Well, as you know by now, I don't post from home--it's the "Cobbler's Kids," syndrome for me. I spend all day during the week chained to this silly machine so I don't spend anytime on it at home.
My Spousal Unit (SU) left Friday for B'ham to work all Memorial weekend--some pageant thingy that her company is affiliated with--and so I was left to my own devices all weekend. GRPs (Genetic Research Projects) all have things to do, too, so it was a very quiet weekend.
In another life I'd have been smashed by 10 (immediately after having gotten the chores finished, run to the grocery store to stock up for the weekend, etc) and somehow managed to climb aboard the lawn tractor for hours of entertainment and self-amusement in my head. This weekend was different.
While the analysis paralysis continues if I let it, I was at peace. I went to a meting mid-day on Saturday (wasn't very rewarding 'cause it was a different group) and took it easy after getting things done. Made all kinds of foods and salads for Sunday's cookout with my GRPs who came out and stayed until 9 or 10 in the evening. Earlier on Sunday I drove up to B'ham and met SU for lunch, then drove back. She's very needy (needs to attend AlAnon desperately) and very icky-loving when she's insecure. Gonna have to work toward her getting that fixed now that I can't drink her problems into my domain.
ANYWAY, Monday was uneventful--lots of time in my head but I got to another meeting at my usual group. Thank God! As an addiction-collector, it's now my favorite obsession! BUT, and here's the kicker, I find myself trying to control my topics instead of just letting them come to me. I wake up and, while in the shower, try to determine what I'm going to discuss in today's meeting. YIIKES! Worse--I feel that if I'm not entertaining-i.e., FUNNY, then I haven't gotten much out of the meetings. Laughter--and making others laugh--is my vent. My rescue. My curse....
:)
VW, Ginge, Bob and all y'all (that's plural for y'all down here), thank you for the kind words and encouragement. It works if I work it....
Thanks for letting me share my stream of consciousness this morning....
Wonderful SKG on making it through the long holiday weekend sober! I hear ya about the sharing thing too...sometimes I just want to look good like I have it together and then, the next day I'm in a meeting, share, break out into tears, the truth comes out, I ask for help and get relief and suggestions from people who have gone before me...but, I do have good days too, and I do have it together on some of those day (lol) and can share the solution....but the last six months have been extremely difficult for me, but the post you posted with the actions to get connected to God...well, I'm gonna print those out and try to read them everyday.
Hey VW Girl (GTI or Beetle?),
I have a printed copy--along with my "list" printed and in my vehicle--something to read while waiting at the drive-through or in the parking lot. IT works for me--along with rubbing my coins together!
:)
I think I need progress in order to feel like the program's working when, as my elder sister reminded me, just listening to the BigGuy's peace around you sometimes is what's required. We get so caught up in having to have some sort of ACTION or EVENT--like constantly feeding our senses. It's imperative to listen, too. At least, for me it is.
Thanks for your input on this forum--not just for me, but for kind of taking the responsibility to make sure it moves.
Peaceness.
I have a printed copy--along with my "list" printed and in my vehicle--something to read while waiting at the drive-through or in the parking lot. IT works for me--along with rubbing my coins together!
:)
I think I need progress in order to feel like the program's working when, as my elder sister reminded me, just listening to the BigGuy's peace around you sometimes is what's required. We get so caught up in having to have some sort of ACTION or EVENT--like constantly feeding our senses. It's imperative to listen, too. At least, for me it is.
Thanks for your input on this forum--not just for me, but for kind of taking the responsibility to make sure it moves.
Peaceness.
