What are some of the side effects of heavy using...physical side effects I'm talking about...that you are GLAD to be getting rid of by being clean?
For example, I hated the fact that my nose itched so bad I thought I was going to itch it off my face. AND the fact that I talked like 80 miles a minute. Oh and the severe nausea. Yuck.
Hmmm. The throwing up... the weight gain... the headaches... paranoia... the constant cigarette smoking... the emotions... the anger... lol... list goes on and on! Love, Bri :)
Oh yeah... and the itching too... all the little scabs i had towards the end... still have scars from them.
The cravings and the obsession. Pills were all I cared about. Nothing else mattered.
I just need to ask,why are you asking something like this?
For me my WHOLE world centered around getting more pills,running out early,not being there emotionally for my daughters,screwing up good relationships,I could go on & On & On...mj
For me my WHOLE world centered around getting more pills,running out early,not being there emotionally for my daughters,screwing up good relationships,I could go on & On & On...mj
Oh yeah... and the big one... getting ARRESTED... does that count MJ? LOL... :)
Hey Bri...Dont know I was always very lucky(?) that way.I just never got into that kind of trouble.Lord knows I did enough drugs in my life to be very lucky to even still be here...mj
Hows life Bri???
Hows life Bri???
OOOO yeah, nothing like detox in jail. They are soooo sympathetic.
Kat... sad thing is i didn't really know that's why i felt so bad when i was there... i knew i felt like that every time i ran out of pills... but didn't know anything about wd's.
Mj... life is really good... sitting here trying to stomach this detox drink... ick! I don't know if i told you... but i got a nose ring last weekend... it's just a little stud. It's really cute! But, my memaw and papaw dont think so... lol! But, they said they still love me! How are you?
Mj... life is really good... sitting here trying to stomach this detox drink... ick! I don't know if i told you... but i got a nose ring last weekend... it's just a little stud. It's really cute! But, my memaw and papaw dont think so... lol! But, they said they still love me! How are you?
<<I just need to ask,why are you asking something like this?>>
Just because I want to keep repeating to myself all the nasty things about using whenever I'm tempted or think it might be a good idea.
Also, it's nice to see what I won't have to deal with anymore. One thing I like is not having to hide things from my family and husband. I feel so free. Now when my husband calls my name I don't have to freak out about "what did he find?"...I know that I haven't done anything wrong. Well, at least not with pills.
Just because I want to keep repeating to myself all the nasty things about using whenever I'm tempted or think it might be a good idea.
Also, it's nice to see what I won't have to deal with anymore. One thing I like is not having to hide things from my family and husband. I feel so free. Now when my husband calls my name I don't have to freak out about "what did he find?"...I know that I haven't done anything wrong. Well, at least not with pills.
Please dont take what I said as harsh I just really wanted to know your reasons thats all.I meant no harm at all.I can see your point to it & I thank you for explaining.Like I said I didnt mean it in a harsh or mean way I was just wondering,Thanks
On a different note you sound like you are doing GREAT & I give you all the credit in the world along with whatever support I can offer,Keep up the great work...mj
On a different note you sound like you are doing GREAT & I give you all the credit in the world along with whatever support I can offer,Keep up the great work...mj
Thank you. I appreciate that. Actually, I go back and forth. Sometimes I feel like I'm doing really good and like I couldn't imagine using ever again.
Then, I'm like OMG, how the hell am I gonna do this sober? Like today, I was driving to work and thinking of things I had to do. I was thinking man, that would be so much easier high. Then, in my head saying, "well tough s*$t dude because you ain't gettin high, you better get used to it."
Then, I'm like OMG, how the hell am I gonna do this sober? Like today, I was driving to work and thinking of things I had to do. I was thinking man, that would be so much easier high. Then, in my head saying, "well tough s*$t dude because you ain't gettin high, you better get used to it."
Everything...I was emotionally and spiritualty dead, and next was the physical...I was down to 98lbs so I'm sure it was only a short amount of time before I was dead...there were no good effects, absolutely nothing good came from the abuse so my answer would be absolutely everything....Now I'm at a point where I am finding out why I used drugs and dealing with those issues and after years of abuse, I have a long road to cover but I didn't get here over night so I don't expect to heal overnight either...
Take care Sun...one day at a time!
Stacey
Take care Sun...one day at a time!
Stacey
I think we all have days like that,.most of the time Im good & dont crave (I am On Suboxone)But sometimes the mental cravings get so bad I feel as if Id do ANYTHING to feel that feeling.But I will admit little by little Im learning to enjoy life without that feeling.And I know you will too.When you have those bad days post your heart out as I found that it helps so much.The cravings do pass(Thankfully)& I give you so much credit for staying strong....mj
CKsun...
Maybe a better question would be what are you grateful for now that you are clean & sober...make a gratitude list & carry it with you, trust me, you never know when it'll come in handy....
Take care,
Stacey
Maybe a better question would be what are you grateful for now that you are clean & sober...make a gratitude list & carry it with you, trust me, you never know when it'll come in handy....
Take care,
Stacey
Thank you for your suggestions. I'll work on that gratitude list.
My cell phone bill....YIKES!!!!!!