Ok--so again just wanna give a shout out to my peeps--you all are awesome, Well--if i wasnt clear--I didn't use and I actually got my job back--my knees are rug burnt--but i have it back--OH MY GOD!!!! I just realized how that sounded--hahaha and know you GUYS you will take it all wrong, just lke the oh kev post LOL what i meant was --i had to beg aliitle--ok--i mean alot. But 2 days later I was given an accomodation letter and speech from a different boss (higher up than the one that fired me) so i am oh so confused--makes me feel better, but way more paranoid---but the lady who fired me has been ultra nice since i was re-instated (by her) so ive been rolling it over looking at it from all sides and i have become very quiet and reserved-dont trust too many here anymore. But to hear form the foundation president how good of a job im doing was nice--and i didnt say a word to her about being fired--i dont think she knew, not sure if anyone knew--wierd huh!!!
I have been having dreams every night about my x---which directly correlates to dope use in my brain--so im not sure if its him im wanting or the dope--maybe both, but i sure wish they would quit, it makes me feel all emotional and sensitive, and thats the worst because im already a sensitive person, I do not thrive on feeling my feelings like some--maybe one day ill be serene and "connected" enough to like feeling my feelings but for today i dont have the time or strength. So thats whats going on with me, and yet again ill say--(with Bryn in mind) I am so glad I have no connections at my immediate disposal!!!
Amity dearest thank bejesus ya got yer job back even if ya had to do some carpet surfing LOL.......id say f*** the biocht who sacked ya in the first place you got enough kudos from the big boss....thats what matters.....and ya still got a regular cheque to come every week or month....so you and yer son are secure financially.......which as a single parent counts for a lot ....ive been there believe.The dreams i think are going on in connection to the uncertainty you been having recently.........remember the first thought you had when you thought you had been let go.....yeah go get bombed.....i know that wasnt the Amity we know.....so do you.Take care girl......love and all that ..........Davey
Rug Burnt- yeah I guess ya couldve put that a different way.
Anyway- good for you. Back in the saddle. Best of luck again
jack
Anyway- good for you. Back in the saddle. Best of luck again
jack
Amity, it really sounds to me as if the immediate boss-lady maybe feels a bit threatened or something by you. Why's she groveling now? She probably found out that the higher-ups like your work and now she's gone all stupid trying to cover her sorry @ss. You go, girl and start thinking about your path...you are righteous and strong...
Peace~MomNMore
Peace~MomNMore
So good to hear your voice...been really worrying about you...
Maddy x
Maddy x
yeah--you are all so right--davey--it probably is something to do with feeling uncertain and yearning to grab ahold of what is most comfortable even if it will hurt me the most.....i worry about him too though, hes always lived unstable--never known anything but, and thatnever ends too good--last i heard he was skippin out on another recovery center, the man just turned 40, my goodness--but i still have feeling of love and wanting to caretake...oh golly...just sadness, i dont even know if hes alive--its good that i cannot contact him, or i probably would have, god help me...i am sick...but at least i am aware of my demons and i am definately not alone in fighting them--hows it going--Maddy???and Jack--always glad to see ya.......Mom---thanks as always you know just what to say :) Lord help us if your computer ever goes kaput
Hey Am, so glad you got your job back. Don't worry too much about the bitchy one...what goes around comes around. For someone higher up to show you recognition aboout your work just goes to show how hard you are working - at everything. Peace n P vibes, Kev
