Mr. B,
whats sleep? i havent slept in 2 nights, i don't think. if i am sleeping, its some really crappy sleep. wake up at least every hour or so and even then i'm not sure i was asleep. I know it'll get better with time, it did last time.
but the dreams are something else. Do you ever have the dreams that you just got a big bag and are smoking on it, and wake up and actually kinda feel stoned...man i did when i quit the first time. Then when i woke up i actually looked in my drawer to see if the bag was really there. IT SUCKS.
P.S.,
THANKS SO MUCH TO Mr. B, wonderwomen and jamv and any others that has helped me. I'm really relying on you guys to help me through this....Thank you.
I still dream that dream.
Well, Dad knows I am checkin on this thing since he showed it to me last night and I was checkin on things since i've been at school and work all day.... I don't wanna log out of his name or nething so I am just posting on his.. I don't think he'll mind much since we sat down and he showed me all of it last night
Anyways, I just want to thank you guys so much for helping my dad. Clearly my mom can't help him, just like it's clear that he can't much help her either.
I would indeed like to help them both but I know nothing... no words of wisdom...no personal experience... and I can't much help with the mom and him situation either cuz its not really my business and i am not so sure my own relationship is to great either.... SOOO.. I just wanted to say thank you a million times over to you guys in helping my dad with his decision to quit...
I've been waiting a long time!
God Bless,
<3Robin<3 (Bubba's Kid)(16)
I LOVE YOU DAD.
Anyways, I just want to thank you guys so much for helping my dad. Clearly my mom can't help him, just like it's clear that he can't much help her either.
I would indeed like to help them both but I know nothing... no words of wisdom...no personal experience... and I can't much help with the mom and him situation either cuz its not really my business and i am not so sure my own relationship is to great either.... SOOO.. I just wanted to say thank you a million times over to you guys in helping my dad with his decision to quit...
I've been waiting a long time!
God Bless,
<3Robin<3 (Bubba's Kid)(16)
I LOVE YOU DAD.
The dream---*scratches head* hmmm must be a cold turkey thing.
Robin, thanks for posting, grab a handle and come back whenever you like. If you want to help your dad, just be supportive like you would like him to be if you lost a sweetheart. Basically he just lost his best friend.
Robin, thanks for posting, grab a handle and come back whenever you like. If you want to help your dad, just be supportive like you would like him to be if you lost a sweetheart. Basically he just lost his best friend.
Well I would ..but I think that dad might have a problem membering his pasword if there were two of us coming on here with different handles.. lol...
but I just dont want to be another dissappointment.. I love my dad.. am PROUD (yes dad PROUD) of him for making this decision.. so i want to show my support and be the someone that he can look to in the house..
So i am gunna stay off of here... just be reading...give him his own "thing"
<3Robin<3
but I just dont want to be another dissappointment.. I love my dad.. am PROUD (yes dad PROUD) of him for making this decision.. so i want to show my support and be the someone that he can look to in the house..
So i am gunna stay off of here... just be reading...give him his own "thing"
<3Robin<3
Thanks to my wonderful daughter for her support, and the words of encourement, it will definetly help, i love you! dad
A little emotional here, guys. How incredibly wonderful. My husband happened to be sitting here when I was reading. He usually shows no interest but I was all verbal, "Awww, how sweet." and then I said, "I'm gonna cry."
He asked about it, so I shared it out loud. It made me think of our daughter, naturally, so I started to choke up. Then I got a grip. Btw, she is 15 and really proud of me. We also read Hippienerds post. I found myself telling my husband how much he reminds me of him.
I remember a "social toking" dream that repeated itself for awhile. Offering a joint to the next door neighbors that just moved in. LOL Welcome to the neighborhood ! When I think about it now, it still makes me smile, but for different reasons.
Anyway, I have "Boundary" homework, so I have to run. A written assignment to share with my therapist tomorrow.
A good boundary here would be about being mindful of what your daughter reads. We don't want to overwhelm her. This is a huge concept for her too. :-) As mature as she sounds, we must remember her age.
In the mean time, Bubba, good on you for the honesty factor !
He asked about it, so I shared it out loud. It made me think of our daughter, naturally, so I started to choke up. Then I got a grip. Btw, she is 15 and really proud of me. We also read Hippienerds post. I found myself telling my husband how much he reminds me of him.
I remember a "social toking" dream that repeated itself for awhile. Offering a joint to the next door neighbors that just moved in. LOL Welcome to the neighborhood ! When I think about it now, it still makes me smile, but for different reasons.
Anyway, I have "Boundary" homework, so I have to run. A written assignment to share with my therapist tomorrow.
A good boundary here would be about being mindful of what your daughter reads. We don't want to overwhelm her. This is a huge concept for her too. :-) As mature as she sounds, we must remember her age.
In the mean time, Bubba, good on you for the honesty factor !
me too, makes me emotional......
jojo
jojo
JoJo - Checkin in with you, r u ok btw ? My spidey senses are tingling again. Send me email, I'll check after I'm done my homework. I'll listen ok and not talk too much. :-)
ww- thanks for asking, i'm okay. just okay. had a hard week mostly 'women's issues' and husband issues and wow come to think of it, lots of issues.... which i am learning all lead down the same road. everything is tied into my past use and my now clean time.
i don't feel better like most of you are, being clean. just the dreams that remind me my head is clearing. the thing that stops me from picking up is going on a roll and having to start all over. cause i will have to stop again. so i'm just not starting again. but...... still waiting the clarity, the peace and the ability to really think straight.
i hope it comes, people say it will, what if it doesn't???
you sound like you are doing so well. what wonderful support you are getting. i love hearing what you are learning and doing so please keep posting.
i've been rather silent, not much to say esp. to the new peeps but i'm behind them and i'm reading all!
have a great day, thanks for thinking of moi........-jojo
i don't feel better like most of you are, being clean. just the dreams that remind me my head is clearing. the thing that stops me from picking up is going on a roll and having to start all over. cause i will have to stop again. so i'm just not starting again. but...... still waiting the clarity, the peace and the ability to really think straight.
i hope it comes, people say it will, what if it doesn't???
you sound like you are doing so well. what wonderful support you are getting. i love hearing what you are learning and doing so please keep posting.
i've been rather silent, not much to say esp. to the new peeps but i'm behind them and i'm reading all!
have a great day, thanks for thinking of moi........-jojo
Bubba (and kid) - you guys have really touched me. I have been fighting the fight for a few weeks now and it does get easier. The very first step is stopping and you have successfully done that.. and you have great support. I am so impressed at the support your kids are giving you.
