Hi all...I have been thinking of this alot lately...the holidays bring on so many emotions for even the most "normal" of people. One thing that is for sure is that it is a New Year...filled with the hope and promise to "wipe the slate clean".
So many changes have happened with so many of us...some good...some fantastic...some a miracle...and for some not so great. But what I think is amazing as this new years eve approaches there is so much hope...I have a unfettered commitment to my sobriety with a tenacity so ferocious that even I am amazed. I know that all the struggles that I have had have not been vain for I have learned so much and am so much more at peace with myself than I ever believed I could be. This has been a gift...but it is one a very long time in the making.
I almost feel as if I have been re born and have a second chance at a life that eluded me in the past. For all intense purposes those looking into my life would think it was perfect..funny how looks can be deceiving...because with seemingly so much on the ball....I was a shell of women....just putting one foot in front of the next to do the next right thing without ever being grateful or relishing in all the blessings that were at my fingertips.
With my new found sobriety and a clear head...this year will be one of working on me...something I have never really done before...now I am not talking about new hair cuts, outfits, manicures or pedicure or massages...all those things we do to our outsides that make us feel better...short term...
I am truly talking about fixing the inside from the depths of my soul...I have committed to therapy and family counseling and will work the 12 step program to the max! Once I have decided to sink my teeth into something there is no such thing as half way.. I will work on my marriage and family and also am quitting smoking new years....I know people always do this on this day...I never did because I thought it was dumb...well not this year...I am also going to start a rigorous training program to be in the best shape of my life...just to see if I can!
I am so happy even though things are kinda crappy...what an oxymoron!!!
So I am also interested in what you all are thinking as well...I know some don't buy into this...I used to be one of them....but for some reason...not this year...I think i have alot to start to give back...I am on a mission this year!!
What about you?????
Every year my mother in law says "so glad this year is over, what a horrible year its been". She says this EVERY year. I think we do tend to concentrate more on the bad that has happened than the good. Of course being in a war is enough to generalize things as bad but we should look more at what goes right in life. The New Year is a chance to begin anew. To wipe the slate clean. That in itself is a gift for all of us. Im going to sit down on New Years Day and WRITE down the things I want to work on or aim for this year. Lets all make our list for 2007 and work hard at making as many goals come to be as possible. Remember - "First, the dream".
KeeKee - Happy New Year!
KeeKee - Happy New Year!
thank you kee kee...........you have really got me to sit down and take thime to think about what would i like to do or change this new year........
wonderful post.............
this year is going to be such a wonderful year.........
i have so many things brewing in my heart about what i want to do different this new year......
one is to stop smoking for good............
and then there are other things that i want to focus on like getting involved in some type of ministry helping the poor.........
helping the people that just need to be loved and cared about in this world.
i am even considering having my own ministry......
a minisrty of hope and love......for the poor and poor in spirit.....
i have a fire buring inside of me to touch the hearts of those that are in need.
i do feel satisfied at work because i help patients, but seems like i want do do more, in a different way..........
another thing is i want to get in the best physical condition for myself, for my heart.
i want to be very sexy and wear sexy jeans., with high heels, like i use to...
since i have became a nurse, things changed, i worry alot, i think to much.
i dress very conserative.......
and this year is going to be different, i am seeking HOLISTIC doctors and education......
and even condidering going back to school for education in the holistic way of living and healing........
this year i am going to do yoga, meditate and calm my spirit back down to the person i use to be before the pills took over my life.......
and continue to study the bible and Mother Teresa......
love ya
thumper
You guys have so much more in mind for the new year than I do. I'm impressed, and I hope everything you all wish for comes to you. It's nice to hear that some people have the same goals as me, and I enjoy feeling like I'm not alone in struggling with things that seem to come so naturally to other people.
Donnatwo you're right to say that us being in war time kind of puts this year into perspective, but that we can still look to a brighter picture and try to focus on what is going right. I can relate to that. I want so badly to be optimistic, I'm going to get momentum from smaller steps, and then break free.
I only want one thing to start off the year; to be clean. I want to be free of pills.
I want this so badly, I feel like I'll do anything to get it. This will be my home run, and then I'll worry about running the bases.
I hope that as I get stronger I can start setting my sights on to other things that really matter, and start defining myself again as a caring person, so that I can make a difference in other peoples lives.
Thanks for this topic. I'm ready for 2007.
