il make this short and as less dramatic as i can lol.
I was raped at the age of 16 never told anyone i had a baby daughter but because of truma (unknown then) i was unble to manage hence she was adopted. I met my Husband and concieved almost straight away after having my son i was in complete shock and emotional turmoil why because i was scared to death i would not cope, i suffered post natal depression and went to the GP complaining of headaches he gave me a strong anigesic hence the long roller coster hey i could funtion, no more nightmeres of giving up my child etc, we then moved house and area i ran out of my pills the new GP prescribed me solpidiene which i was on for 20 years making excuses not to come off. Lots of nightmeres-ish stuff in between abusive father etc but now im out of the nightmere i lived and im doing just good. I never went to meetings although for some its a good idea i just never had that kind of supprot here not many people had heard of a solpidiene addiction so getting the right help was difficult untill i finially had had enough and gave up. jackie xxxx
Thanks for sharing your story with us. I hadn't known....you sure have been through hell and back. It makes your positive spirit all that much more exceptional. Peace, M.
Jackie,
Thanks so much for sharing your story. What a hard life....You have an amazingly strong spirit, it shines in all you write on here.
Take Care,
Tina
Thanks so much for sharing your story. What a hard life....You have an amazingly strong spirit, it shines in all you write on here.
Take Care,
Tina
Thx its being positive that gets me through its hard at first but once you learn to translate the bad into good it becomes easier. Of course its not for everyone and sometimes being positive dosent always help but it sure makes your way of thinking better. Now im clean i need to work that much harder to stay that way so any signs of negativity and i start to question my train of thought and relise hey life is not that bad. yes it could be better so what am i going to do to change it or adapt to it? sounds simple eh? lol i wish it was that simple even with all my positive thought PMT comes and goes lol lol jackie xxxx
Jacky ~
You are a very strong and brave person. Sharing your story took a lot of inner strength.
You seem to be pulling yourself together after such a tragic part of your life. I am so glad
that you are dealing with it. Not to mention the fact that you are clean. If you need a friend
I am here for you!
<<<<<<<<<<<LOT'S OF LOVE >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.
You are a very strong and brave person. Sharing your story took a lot of inner strength.
You seem to be pulling yourself together after such a tragic part of your life. I am so glad
that you are dealing with it. Not to mention the fact that you are clean. If you need a friend
I am here for you!
<<<<<<<<<<<LOT'S OF LOVE >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.
jacky, your story is amazing, when i first started on this site (6-04)you were one that was here already and i must say you rock although im not familiar with your pill of choice nonetheless addiction is addiction i remember people giving you heck about being on this site about your pills and you stayed strong,again we listened when you went thru a traumatic time with a death (your ex, i believe) and again you stayed strong and still offered advice and hugs to all, and after 5 mnths. of clean time i relapesed for a min.(i lost my b-friend to a sudden and tragic death) and didnt feel comfortable posting although i still read posts sometime and now that im back on track again, its good to see you are still here and giving your honest advice and of course those hugs you are one of my inspirations , keep on keepin on
Hi Jackie,
You are an amazing person to get through all of that. Did you have any counseling to help you out?
I've just started in counseling "again". Been there before, I think though when feelings start to roar I end up quitting like I almost did again. I have a good counselor this time, just as Cowgirl said about hers, this one has been able to get stuff out of me when others couldn't.I'm going to try and stick it out this time as Cowgirl said so I can get passed it all and move on with my life. When emotions start to show while I'm in front of somebody I get extremely embarrassed and just want to run. I won't cry in front of anybody. For some reason crying is a huge embarrassment for me.
Did you get through it all on your own?
Love,
Liz
You are an amazing person to get through all of that. Did you have any counseling to help you out?
I've just started in counseling "again". Been there before, I think though when feelings start to roar I end up quitting like I almost did again. I have a good counselor this time, just as Cowgirl said about hers, this one has been able to get stuff out of me when others couldn't.I'm going to try and stick it out this time as Cowgirl said so I can get passed it all and move on with my life. When emotions start to show while I'm in front of somebody I get extremely embarrassed and just want to run. I won't cry in front of anybody. For some reason crying is a huge embarrassment for me.
Did you get through it all on your own?
Love,
Liz
Dear Jacky, your attitude says so much about you as a person, that you could go through so much, and still be the kind and positive lady you are. Thank you for sharing your story. Take care, love, Kat
Jacky,
Thanks for sharing your story with us...You are one strong and beautiful woman.
It shows through all of your lovely posts.
God Bless,
Deb
Thanks for sharing your story with us...You are one strong and beautiful woman.
It shows through all of your lovely posts.
God Bless,
Deb
thx for your posts.
Liz i found that counselling was for me a bad experience after being let down in my life so many times, after approaching a counsellor and begging for help to be told come back next week going to Drs and crying trying to end my life sort of made me relise that jacks your on your own girl, however i did go again it was then that i gave up for 2 years but i hasten to add not because i visited a counsellor but because i had reached a point in my life do or die, you would of thought i would of learnt from it eh lol nope its a bit like anything else soon forgotten, but this time is my lifetime. i soon learnt that no one could ever understand how i was feeling requrdless of who they were addict or no whislt we all have similar trates the one thing we do have independently is personality some good some bad soem indifferent ive learnt to anilise what im about where im going and what i want and yes maybe its a long process but im not going anywhere yet lol to understand oneslef is to love oneself i think lol. I spent far too many years sitting on my pitty pot poor old me that my bum is sore lol. jackie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Liz i found that counselling was for me a bad experience after being let down in my life so many times, after approaching a counsellor and begging for help to be told come back next week going to Drs and crying trying to end my life sort of made me relise that jacks your on your own girl, however i did go again it was then that i gave up for 2 years but i hasten to add not because i visited a counsellor but because i had reached a point in my life do or die, you would of thought i would of learnt from it eh lol nope its a bit like anything else soon forgotten, but this time is my lifetime. i soon learnt that no one could ever understand how i was feeling requrdless of who they were addict or no whislt we all have similar trates the one thing we do have independently is personality some good some bad soem indifferent ive learnt to anilise what im about where im going and what i want and yes maybe its a long process but im not going anywhere yet lol to understand oneslef is to love oneself i think lol. I spent far too many years sitting on my pitty pot poor old me that my bum is sore lol. jackie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
