I just found this site, and it seems wonderful. I have been using for 2-3 years now. I take anywhere from 3-6 a day, I don't have a perscription, so my addiction is very expensive, and if I had had a script, I probably would be taking 10 a day. I am 24 and have one kidney. I would like to quit while I am young, but I just don't feel ready. My Fiancee hides my pills, and only gives me about 1-3 a day, but a lot of times I will have my own personal"backup stash" in case I freak out. I take these pills not for pain, but for anxiety and security. They numb me from any insecurities, I cocktail here in Vegas, and I seem to make more money at work because I am more outgoing, have more energy, and not thinking about any stress In my life. I don't feel any pain, when I first tried loratabs, I thought they were the perfect magic pill to all my problems. Now I notice I am much more negative, when I am not on them or coming down, and of course this puts a toll on my relationship. I hate that I feel so weak, mentally, and they have such a control on my life. But I believe you have to really want to quit to be able to. I don't know what it will take to get me to stop.
Hi pooky the fact that you sought us out means your already exploring the idea of quiting there is no easy answer everone is so different and everyones rock bottom is not something you cant put a time frame on, saying that im not suggesting you wait untill you hit rock bottem hun you know you need to quit or you would not be here, i think you have to start being honest with your g/f she sounds like she is rearly trying ot help you out here as they say never bite the hand that feeds ya lol. mayeb you should stick around and read what others are saying maybe you might become inspired enough to want to quit. untill then take care of you hun jackie xxxx
Yes I believe you do have to truely want to quit before you will. Sometimes it is easier said than done. I know what you mean about having energy and sercurity.That is the main reason I believe some people stay on it longer than than they need to. It may start out for pain issues and turns into like the energy and the out going attitude you have with others.So I agree. Saying that I also know that pills are a false sense of security and you can feel great, secure and have energy without them also. It may take a few weeks and some dedication but it can be done!! Welcome to the board. My name is Rachel(Rae) if you need to talk just let me know!!!! Take care!! Rae
Pooky,
I agree with Jacky. The fact that you searched for recovery and recognize it is a good step. Personally, I think the idea of quitting scares us so we don't want to quit. In all honesty, once you take that step to quit, it's not so bad. I quit cold turkey a week ago and I honestly do not feel all that bad. After day 3-4, my sleep started to return, the jitterness left, and most physical symptoms were gone. Please don't feel like you can't post if you are still using. We'll try to help as much as we can. Just hang in there! Welcome to the board!
MM
I agree with Jacky. The fact that you searched for recovery and recognize it is a good step. Personally, I think the idea of quitting scares us so we don't want to quit. In all honesty, once you take that step to quit, it's not so bad. I quit cold turkey a week ago and I honestly do not feel all that bad. After day 3-4, my sleep started to return, the jitterness left, and most physical symptoms were gone. Please don't feel like you can't post if you are still using. We'll try to help as much as we can. Just hang in there! Welcome to the board!
MM
Thankyou everyone for your response. I was a little worried I shouldn't post because I am still using. I am also scared to quit. I will continue to read everyones messages, and learn from those who are recovering. If anyone has any advice to get past that first step of not wanting to quit, please let me know. Thankyou so much:)
Hey Pookie, I remember saying once "I want to want to quit". I just couldn't seem to find enough want to. My suggestion for you is to do what I did. Learn about your disease. Read everything you can find online about addiction and recovery. It will help you to want to more and make good choices. Good luck, love, Kat
POOKE I dont think your addicted yet. I think you might be better on a low dose of zanex, I been on what you take since 1985,The best thing I can tell you if you continue you will be addicted I wish I could go back to 3 pills I have taken as many as 20 percocets at atime so i know ,take imodium for your belly, and benadril to help you sleep for 2 weeks and thank GOD you dont have this GORILA ON YOUR BACK. LIVE YOUR LIFE DONT GIVE IT TO THE DEVEL ROGER
Hi Roger,
I know I'm addicted. If I could afford to take 10 a day I would. I pay $4-$5 a pill because I don't have a script. I use to take 10-15 a day then weened myself down to 3-6 because simply I can't afford them. Thankyou for your concern. I think you should tell my fiancee that
I know I'm addicted. If I could afford to take 10 a day I would. I pay $4-$5 a pill because I don't have a script. I use to take 10-15 a day then weened myself down to 3-6 because simply I can't afford them. Thankyou for your concern. I think you should tell my fiancee that
