Hey everyone....I'm still here...still suffering....my poor job is suffering too! Things are piling up in my office, and I just can't find any motivation whatsoever. My boss knows I smoke, and knows that I know I have a problem with it. He has told me that he would help me whatever way he can. He has a brother that goes to AA, and said that he could set me up through him. It's a big help knowing that he's there for me, but I'm sure he's getting tired of me saying "Yeah, I know I have a problem" and then watching me go out after work to do my usual routine. Although meetings sound good, and people have good things to say about them, I don't think they are for me. I used to think it was because of the "God" thing, but after reading August's (and others') posts on the subject, I don't think it would be a problem. I just think I need to talk one-on-one with a "counsellor" or something. I need to address my depression and am thinking of going to a Doctor and explaining everything to him/her and see if they think I need anything to help me. (antidepressent, etc.) Anyway, it's getting down to the wire now. Before, I wanted to quit because of my physical and mental health, now I need to quit if I want to keep my job. I think the day is coming......
Dear Becca
Making the effort to stop you'll be able to see whats bothering you. Now is the best time to stop. When you clear this hurdle you'll begin to see what it is that you want. I ve seen your post before and I know you are reaching out, but try not to complicate your desire to stop, your addiction monster will try to convince you what will be the best way to quit, and thats just sabotaging your desire to stop.Be grateful that you have boss willing to help you, my boss could care less.God, universal subconscious, reiki,whatever has a funny way of extending assistance when you truly need it, and it looks like it has heard you,
Dont concern yourself so much with God when it comes to AA, I learned to appreciate the plethora of knowlege AA offers, reading the big book itself you will learn more about your dis-ease and how to handle yourself. Best of luck.
Making the effort to stop you'll be able to see whats bothering you. Now is the best time to stop. When you clear this hurdle you'll begin to see what it is that you want. I ve seen your post before and I know you are reaching out, but try not to complicate your desire to stop, your addiction monster will try to convince you what will be the best way to quit, and thats just sabotaging your desire to stop.Be grateful that you have boss willing to help you, my boss could care less.God, universal subconscious, reiki,whatever has a funny way of extending assistance when you truly need it, and it looks like it has heard you,
Dont concern yourself so much with God when it comes to AA, I learned to appreciate the plethora of knowlege AA offers, reading the big book itself you will learn more about your dis-ease and how to handle yourself. Best of luck.
Hang in there Becca we are all suffering with you and trying to find our path to freedom. You are not alone! Thanks for sharing.
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