hello to all ,my life aint going to bad at the moment my fella has been doing well he has been on subbies for a few weeks now and he has been treating us all to nice things we went to the cinema yesterday to see "the simpsons movie" the kids really enjoyed it , he has been giving me every penny he has had but most off all he is really trying . we are going to the zoo before the holiday ends too , oh and he has bought me new decorating stuff wall paper etc lol . he has been making his own cash through making rabbit hutches, bird houses, shed's etc (he is a joiner) . he say's he has had enough of drugs and crime and he wants to start living , thats a good sign in it ?
anyway im off for now i got some painting to do take care xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I want to go see "The Simpsons". We've been so buzy school starts in 20 days for my 4th and 6th graders, i'm trying to start college. Anyhow yes, all of that sounds real real +. I'm proud of him. It took me a LONG time to start to enjoy life. Partly because of methadone i think. I did not get real motivated to get on with living till i detoxed from m-done. It was Good to hear this.
Emz, that does sound really promising. Of course it's a long road to travel, but one of the things that motivated me to get clean was that I was totally worn to a frazzle by "the life of crime". You just don't realise how taxing it is until you don't have to worry about it anymore. One of the things that I learned, that I gained from getting clean is that peace of mind is priceless. I can worry about all sorts of stuff, but it's a nicer kind of worrying when you've got the moral high ground, when you know that you're doing the right thing. The subs will be keeping him stable, and it's great that he's not sitting about on his arse thinking about stuff he'd rather forget. When heroin is removed from a life, it leaves a great big empty hole. Something has to fill that void, life has to grow over the gap, or the emptiness inside never stops hurting. Going out to work, spending quality time with you and the little ones, it's a very good sign. Here's hoping that everything continues as it's begun...
love
Diff xxx
love
Diff xxx
And z-g, please don't wait to start living - time and tide wait for no man - it's your precious life that's slipping away whilst you wait, wait, wait for just that one more piece of the puzzle to click into place before you do what ever it is you want to do. I fell into that trap for years - I'd sort my s*** out when this happened, or when that happened. One day I just woke up to myself. Threw open the curtains, and felt the glorious strength of empowerment. I could do whatever I wanted to. I just had to get up off my lazy arse and put one foot in front of the other, and keep going till whatever it is I wanted to do was done. Actually, when I did sort my s*** out, I didn't know what I wanted, or where I was going. As long as it was away from where I was, then that was good enough for me. Looking back, yes it was scarey, but it was exciting too. Making new friends, meeting new men, having my own place, with nobody to tell me what to do, or to climb into my head and start playing with my brain.
I slipped up when I moved in with my boyfriend, but I'm rectifying that mistake. My new house is almost ready for me to start work on it - the builders will be gone by tomorrow. It's hellish daunting - it's a big old house, and it needs complete redecoration. Every single wall needs stripping and papering, and some of it needs replastering too, and it's got a massive overgrown dishevelled garden that is gonna be a big job to just get it neat. But it will get done just like everything else. One foot in front of the other and don't stop till it's done. Then it will be my sanctuary, my place, my home. I was looking round it this morning, and had that little twinge of fear - what am I taking on here? Will I manage? I've never hung wallpaper in my life! But I know I'll get there, coz failure is not an option!
Don't wait - just get on with it, or you'll keep procrastinating forever!
love
Diff xxxx
I slipped up when I moved in with my boyfriend, but I'm rectifying that mistake. My new house is almost ready for me to start work on it - the builders will be gone by tomorrow. It's hellish daunting - it's a big old house, and it needs complete redecoration. Every single wall needs stripping and papering, and some of it needs replastering too, and it's got a massive overgrown dishevelled garden that is gonna be a big job to just get it neat. But it will get done just like everything else. One foot in front of the other and don't stop till it's done. Then it will be my sanctuary, my place, my home. I was looking round it this morning, and had that little twinge of fear - what am I taking on here? Will I manage? I've never hung wallpaper in my life! But I know I'll get there, coz failure is not an option!
Don't wait - just get on with it, or you'll keep procrastinating forever!
love
Diff xxxx
Hi Emz,
I only posted to you once before, when he was being mean to you. So after reading this post today, I have to say that I am so happy for you. He's trying, and it sounds like he is a good guy with a bad problem that he's working on and we have to give him credit for that.
Hang in there, looks like things are looking up for you and your family and I am happy for you.
Briar
I only posted to you once before, when he was being mean to you. So after reading this post today, I have to say that I am so happy for you. He's trying, and it sounds like he is a good guy with a bad problem that he's working on and we have to give him credit for that.
Hang in there, looks like things are looking up for you and your family and I am happy for you.
Briar
Yes Diff: I spent the 1st year of recovery in shock just getting thru it "methadone" . I'm lil over 2 years off now. I started to see the value of life about the 1st year off, I was just pointng out to EMZ it took me a while to get where her man is already. Doing, projects, working, living well stuff.
I'm all about one foot in front of the other NOW, it took time to get to that point "a long time". I do think the m-done numbed down my brain i progressed much faster after getting off it. Guess i was a slow learner you are left with a hole once H is gone. You do gotta figure out things to put in that hole. I think subs are a better way to get sober. I've seen better results with subs, as far as time wise getting your life back in order.. I felt all groggy not motivated on m-done, foggy days that was. i'm suprised he's newly clean and getting involved with working, seeing movies, family stuff, it took me time to re connect to life in those ways.
I'm all about one foot in front of the other NOW, it took time to get to that point "a long time". I do think the m-done numbed down my brain i progressed much faster after getting off it. Guess i was a slow learner you are left with a hole once H is gone. You do gotta figure out things to put in that hole. I think subs are a better way to get sober. I've seen better results with subs, as far as time wise getting your life back in order.. I felt all groggy not motivated on m-done, foggy days that was. i'm suprised he's newly clean and getting involved with working, seeing movies, family stuff, it took me time to re connect to life in those ways.
How are ya Emz?...things do sound like there moving in the right direction...i wouldnt call it luck..maybe lucky as in yer man has found his projects to fill his time which is so important when recovering from addiction...keep his mind on the positive and hes getting a few bob for the crafts hes at...all good and hes sticking to his medication which gives him more routine mentally and physically.Wish you and yer family all the best .........Davey
..Emz..
..Tis a real good sign..good luck to ya's..Robbie..
..Tis a real good sign..good luck to ya's..Robbie..
"" He wants to start living life"" so glad to hear it Emz. All the best to you and your family...
Fantastic Emz! So happy for you all. Enjoy every moment. You deserve it.
Maddy x
Maddy x
Such good news, EMZ...........I'm thrilled for your beautiful family......you all deserve a good life.
YAY!
YAY!
thanks all you guys, your all great ppl , and to zg the simpsons movie was great real funny i loved it but neil was a little dissapointed with it but i recommend you watch it and im sure your kids will enjoy it too xxx
