HI,
IM A 31 YR OLD MOMMY OF 4 AND BEEN AN ADDICT FOR A LITTLE OVER A YR. STARTED OUT W/ DENTAL SURGERY...LAORTABS...A COUPLE EVERY OTHER DAY.THEN WAS DIAGNOSES W/ DEGENERATIVE DISK DISORDER, AND REFERRED BY MY FAMILY DOC TO A PAIN CLINIC. THE PAIN DOC GIVES ME 120 LORTAB 10'S A MONTH, 15 FENTENYL PATCHES, AND 90 XANAX BARS FOR ANXIETY. I AM SO TIRED OF BEING IN THIS CLOUD, AND WANT TO SMELL THE FRESH AIR AGAIN. IN THE BEGINNING THE PILLS HELPED W/ THE PAIN AND GAVE ME A BOOST OF ENERGY TO GET CHORES DONE......THOSE NICE FEELINGS HAVE NOW PASSED AND THE 120 A MONTH LASTS ABOUT 2 AND A HALF WEEKS NOW. I KNOW ITS BECOME A PROBLEM, AND I WANT OFF THIS CRAP, AND MY WEIGHT BACK. I WEIGH 93 LBS DOWN FROM A HEALTHY 130. I FEELED DEPRESSED AND SO UNMOTIVATED. I WANT MY NORMAL LIFE BACK AND DONT WANT MY BABIES TO GROW UP WITH AND ADDICT MOM. ID RATHER GO THRU PAIN THAN HAVE THIS ADDICTION. IVE TRIED TO COME OFF BUT ITS REALLY HARD. I DONT WANT TO SUB ONE ADDICTION FOR ANOTHER OR TAPER EVEN. I WANT IT OVER WITH AND I KNOW ITS NOT A PEICE OF CAKE. BUT I AM SO GLAD I FOUND THIS SITE, AND HOPEFULLY W/ HELP AND PRAYERS I CAN KICK THIS. FOR MY HUSBAND AND CHILDREN. I CAN IMAGINE HOW PROUD AND RELIEVED I WOULD BE IF THIS WAS BEHIND ME. HOW LONG IS IT GONNA TAKE FOR THE MOST OF THE SEVERE WITHDRAWALS? AND CAN IT BE DONE....IF SOMEONE TELLS ME ITS AT LEAST POSSIBLE THAT WILL BE SO MUCH INSPIRATION. BY SUMMER I WOULD LOVE TO LOOK HEALTHY AGAIN AND NOT BE ASAHMED OF MY BONES POKING OUT EVERYWHERE.AND BEING ABLE TO WEAR A BATHING SIT AND PLAYING WITH THE KIDS. I HATE THIS DEMON. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO SAY ONE DAY THAT I AM A RCOVERED ADDICT. THANKS SO MUCH FOR LISTENING AND HELPING. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME.......AND ANY ADVICE AT ALL..........I NEED IT. GOD BLESS.
kass,
it sure can be done, i am proof, i went off with help of a detox dr. i had to be wiened off xanax for 5 days, but the res was pretty much cold turkey. i udes approx 30 vicodines/soma and approx 9 xanax a day. i went through a week of one hella flu like feeling. but it wint kill you. make sure you have all the over the counter meds, take lots of hot baths (i took at least 5 a day) they help remendously. bundle up with blankets on the couch, eat lots of bananas, drink soups. and bite the bullet and just keep reminding yourself this doesnt last forever. say prayers. meditate if you can. i read the bible alot. that gave me alot of peace when anxiety struck.get some good movies books, paper plates, plstic forks/cups and such. blow off house work and dont feel guilty about it, it will still be there, but do try to do one thing everyday, something. it helps as well. get some fresh air, try to walk. excersise will also help. you will have sleepless nights. but that too will return and wont last forever. you will go through all kinds off emoitional ups and downs all part of withdrawals as well. you will level out. the most important thing is to get a good support team too. friends/family counceling you dont have to do this alone. and no one should have too. also look up n/a or a/a in your area for after you are over w/d there will be a wealth of support there for you as well. welcome to the board and keep posting. many people have gotten and are still clean here. you are not alone. you are worth it. just have some faith and believe in yourself, you can do it!!
