Hey guys, Im lau, I'm new here; just came across this web-site, actually. It's really awesome to read all your stories. I feel a little bit less lost to find out there are so many others like me. Here I don't have to lie and lie and lie about things.
Today I woke up...feeling s***, half a bottle of gin left from last night, and automatically i poored myself another one. GOD!!! I f***ing LOVE it :-(( ....but I SO know I shouldn't and i SO know i'm wasting my time (and my brain) with this crep. But then, sitting in the window with a ciggy and a drink...it;'s so hard you know!!!
I'm in Uni, and i'm slipping. I really need to get myself on track, before there's no going back. I've not always been like this, not this bad. Things are really getting out of hand, and i need to get a grip! I really want to, but i just don't know where to start anymore, so many things i need to change....
Keep writing...i think it helps to keep my chin up!
Thanks....
Lau
Hey Lau! I'm new here too and you're so right reading everyone's stories is really helping me to feel that im not alone! Don't worry about your studies you can always go back to them if your finding it all to much you just need to take each day as it comes! My weakness is vodka and you would think the smell would turn my stomach by now but I cant stop thinking about when im going to have my next drink and where im going to get the money for it I know its ruining my life but i just cant stop im not even sure that i want to. Im here if you want to talk and remember... chin up!!
Becks
Becks
others have been in your shoes.
the best place to start, if you want to quit and recover and are serious about it, is with a local AA meeting. just call and get the schedule and location of meetings, show up and after the meeting starts, tell them your first name and that you have a desire to stop drinking.
Hi Lau...recovery is a journey ..find what works for you...be open to trying everything that anyone suggests....within reason and safety of course..meetings, rehab, groups, therapy, read, write, talk, get out..go to the gym even if all you feel like doing is to sit and watch others work out. Eat, sleep and whats worked for me..ask God for His help......I'm 8 years into my recovery and drinking as i write this but headed to Womens AA retreat tonight....there's only failure when u stop trying...keep trying...things you've done before can look different when u try them again...just keep an open mind and be willing to look at things differently..then embrace the work, ask for help and if you can ask whatever higher power your comfortable with...if thats a chair across the room, make that your higher power..as long as it is something outside yourself...we can't do this alone....and don't have too, get rid of shame and guilt and take this on! If you want your life back, have the courage to change.
