Good Morning everyone,
You have all been very loving and understanding. I thankyou for that. I think it was Tim that said he noticed new people who come in for a little bit and then you never see them again. I can relate to doing this and it made me wonder why I too am guilty of focusing on my recovery for short periods of time and then never speaking of it again.
I think part of my reasoning is because I think if I continue to think about it that it may come back (like a dreaded horror flick)! So, I go about my days forgetting I even have a problem (when I'm clean and sober) and then it creeps up and bites me in the a** again.
Well, I would like to break that cycle! I think what you guys are showing me is a committment to recovery. When I am sober, I tend to get busy and never find time to talk about it again, but I see that alot of you guys are still here, helping others and I commend that!
The trick for me will be when I am feeling crappy to come back here and post. I am going to try, but I may disappear for a couple of days and stick my head in the sand (my bed).
I have 2 pills left. Locked up in a safe, waiting for Saturday. My body will not wait for Saturday and will most likely start it's "thing" by this evening and the hard thud that you hear will be my brain realizing the "reality" of how very much I hate the withdrawel process!
So for this newbie, I will give this my best. Thankyou for being here for me.
Mookie
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please keep posting were so glad to have you here.
thumper
please keep posting were so glad to have you here.
thumper
Mookie,
Reading and posting continually will help to reinforce good habits. This site is a great place to be to help you to stay on the straight and narrow. Good that you're back.
Reading and posting continually will help to reinforce good habits. This site is a great place to be to help you to stay on the straight and narrow. Good that you're back.
Mookie,good luck.And youre right,coming back,talking,and possibly even getting out and going to f2f meetings where they talk about all these feelings about relapse and staying clean,etc...Talking about it with others who"get" you is essential.So i think youre making some smart choices.Look forward to reading more about your journey.~KIM
Hi Guys,
I am still here. Today is 20mg/Hydrocodone. Last night was a little rough as I proceeded to sweat, toss and turn and fight a headache. The only thing that is keeping me going is pure Adreneline because I know I must get on a plane tomorrow and travel to Colorado with 0mg of nothing.
My focus is off, my eyes are blurry and I don't think I could make a decision to save my life, but It is time for me to step up to the plate and help my son.
So I will quit whining and keep writing, but I may not see you'all for a couple of weeks. When I get back, I am 100% positive that I will be clean and I look forward to telling someone! I plan on continuing here with my recovery process.
I love you'all
Mookie
I am still here. Today is 20mg/Hydrocodone. Last night was a little rough as I proceeded to sweat, toss and turn and fight a headache. The only thing that is keeping me going is pure Adreneline because I know I must get on a plane tomorrow and travel to Colorado with 0mg of nothing.
My focus is off, my eyes are blurry and I don't think I could make a decision to save my life, but It is time for me to step up to the plate and help my son.
So I will quit whining and keep writing, but I may not see you'all for a couple of weeks. When I get back, I am 100% positive that I will be clean and I look forward to telling someone! I plan on continuing here with my recovery process.
I love you'all
Mookie
love u to...............
*hugs*
*hugs*