terrianne
it sure can be done, i am proof, i went off with help of a detox dr. i had to be wiened off xanax for 5 days, but the res was pretty much cold turkey. i udes approx 30 vicodines/soma and approx 9 xanax a day. i went through a week of one hella flu like feeling. but it wint kill you. make sure you have all the over the counter meds, take lots of hot baths (i took at least 5 a day) they help remendously. bundle up with blankets on the couch, eat lots of bananas, drink soups. and bite the bullet and just keep reminding yourself this doesnt last forever. say prayers. meditate if you can. i read the bible alot. that gave me alot of peace when anxiety struck.get some good movies books, paper plates, plstic forks/cups and such. blow off house work and dont feel guilty about it, it will still be there, but do try to do one thing everyday, something. it helps as well. get some fresh air, try to walk. excersise will also help. you will have sleepless nights. but that too will return and wont last forever. you will go through all kinds off emoitional ups and downs all part of withdrawals as well. you will level out. the most important thing is to get a good support team too. friends/family counceling you dont have to do this alone. and no one should have too. also look up n/a or a/a in your area for after you are over w/d there will be a wealth of support there for you as well. welcome to the board and keep posting. many people have gotten and are still clean here. you are not alone. you are worth it. just have some faith and believe in yourself, you can do it!!
terrianne
Hey there,
Terrianne has given you very good advice. Unfortunately, there really isn't a way around the withdrawals. Some people use subuxone, but that must be gotten off of as well. I too have degenerative disc disease. After I quit all the drugs, my pain actually got better. Can you talk to your Dr. about this? I know it's scary to cut off the supply, but it's the only way. You probably should (talk to your Dr.) with the xanax you're taking. It can be done. I was so scared too and was oxycontin as well as all the rest. But it has been more then worth it. Keep posting here. We'll help you any way we can.
Beck
Terrianne has given you very good advice. Unfortunately, there really isn't a way around the withdrawals. Some people use subuxone, but that must be gotten off of as well. I too have degenerative disc disease. After I quit all the drugs, my pain actually got better. Can you talk to your Dr. about this? I know it's scary to cut off the supply, but it's the only way. You probably should (talk to your Dr.) with the xanax you're taking. It can be done. I was so scared too and was oxycontin as well as all the rest. But it has been more then worth it. Keep posting here. We'll help you any way we can.
Beck
g'morning becks : )
yeah i forgot kass, you can not cold turkey on xanax, you could have seizures, you have to be weined off of them, so you will definately want to talk to your dr about that one, he also may give you other meds to help ease the w/d as you come down off of the other stuff you are on. just be honest. dont tell him you are abusing them, just tell him you want off them cause you feel your quality of life with your family isnt how it used to be. you dont feel safe to drive anymore blah blah blah, and i dont see why he would have a prob in helping you for trying to do the right thing. some dr'd are jerkes if you say you are abusing them and they kick you out of the office with no more meds at all.
terrianne
yeah i forgot kass, you can not cold turkey on xanax, you could have seizures, you have to be weined off of them, so you will definately want to talk to your dr about that one, he also may give you other meds to help ease the w/d as you come down off of the other stuff you are on. just be honest. dont tell him you are abusing them, just tell him you want off them cause you feel your quality of life with your family isnt how it used to be. you dont feel safe to drive anymore blah blah blah, and i dont see why he would have a prob in helping you for trying to do the right thing. some dr'd are jerkes if you say you are abusing them and they kick you out of the office with no more meds at all.
terrianne
Morning Boo,
Having a bout of insomnia again. Been up since 2:00. Probably help if I didn't go to bed before 9:00. So...I'm gonna call in sick again and finish my Christmas stuff. A little more shoppin' and decoratin'. It'll be nice to get it done. What's up with you today?
Beck
Having a bout of insomnia again. Been up since 2:00. Probably help if I didn't go to bed before 9:00. So...I'm gonna call in sick again and finish my Christmas stuff. A little more shoppin' and decoratin'. It'll be nice to get it done. What's up with you today?
Beck
hey beck,
i just had knotty pine put up on a couple of my walls and i am gonna play around with home decorating. i love this stuff. i had it on my ceilings first. you know that look where it looks like a wood floor on the wall lol plus get my christmas stuff out too.
terrianne
i just had knotty pine put up on a couple of my walls and i am gonna play around with home decorating. i love this stuff. i had it on my ceilings first. you know that look where it looks like a wood floor on the wall lol plus get my christmas stuff out too.
terrianne
Hey Kass you can do C/T no problem. You got excellent advice from boo the bath/Shower works well. Lots of fluids --gatorade and water. Drink all day and pee all day. Gets the $hit out of your system.
