from. I almost feel like my son is dead because he isn't at all like my son anymore. Can someone help give me a boost of faith? I have faith in God, but God won't take away a free will and my son's will doesn't seem to be to get help.
Susan :(...
oh i am sorry i didnt respond sooner i was at a meeting, i am sooo sorry for how u r feeling!, me and my mom have not been getting along at all it is as if she hates me, but what u said about your son being dead because he is not the same, i am willing to bet that is how my mom feels and that is why she is being hard with me, what do i do to get her back??, and as far as your son he needs to want to stop he is in his addiction it has a hold of him i am a user of pain killers and i have to tell u that they grab u by the neck and pull u into trouble, distruction, jail, ext.. it did to me but now I wanna be clean and I will be i had 6 months and slipped , but i am picking myself up again and i am doing it, i hope a prey your son wants it as badly as I do, {{{hugs}}}}}}}} to you , take care and keep posting as much as you need...
Dear Susan,
Even though I'm the addict in the family - I had a problem with my 20 year old daughter a couple of years ago when we lived in Miami (this is before I started taking percocet) - she started hanging out with the "wrong crowd" - I found out she was smoking pot and had tried alot of other drugs - this is one of the main reasons I left Miami and moved 150 miles north to a smaller, quieter town. Well, when we first moved up here, she found every kid around the neighborhood that did the same crap. We went to couseling - nothing seemed to work. Then she started dating a wonderful guy (I think he still smokes pot) but things started to change, or maybe she just really started "growing up" and realizing the consequences to what she had been doing. She lost a good friend of hers in a car accident - this girl had JUST dropped off my daughter, before heading to her home. Not 15 minutes later we got a phone call that "Kat" had been in a fatal car crash. This may have been a wake up call for Trish. She could have easily been in that car!!!.
I'm happy to say that she is 20 years old now and has a beautiful daughter, Kylee who will be 1 year old next month. She is a wonderful mother, has a great job and the baby's father is wonderful, as well.
Just wanted you to know that things can always change. I do feel for you though. It was so hard when I was getting to the point when I felt as if I could not trust my own daughter anymore. We (all my children) have a very open relationship. We talk about EVERYTHING. I think parents need to talk to their children more these days about drugs, sex, etc. In my household, this is normal conversation. Now, when I was growning up -- well lets not even go there - we never spoke of anything like that when I was growing up.
All my best to you and your family.
Love,
Marie
Even though I'm the addict in the family - I had a problem with my 20 year old daughter a couple of years ago when we lived in Miami (this is before I started taking percocet) - she started hanging out with the "wrong crowd" - I found out she was smoking pot and had tried alot of other drugs - this is one of the main reasons I left Miami and moved 150 miles north to a smaller, quieter town. Well, when we first moved up here, she found every kid around the neighborhood that did the same crap. We went to couseling - nothing seemed to work. Then she started dating a wonderful guy (I think he still smokes pot) but things started to change, or maybe she just really started "growing up" and realizing the consequences to what she had been doing. She lost a good friend of hers in a car accident - this girl had JUST dropped off my daughter, before heading to her home. Not 15 minutes later we got a phone call that "Kat" had been in a fatal car crash. This may have been a wake up call for Trish. She could have easily been in that car!!!.
I'm happy to say that she is 20 years old now and has a beautiful daughter, Kylee who will be 1 year old next month. She is a wonderful mother, has a great job and the baby's father is wonderful, as well.
Just wanted you to know that things can always change. I do feel for you though. It was so hard when I was getting to the point when I felt as if I could not trust my own daughter anymore. We (all my children) have a very open relationship. We talk about EVERYTHING. I think parents need to talk to their children more these days about drugs, sex, etc. In my household, this is normal conversation. Now, when I was growning up -- well lets not even go there - we never spoke of anything like that when I was growing up.
All my best to you and your family.
Love,
Marie
Good morning all,
I wanted to jump in an say that I absolutely agree with you Marie, we all must talk to our kids. I talk to mine all the time....and my 19 tells me everything good or bad and I am so thankful for that. My husband has also served as a great example of what drugs can do to you. The kids (except for the baby) all know what is going on with him.....I am hoping that they will remember this when faced with a situation involving drugs.
Take Care.....