And this board helps A LOT. These people are always here and always ready to help - and they are VERY HELPFUL.
Mr. B is still my hero in this process. Bubba you are my hero too!
And this board helps A LOT. These people are always here and always ready to help - and they are VERY HELPFUL.
Mr. B is still my hero in this process. Bubba you are my hero too!
I am just realizing now that those first few weeks in the hospital, I was not grasping things very well. I was pretty numb and not open to many possibilities. At the time though, I wasn't really aware of that, I just wanted to feel "normal". The more I talk with someone or write about it, it seems my brain is readjusting. You may have got that from my posts,recently. :-)
I'm a little foggy, sometimes, still, and sometimes I need to remind myself to stay "in the room."
I like this grounding session we had. You sit comfortably wherever and focus on three things you can see that are in the room. Anything, just pick three things. Then you choose three things you can feel, like the material on your shirt, or the chair against your back. Then you choose three things you can hear. At first, it was hard to do the auditory one. I had to remind myself with self-talk to be gentle with "me." As I'm still adjusting to the new sober me and find myself giving myself heck for being such a scatterbrain. There's so many ways to experience meditation,JoJo. Have you considered it ? :-)
I'm a little foggy, sometimes, still, and sometimes I need to remind myself to stay "in the room."
I like this grounding session we had. You sit comfortably wherever and focus on three things you can see that are in the room. Anything, just pick three things. Then you choose three things you can feel, like the material on your shirt, or the chair against your back. Then you choose three things you can hear. At first, it was hard to do the auditory one. I had to remind myself with self-talk to be gentle with "me." As I'm still adjusting to the new sober me and find myself giving myself heck for being such a scatterbrain. There's so many ways to experience meditation,JoJo. Have you considered it ? :-)
No need to watch what you say in fear of my not being able to handle it. Trust me... I can most definatley handle it.
I just want to help my dad to help himself in anyway possible.
I am so proud of him and my mom, moreso than they'll ever know.
I love them both greatly.
Anyways, there is no need to be careful because of me...
If dad tells me not to read anymore or something.. I would respect that.
I went ahead and got my own handle I spose'...
Thank you all so very much once again
I love you dad!!
<3Robin<3
I just want to help my dad to help himself in anyway possible.
I am so proud of him and my mom, moreso than they'll ever know.
I love them both greatly.
Anyways, there is no need to be careful because of me...
If dad tells me not to read anymore or something.. I would respect that.
I went ahead and got my own handle I spose'...
Thank you all so very much once again
I love you dad!!
<3Robin<3
jojo-
%and I thought you were staying clean because you knew I would disapprove%
ww-
You told me that normal was a setting on your dryer.
Now you tell me that you just wanted to feel normal.
So, you wanted to feel like a setting on your dryer?
My scientist mind is confused.
I sure your husband will understand why.
lol
bubbaj-
you may hold the record for the longest thread ever by a new poster, this was your first thread, right? Maybe you should go research that with all your new found spare time.
I have really been in a mood lately, probabaly good I haven't been posting much, huh? Don't mean I ain't been a readin...
<3Robin<3-glad you got a handle!
%and I thought you were staying clean because you knew I would disapprove%
ww-
You told me that normal was a setting on your dryer.
Now you tell me that you just wanted to feel normal.
So, you wanted to feel like a setting on your dryer?
My scientist mind is confused.
I sure your husband will understand why.
lol
bubbaj-
you may hold the record for the longest thread ever by a new poster, this was your first thread, right? Maybe you should go research that with all your new found spare time.
I have really been in a mood lately, probabaly good I haven't been posting much, huh? Don't mean I ain't been a readin...
<3Robin<3-glad you got a handle!
Glad to have one..
Guys please keep it up as far as helping my dad.. he really looks foward to hearin from you guys!
Love to yas!
<3Robin<3
Guys please keep it up as far as helping my dad.. he really looks foward to hearin from you guys!
Love to yas!
<3Robin<3
jojo-
%and I thought you were staying clean because you knew I would disapprove%
and that too my dear hippie, it's all tied into the same thing (basically) done is done.
i'm doing okay after a mega week though? you??? i'm off to momma's tomorrow.... a full day ahead. lol!
hope all's good-
:) jo
%and I thought you were staying clean because you knew I would disapprove%
and that too my dear hippie, it's all tied into the same thing (basically) done is done.
i'm doing okay after a mega week though? you??? i'm off to momma's tomorrow.... a full day ahead. lol!
hope all's good-
:) jo
Good Luck with Momma. :-)
Hope everyone is having a good day.
God Bless
God Bless
Hi Robin,
Hope you are having a good day too !
Diana
Hope you are having a good day too !
Diana
I understand how bubba is feeling and to him the pain is great.This is his post and he is reaching out daily for support, keep up the great work Bubba it gets easier each day.Wonder woman work on your issues hun stop trying to be the center of attention. What are your motives here? You should ask yourself.