Donnatwo you're right to say that us being in war time kind of puts this year into perspective, but that we can still look to a brighter picture and try to focus on what is going right. I can relate to that. I want so badly to be optimistic, I'm going to get momentum from smaller steps, and then break free.
I only want one thing to start off the year; to be clean. I want to be free of pills.
I want this so badly, I feel like I'll do anything to get it. This will be my home run, and then I'll worry about running the bases.
I hope that as I get stronger I can start setting my sights on to other things that really matter, and start defining myself again as a caring person, so that I can make a difference in other peoples lives.
Thanks for this topic. I'm ready for 2007.
I think for me my deepest hope in the New Year is how to learn to forgive myself. Being clean is one thing but alot of baggage goes along with it. I feel so much guilt for the things I did & people I hurt in active addiction. I'm gonna work on me because I'm realizing being clean is not enough. Shantel
This is a great topic. My deepest hope is that I can just find some peace and be happy with the decisions I make to find it. I hope that all my struggles will pay off and I will be in a better place, as a wiser person, because of it. I hope to tune out what is negative and focus on making positive changes.
Kee Kee:
Happy New Year! You sound wonderful! I am very happy for you...and so eager to hear all your learn this next year...share you information!
One thing I wanted to say over the holidays, and didn't was that you may not see the seed the example of your life is planting in your daughter right now...but you are roadmapping a way out of the trap her life is whether you realize it or not.
She will see the bloom in you and mentally note it, even whether she realizes it or not!!!! Subtle things work their way to the surface of our minds sooner or later...I will pray for that for her. I think it is really beautiful that you are doing this work, and providing her with some insight...and what is most beautiful about it is that it is born of pure desire to be whole...on your part. What a gift to her KeeKee...never lose sight of that.
In 2007 I am praying most for World Peace. For healing on this planet...for each and every one of us to realize the power that our life is...to make a change in small ways that will benefit everyone. I am praying for the collective spirit to do the right thing.
After losing my friend...and feeling sad because of my loss...also feeling so sad for him, that he was alone so much in the process of his dying...it was really heartbreaking for me. Then I realized there are men and women dying everyday in war torn areas...or of starvation in Africa, and no one...no best friend, is there to hold their hands while they pass. I have to be grateful that my friend went slow enough to let me tell him how much I love him...how grateful I was for him in my life, and he got to thank me too. I was blessed with that time...so I am trying to lose the sadness and replace it with gratitude.
Love you KeeKee....have a wonderful New Year Evening....and a great New Year Day. Much love.
Peace.
Sarah
Happy New Year! You sound wonderful! I am very happy for you...and so eager to hear all your learn this next year...share you information!
One thing I wanted to say over the holidays, and didn't was that you may not see the seed the example of your life is planting in your daughter right now...but you are roadmapping a way out of the trap her life is whether you realize it or not.
She will see the bloom in you and mentally note it, even whether she realizes it or not!!!! Subtle things work their way to the surface of our minds sooner or later...I will pray for that for her. I think it is really beautiful that you are doing this work, and providing her with some insight...and what is most beautiful about it is that it is born of pure desire to be whole...on your part. What a gift to her KeeKee...never lose sight of that.
In 2007 I am praying most for World Peace. For healing on this planet...for each and every one of us to realize the power that our life is...to make a change in small ways that will benefit everyone. I am praying for the collective spirit to do the right thing.
After losing my friend...and feeling sad because of my loss...also feeling so sad for him, that he was alone so much in the process of his dying...it was really heartbreaking for me. Then I realized there are men and women dying everyday in war torn areas...or of starvation in Africa, and no one...no best friend, is there to hold their hands while they pass. I have to be grateful that my friend went slow enough to let me tell him how much I love him...how grateful I was for him in my life, and he got to thank me too. I was blessed with that time...so I am trying to lose the sadness and replace it with gratitude.
Love you KeeKee....have a wonderful New Year Evening....and a great New Year Day. Much love.
Peace.
Sarah
Wow...you all never cease to amaze me! Such warm and intelligent women with a true gift of giving. I have watched each one of you over the past year...grow and learn. I have seen you overcome problems and difficulties and am in awe of your commitment to your sobriety....each of you have been so instrumental in my recovery and for that I thank you.
Although we have never met in person I consider you all my friends and am so proud to know you...thank you for that gift..