Regarding Zanax how much have you taken and for how long.
Your doctor should switch you over to Klonopin or Valium. Zanax is quite dangerous and hard to wean.
Jeff
P.S Intodeep after stopping the abuse of Oxy and percs my pain went down as well.
Something about the brain. The longer your off the better your threshold of pain becomes.
Regarding Zanax how much have you taken and for how long.
Your doctor should switch you over to Klonopin or Valium. Zanax is quite dangerous and hard to wean.
Jeff
P.S Intodeep after stopping the abuse of Oxy and percs my pain went down as well.
Something about the brain. The longer your off the better your threshold of pain becomes.
Kass;
Congrats on finding this site and on your desire to get clean! From reading your post it sounds like you're definitely motivated to get "out of the fog" as you say. Good for you! It also seems as though maybe you've been experiencing wd's if you're running out of pills every month - unless you're supplementing what your doctor is providing. Not sure about that.
Anyway, ct is something many here are very familiar with. It's not a walk in the park, but it is doable. First though you should come clean with your doctor, tell him what's going on and at the same time cut off your source. Ask him if there is any reason from a medical perspective that you can't just go ct.
And then get on with recovery and life! Keep us posted.
Jim
Congrats on finding this site and on your desire to get clean! From reading your post it sounds like you're definitely motivated to get "out of the fog" as you say. Good for you! It also seems as though maybe you've been experiencing wd's if you're running out of pills every month - unless you're supplementing what your doctor is providing. Not sure about that.
Anyway, ct is something many here are very familiar with. It's not a walk in the park, but it is doable. First though you should come clean with your doctor, tell him what's going on and at the same time cut off your source. Ask him if there is any reason from a medical perspective that you can't just go ct.
And then get on with recovery and life! Keep us posted.
Jim
Hello Kass,
Welcome to the Board. I am do happy you find this website, and are making a great decision to get off of that "crap". I also deal with pain issues, have been on most narcotics. I think the Lortab will not be too bad to get off of, however the Fentanyl is more difficult, but can easily be done if you are determined. I would highly recommend you do any w/d's with Dr. supervision. It's amazing, some Dr.'s can be very helpful. You do not have to live the life you are living any more, you can happy, joyous and free. We are all here to support you. Keep posting. Take care, Best Wishes
Welcome to the Board. I am do happy you find this website, and are making a great decision to get off of that "crap". I also deal with pain issues, have been on most narcotics. I think the Lortab will not be too bad to get off of, however the Fentanyl is more difficult, but can easily be done if you are determined. I would highly recommend you do any w/d's with Dr. supervision. It's amazing, some Dr.'s can be very helpful. You do not have to live the life you are living any more, you can happy, joyous and free. We are all here to support you. Keep posting. Take care, Best Wishes
Kass,
I too had the same feelings...I just so wanted my life back and my appetite........not only did I want to do it for my family, but I needed to do it for ME..so you need to do this for YOU!! that is the only way you are gonna make it.
It is very hard, and you will want to cry alot and just stay in bed...everyone has their way of getting thru it, I personally took herbs. You can go to your local herb store and tell them what drugs you are detoxing thru and they will direct you to the best herbs.........Taking ALOT of hot bathes helped me also,..and then just being here daily to talk about how you are feeling.highs and lows will help..There are some great folks on here that will help you. I found I sat here day in and day out for the first few weeks..........and just read and talked...it helps cuz you relize you are not the only one doing it..
Hang in there....YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!
Traci
I too had the same feelings...I just so wanted my life back and my appetite........not only did I want to do it for my family, but I needed to do it for ME..so you need to do this for YOU!! that is the only way you are gonna make it.
It is very hard, and you will want to cry alot and just stay in bed...everyone has their way of getting thru it, I personally took herbs. You can go to your local herb store and tell them what drugs you are detoxing thru and they will direct you to the best herbs.........Taking ALOT of hot bathes helped me also,..and then just being here daily to talk about how you are feeling.highs and lows will help..There are some great folks on here that will help you. I found I sat here day in and day out for the first few weeks..........and just read and talked...it helps cuz you relize you are not the only one doing it..
Hang in there....YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!
Traci
