Just got back from picking up my TH bottles. If there is ever a place that you hear bad news its at a mdone clinic.
Dave was a friend of mine. Its funny how people could grow up so differently and wind up so similar .
I pretty much wanted for nothing ,growing up in NYC -before moving to NJ .
Dave grew up hard, With nothing. On the tough streets of a Northern NJ city he fought for everything he had.
Of course our dope habits brought us together & became the common denominator of a friendship.
As I became more active in my criminal behavior ,it still was always little things(more or less).
Dave hung with a more dangerous group- and the last bid he did was 3 years for an arson for hire charge. The mobbed up people involved all got hit with RICO charges- he kind of got off easy.
He had gotten out and swore that this was it. He got a real job. Got responsible , paid the bills, and took care of his long time girlfriend. Dave ,being a urban white guy ,saw no big deal with having a puerto rican girl friend & the Italian wiseguys and wiseguy wannabees busted him about her all the time. He couldnt care less
The news this morning - Dave od,d and died . The dope was strong & he was clean. His girlfriend is in shock -I feel horrible. This was Wednesday. What made him go back to the dope after this long abscence,when things were finally looking up??- -
I don't know that we all dont already know the answer to that. . This stuff has a pull that just doesn't stop. There was alcohol involved which Im sure put the idea of "just one time" in his head.
I'm remembering the time I took his G/F in when he was away (for something else,& she had no where to go)-
Yeah , two people so different yet so similar- it couldve been me,you, anyone who plays this phucking game
Now what?- I drink my dose- go to work & go to a wake (paid for by the state) tonight.
Today life sucks
peacetoall,
jack
Dear Jack,
I'm sor very sorry for your loss. Just terrible news about your friend. I hear about some of mine from time to time. Or see them in the obits. May this be a lesson to us what one more time can mean. God Bless you and your friend Dave, Jack. My prayers are with you!
Beck
I'm sor very sorry for your loss. Just terrible news about your friend. I hear about some of mine from time to time. Or see them in the obits. May this be a lesson to us what one more time can mean. God Bless you and your friend Dave, Jack. My prayers are with you!
Beck
Jack,
I am SO very sorry for your loss! We walk this life everyday on the edge of a choice not always careful of the one's we make.....it goes with this filthy game of addiction. Believe me when I say I feel your pain.
With Sympathy and Respect,
Darin
I am SO very sorry for your loss! We walk this life everyday on the edge of a choice not always careful of the one's we make.....it goes with this filthy game of addiction. Believe me when I say I feel your pain.
With Sympathy and Respect,
Darin
Jack, I'm so sorry to hear about your friend.
God Bless Dave.
God Bless Dave.
Some days things just stop you in your tracks don't they? So sorry for your loss. Your post has touched me and I can't find the words to say how.
Thinking of you,
Maddy x
Thinking of you,
Maddy x
Jack ..mate sorry to hear bout yer friends death....we become addicts ..know other addicts...and we the lucky few who get out alive and resume an ordinary life????but we gotta live with the fallout as are you doing now.Jack truely sorry for yer loss ...seems death is about just like Robbie losing his childhood mate in dubious circumstances just recently.Chin up pal.......Davey
RIP Dave - hope the sun is shining up there!
Jack, there's nothing like a funeral to make you think about what's really important in this life. Make sure you search every damned cloud you feel for a silver lining my friend. Death should never be in vain.
A bloke from from town died a couple of weeks ago. Not drug related, he was out for a spin on his Harley D, and got taken out by a lorry doing a U turn on the main road out of town. Young fella he was. Man, he had one hell of a send off. They closed the road for the courtege, hundreds of bikes, him in a Cadillac, the courtege went by his house, then on up to the crem. They broadcast the sermon in the cark park of the crem, and all the bikes were revving up to mark their respect. Fair play. Bikers look after their own...
Hope you're feeling a bit less sad, Jack...
love
Diff xxx
Jack, there's nothing like a funeral to make you think about what's really important in this life. Make sure you search every damned cloud you feel for a silver lining my friend. Death should never be in vain.