There is no doubt in my heart that all you seek to do this year will happen. And if it doesnt happen the way you want it...you will find a way to twist and torque it to give you the satisfaction of obtaining your goals.
Man this is getting mushy.....pass the syrup...lol...I truly care so much and want nothing for the best!!
Now come on peeps.....its new years eve!!!! What do you want out the up coming year!!!!
sending big fat smooches!!
Although we have never met in person I consider you all my friends and am so proud to know you...thank you for that gift..
There is no doubt in my heart that all you seek to do this year will happen. And if it doesnt happen the way you want it...you will find a way to twist and torque it to give you the satisfaction of obtaining your goals.
Man this is getting mushy.....pass the syrup...lol...I truly care so much and want nothing for the best!!
Now come on peeps.....its new years eve!!!! What do you want out the up coming year!!!!
sending big fat smooches!!
Kee Kee that is a great question.
ACCEPTANCE--I have a lot on my plate. Way to much stuff. But I am determined to keep focusing on the positives in my life. Recently I have been diagnosed with another disease and it frustrating. My body is so fragile. But it is what it is.
I made it a whole year NO surgeries no hospital stays---not one day of missed work. Not missing any work is amazing.
2007 will not be easy but each year Is a challenge. I am not of afraid of anything.
Kee Kee happy new year to you.
Jeff
ACCEPTANCE--I have a lot on my plate. Way to much stuff. But I am determined to keep focusing on the positives in my life. Recently I have been diagnosed with another disease and it frustrating. My body is so fragile. But it is what it is.
I made it a whole year NO surgeries no hospital stays---not one day of missed work. Not missing any work is amazing.
2007 will not be easy but each year Is a challenge. I am not of afraid of anything.
Kee Kee happy new year to you.
Jeff
I love your attitude KeeKee. Whenever I start feeling a little sorry for myself I read posts like yours and realise just how lucky I am. Especially this year. It has been a rough year and one that I'm glad to have behind us but I am really looking forward to the new year.
Not sure what I need to do different this year, but yes, something different. Right now I'm just concentrating on healing.
Awesome thread....
Not sure what I need to do different this year, but yes, something different. Right now I'm just concentrating on healing.
Awesome thread....
Wow, This is a great thread Kee Kee...........I loved reading all the replies just now.
My deepest hope for the new year, is to find some peace within myself and in my life. The inner peace that so many of you talk about, I would love to feel.
I know I need to make alot of changes in my life this year, and I am hoping for the strength and clarity of mind, to make the right choices.
Happy New year...........To all of you.
Hugs.
My deepest hope for the new year, is to find some peace within myself and in my life. The inner peace that so many of you talk about, I would love to feel.
I know I need to make alot of changes in my life this year, and I am hoping for the strength and clarity of mind, to make the right choices.
Happy New year...........To all of you.
Hugs.
Jeff..I am sorry to hear that...jeeze does it ever end....I am very lucky to be healthy...I have never had any serious disease or any real pain. You are one tough cookie..that is for sure...and I so love your attitude...look how far you have come! I don't think that there is anything that could hold you down!
Lisa...you have come through so much this year and the later part of it with your health issues I don't think has been fun and I feel for you that you have had to endure...I have had 2 c sections so I know what its like to recover from a major surgery like that...you just amaze me..you are just such a strong women!
Jodi...I look at you and you so remind me of myself when I was younger..lol...oh god not like I am ancient...the continual struggle to better yourself a very giving women you are. How did your Christmas go? I know you were stressed about having your family I hope you showed them how wonderful you are!!
...I think you are such a nice person and you love your little ones so much...what a great mom you are...I don't think your hubby appreciates all that you do and all that you are....its just easier to concentrate on the negative...you have grown leaps and bounds and its getting better every day! I know you will find that peace...because you are always seeking it....your light shines bright hon....happy new year!!!
Lisa...you have come through so much this year and the later part of it with your health issues I don't think has been fun and I feel for you that you have had to endure...I have had 2 c sections so I know what its like to recover from a major surgery like that...you just amaze me..you are just such a strong women!
Jodi...I look at you and you so remind me of myself when I was younger..lol...oh god not like I am ancient...the continual struggle to better yourself a very giving women you are. How did your Christmas go? I know you were stressed about having your family I hope you showed them how wonderful you are!!