Tina
I wanted to jump in an say that I absolutely agree with you Marie, we all must talk to our kids. I talk to mine all the time....and my 19 tells me everything good or bad and I am so thankful for that. My husband has also served as a great example of what drugs can do to you. The kids (except for the baby) all know what is going on with him.....I am hoping that they will remember this when faced with a situation involving drugs.
Take Care.....
Tina
hey mistyeyes I agree with kids knowing things.I never abused my girls when I'm useing but I have talked with both(16-12)Plus they have seen alot.When my 12 yrold found out I was comming to this site she didn't say 1 word she just wrapped her arms around my neck(shes almost as tall as me)It was such a sweet moment and it really proves a childs love is neverending.They both give me hope in that they both belive in me.I always feel bad when I can't break this addiction but yet they still love me Isn't it wounderful to know that even though we have problems somehow we made these little people who always love us
I'm Mr. Sentimental I guess. This post got the tears going again. Last night, I laid in bed with my wife, our two little ones (2 and 4) jump into bed with us. ALL night, my 2 year old held our her little hand for me to hold. And I did. I held it. She knows something is wrong with Daddy and wanted secruity. I hope I gave it to her. She gave it to me, thats for sure.
I guess sometimes the littlest people make the biggest difference.I must say I just started comming to this site and it gives me hope Thank You ALL for your stories and input
Hi Mollyjean & Danny,
I personally think that children are the smartest humans being I know! They seem to just feed off of all of us. I see it with the baby everyday.....My day is her day always.......So I try to keep mine happy so I don't have to deal with a grouchy little one. Danny the baby didn't leave my husbands side the week he took off of work to kick the percs. It was like she knew Daddy needed her. When he went back to work she seem lost without him around, so she made sure she made herself difficult and weasled her but in bed with us for a week.He absolutely loved it.
Take care......
Tina
I personally think that children are the smartest humans being I know! They seem to just feed off of all of us. I see it with the baby everyday.....My day is her day always.......So I try to keep mine happy so I don't have to deal with a grouchy little one. Danny the baby didn't leave my husbands side the week he took off of work to kick the percs. It was like she knew Daddy needed her. When he went back to work she seem lost without him around, so she made sure she made herself difficult and weasled her but in bed with us for a week.He absolutely loved it.
Take care......
Tina
Tina- I know. Just a little hand reaching to you. Holding your hand when you feel like everything is lost. That little hand. Just holding it last night is what helped me sleep. Who would think it! And hers is so small compared to mine. I must be a knucklehead! I'm like WAY too sentimental.
this is the only thread that brought tears..lol..I never cry!
mollyjeans post about her daughter throwing her arms around her neck made me cry..
Jasmine hang in there. I have two daughters 3 and 6, and they give me the most joy. Each and everyday I am more and more greatful that I am sober. I get to see them grow.
My 13 year old son is coming home this week, he is going to school on another island and living with his grandma. I can't wait for him to see me sober again. He has seen my struggles. He is where I get to deal with major wreckage from the past.....
I was always really nervous, too. Vicoden was the wonder drug for me. It took away the nervousness and made me feel like I could do anything. It just kicked my a**....
Effexxor is an antidepressant that helped me. It has a component that helps with anxiety. Just a suggestion. I am not taking it right now, but it helped me. It made me sleepy, though.
Also, I guess I just have to learn to cope with the nervousness. Here I am at 31 learing how to cope again...lol...
mollyjeans post about her daughter throwing her arms around her neck made me cry..
Jasmine hang in there. I have two daughters 3 and 6, and they give me the most joy. Each and everyday I am more and more greatful that I am sober. I get to see them grow.
My 13 year old son is coming home this week, he is going to school on another island and living with his grandma. I can't wait for him to see me sober again. He has seen my struggles. He is where I get to deal with major wreckage from the past.....
I was always really nervous, too. Vicoden was the wonder drug for me. It took away the nervousness and made me feel like I could do anything. It just kicked my a**....
Effexxor is an antidepressant that helped me. It has a component that helps with anxiety. Just a suggestion. I am not taking it right now, but it helped me. It made me sleepy, though.
Also, I guess I just have to learn to cope with the nervousness. Here I am at 31 learing how to cope again...lol...