A bloke from from town died a couple of weeks ago. Not drug related, he was out for a spin on his Harley D, and got taken out by a lorry doing a U turn on the main road out of town. Young fella he was. Man, he had one hell of a send off. They closed the road for the courtege, hundreds of bikes, him in a Cadillac, the courtege went by his house, then on up to the crem. They broadcast the sermon in the cark park of the crem, and all the bikes were revving up to mark their respect. Fair play. Bikers look after their own...
Hope you're feeling a bit less sad, Jack...
love
Diff xxx
rarely you will find me at a loss for words, but there are a few subjects ehre i fail to understand or pretend to understand--scary man just plain scary--it almost was and could be me--your right. Just yesterday i was at a nice italian restaraunt and as soon as i sat down WHAM the waitress slams a huge open bottle of wine right under my nose letting me know-only 25 cents for a first glass--whoa that was hard, i spoke with my pastor this morning about it (he gives me rides to work) and i was thinking that our addiction will tell us anything make you think--im strong enough its just a glass of whine at a nice meal--then before you know it your back in the streets-I cannot drink without wanting to get highand i cannot get high without wanting to everyday---man your right it is a sad day when you think of all that--thats why i try to reach out---well i guess i found some words--thanks for letting us feel your pain--it helps me to hear these things as sad as they are
Sheesh that's wrong Amity...they shouldn't just do that without asking...or maybe shouldn't even ask. Hope you're doing ok girl x
Dear Jack, yes, sometimes life sucks, but today, you have life, and another chance to "take your methadone dose, go to work" . Your friend does not,
Take this day, and look forward to better days, keeping dave in your thoughts and prayers.
rita
Take this day, and look forward to better days, keeping dave in your thoughts and prayers.
rita
Thanks ffor all the sincere condolances my friends. The lastest now> his G/F refuses to believe (I dont know why) that it was a straight out od. She cancelled the wake until an autopsy is done. Maybe a hot shot in retribution for some prision bulls***tt-??? -I really dont know and it wouldnt be fair to guess. However, I just got off the phone with her & she is in major shock
Part of me says"whats the difference" but another part of me says if there was foul play- - someone must pay!
You just wish someone would wake you up& say it was a dream.
You want the pain she is feeling to go away. All in time-
I guess
Ill try and keep you guys informed.
jack
Part of me says"whats the difference" but another part of me says if there was foul play- - someone must pay!
You just wish someone would wake you up& say it was a dream.
You want the pain she is feeling to go away. All in time-
I guess
Ill try and keep you guys informed.
jack
So sorry about your friend. Like you said, that could have been you ,me anyone. We are only ONE drug/drink away from the possibility of death.
Keeping you and Dave in my thoughts and prayers.
Dawn
Keeping you and Dave in my thoughts and prayers.
Dawn
If I'm honest jack, when I read your first post I suspected foul play...but like you said, nothing changes the fact that it hurts.
Prayers going up for you and his loved ones.
Maddy x
Prayers going up for you and his loved ones.
Maddy x
Jack,
I am so sorry for the loss of your friend...
I have no words, not today, nor usually any day when it comes to the death in it all...
Sending prayers...
Love,
Tina
I am so sorry for the loss of your friend...
I have no words, not today, nor usually any day when it comes to the death in it all...
Sending prayers...
Love,
Tina
My deepest condolences Jack. Your buddy Dave sounds like he was a intreasting guy for sure.
No matter how good things are going for me i still have the thoughts, of just one more. It's a terrible and confusing disease.
No matter how good things are going for me i still have the thoughts, of just one more. It's a terrible and confusing disease.
Jack, i don't know what to say, i'm so sorry for your loss. Dave RIP...Kev
Jack,
It hurts always does every time we hear of someone going this way, we've lost many friends nearly all had been clean for a while and even when you don't know them like you say it there but for the grace of God - take it easy.
k
x
It hurts always does every time we hear of someone going this way, we've lost many friends nearly all had been clean for a while and even when you don't know them like you say it there but for the grace of God - take it easy.
k
x
Prayers for Dave's girlfriend as well...........poor lady........she has to be just devastated.............hopefully she will find just a tiny bit of peace of mind if only for even a moment..........losing her loved one that sudden is heart wrenching.
Thinking of ya, Jack.
Thinking of ya, Jack.