...I think you are such a nice person and you love your little ones so much...what a great mom you are...I don't think your hubby appreciates all that you do and all that you are....its just easier to concentrate on the negative...you have grown leaps and bounds and its getting better every day! I know you will find that peace...because you are always seeking it....your light shines bright hon....happy new year!!!
That I will quit looking in my rearview mirror and focus on the road ahead.
JW
JW
To find the ever elusive inner peace...that way no matter what may come my way in life I can handle it...rich or poor, happy or sad, sick or healthy, good times and bad...all could be dealt with better having true inner peace..
I dont think ive ever really had it, and not sure im capable of feeling and or manintaining it, but its a great think to hope and wish for..
Happy New Year to All that post here
Alixandra
( AliCap)
everyone's post was very cool. i guess i am going to agree with many others and say...peace, forgiveness, accept me for me.
i just want to be happy nothing more nothing less.
i also hope that this stupid f'ed up war comes to an end (sorry for not being PC) but i think it is horrible that so many people are over sea's risking their life for NOTHING....it makes me sick (i hope i didn't offend anyone)
i truely hope everyone has the year they want and wish for.
i just want to be happy nothing more nothing less.
i also hope that this stupid f'ed up war comes to an end (sorry for not being PC) but i think it is horrible that so many people are over sea's risking their life for NOTHING....it makes me sick (i hope i didn't offend anyone)
i truely hope everyone has the year they want and wish for.
great topic, keekee, there are so manny things i need to change this new year, i can not take another year like the one gone, it has been sturgel after sturgel, i don,t want to hurt my famile enymoer, and i see what is going on with my son, and i have to ask myself,how can i be eny helpto him if im not consettent with my program, he is huerting so much and i just want things to be better the way they were 2yera ago, we were all going to mettings and you could feel the defernes, we were at peace, and then things changed big time, now i feel lost and aloan a lot, and im chosseing not to have the same year, for myself becuse thats all i can do is work on me, and ask god to keep my famile safe, i do no that if i stay in working on me things will change, i feel bade for thethings i have done this past year, and i don,t now how manny men would stick around, so im bleesedin a lot, off ways, i say my gradson for the first time in al most a year, that was nice , im hoping that i can be in his life moer then that, but its al up to me, and the changes i make, i hope all is well in your new year, love karen.
I sat down and started writing those things Id like to do or to change in 2007. Its amazing how easily that list can flow once we put pen to paper. These are mine:
- think with my heart first
- spend less money on frivoulous things
- work on more one on one time with my husband.
- keep a diary of everything I eat
- join jazzercise
- remember that all people need to hear more about their good points and less
about their bad ones.
- remember that kindness is never an action one regrets.
I read this quote and it really sums of what we each are seeking:
"I want a soul so full of joy, life's withering storms cannot destroy"
It can be obtained if we search for the little joys in life that strengthen our souls bit by bit each day.
- think with my heart first
- spend less money on frivoulous things
- work on more one on one time with my husband.
- keep a diary of everything I eat
- join jazzercise
- remember that all people need to hear more about their good points and less
about their bad ones.
- remember that kindness is never an action one regrets.
I read this quote and it really sums of what we each are seeking:
"I want a soul so full of joy, life's withering storms cannot destroy"
It can be obtained if we search for the little joys in life that strengthen our souls bit by bit each day.
keekee, thanks for getting this started so many warm thoughts. personally i find peace looking outside of myself. i feel where you are coming from on the helping less fortunate out. i had an opportunity to help my mom at the salvation army. she cooks for the homeless or less fortunate. before my sobriety i could not help anyone else. now i am FREE to help others. it also put alot of things in prospective. i feel a need to help others and in doing so i hope to continue to have a peace that surpasses understanding. this has been a great year for me. i took vicodin for approx. 7 yrs., so this year ended on a high note for me. God bless you all!
Angela, I can understand you wanting the war to come to an end but people like my husband truely believe they are fighting for a good reason. My husband has served in the war in Iraq and Kosovo. He just reenlisted for another 7 years knowing at any time he could be deployed back to Iraq. Thank god for all of our service members willing to defend our country and other countries. God bless them.
Edited to say they are not fighting for nothing Angela they are fighting for your freedom. Shantel
Edited to say they are not fighting for nothing Angela they are fighting for your freedom. Shantel
shantell, amen! without the us service men and women hussein would still be alive and killing (if your lucky) and/or torturing thousands. freedom never comes free. thank your husband for me and my family.
