Hi, I'm new here. I have been trying for over 10 years to get sober. I've been to AA many times and had some periods of sobriety. I'm a mom of 4 great kids and I have a supportive husband but still can't keep that drink down.
I'm hung over today. I drank a bottle of wine and 4oz of vodka last night in 4 hours. I got up this morning and asked my husband to help me. I feel a bit hopeless as AA has not helped me get and stay sober. My kids are ages 1 through 12 and going to a rehab is not an option. I think I could use it though.
I plan on going to a meeting tonight. I'm scared, mad, tired and sick. My 42 birthday is one month from tomorrow. I just want to give myself 30 days of sobriety on May 1st.
I hope to find some friends here, some help and perhaps someday be able to help someone else!
Thanks for "listening"
It's me again. Just got back from a meeting. I thought about how much I've missed due to blackouts and just obcessing about drinking, covering it up, guilt, shame etc. I slept for a few hours today and wasn't up when the kids got home from school. What a crappy mother I am.
I'm so tired, I want to change and get better. Is there hope....can it be done?
I'm so tired, I want to change and get better. Is there hope....can it be done?
Dear Hammer:
Hi there hun. Good for you for going to that meeting even though you felt like crap. I know I've been there all too many times. The hangovers get to be so unbareable, you feel like crawling under a rock and never seeing the light of day again. Just remember it's one day at a time, that is all we have. I 've been an alcoholic all my adult life, I'm 34 now, and have been sober for 4 months now, and there isn't a day goes by that I don't feel like having that drink, but the craving passes, because I have to keep myself busy, and I don't allow myself to get too hungry, too angry, too lonely, or too tired. Life is so much better with being drunk and hungover, I've missed out on sooo much because of it and I don't want to miss out on anything anymore, I'm actually starting to live again! you can do it, give yourself the best birthday present ever Sobriety! you'll be so glad you did! Keep posting, I'm here almost everyday, and there are wonderful people here to get advice from and support!
God bless,
lovedove
Hi there hun. Good for you for going to that meeting even though you felt like crap. I know I've been there all too many times. The hangovers get to be so unbareable, you feel like crawling under a rock and never seeing the light of day again. Just remember it's one day at a time, that is all we have. I 've been an alcoholic all my adult life, I'm 34 now, and have been sober for 4 months now, and there isn't a day goes by that I don't feel like having that drink, but the craving passes, because I have to keep myself busy, and I don't allow myself to get too hungry, too angry, too lonely, or too tired. Life is so much better with being drunk and hungover, I've missed out on sooo much because of it and I don't want to miss out on anything anymore, I'm actually starting to live again! you can do it, give yourself the best birthday present ever Sobriety! you'll be so glad you did! Keep posting, I'm here almost everyday, and there are wonderful people here to get advice from and support!
God bless,
lovedove
Hammer, I will bump a post up in which I share my experience, strength and hope for you to read. Life is better today for me, much better. There is hope and you can do it, heck anyone can if I can!
Lovedove and VWgirl,
Thank you so much for your posts. It makes me feel like I'm not alone. I've been out of touch with my sponsor and other friends in AA because of the shame and having to share the same old "drinking again" story.
I'm going to get reconnected, quietly, pray and read the Big Book. Just some goals for today.
I'll keep checking in here too. I'm so greatful for all of you out there. I wish all who read this a happy, sober spring day.
:)
Thank you so much for your posts. It makes me feel like I'm not alone. I've been out of touch with my sponsor and other friends in AA because of the shame and having to share the same old "drinking again" story.
I'm going to get reconnected, quietly, pray and read the Big Book. Just some goals for today.
I'll keep checking in here too. I'm so greatful for all of you out there. I wish all who read this a happy, sober spring day.
:)
Hammer, that pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization, I know it well...just take it one day at a time. Nothing more. I believe folks at AA are grateful when people drink and come back, I know I am, it shows me that I am not missing anything out there and that it still doesn't work for alcoholics like us...as you know we are all in the same boat and anyone's misery can be refunded at any time should they choose to go out. I am a sober and dignified woman today; I no longer lead a secret double life. Now that is freedom!
Hi,
I have to agree with VW Girl, being sober is great, and the things that come with like Not Leading a double life!
I have to agree with VW Girl, being sober is great, and the things that come with like Not Leading a double life!
