http://www.sciam.com/article.cfm?ar...37&chanID=sa017
Have a happy weekend, dammit ! :-)
Love,
Sober me.
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| The biggest factor may be getting over the idea that happiness is fixed--and realizing that sustained effort can boost it. "A lot of people don't apply the notion of effort to their emotional lives," Lyubomirsky declares, "but the effort it takes is enormous." |
How true is that!? Sitting back and being passive about how low and emotionally unbalanced I have been feeling these past few months was getting me no where fast.
I'm feeling much better now~sigh~
the more projects i am involved in, the more people i am dealing with, the happier i am.
Well, there ya go....I actually went to one of those scary cult meetings....and the floor didn't open up and swallow me. LMAO I drove up to the building.....my heart racing....omg the place was surrounded by men outside....why do male drug addicts have to be so darn good lookin' ???? I almost freaked and kept right on driving outta there. LOL But I gave myself a little pep talk and walked right into this candle lit/meditation NA meeting. The room had all these beautiful safari - themed pictures on the walls and cardboard palm trees. No rubber tree plants.....:-) that s'alright... it was so sweet. There was even an elephants' face....I didn't cry...
I also wore my brand new "immunity shawl". My reminder of India and it's gifts.
There was about 30 of us. Yesssss......there were girls. So grateful. I even recognized one beautiful soul from long ago, different group. Familiar hugs feel so good !
I didn't speak when offered, yet gained much by just listening. @ the end, they asked about whose first day of recovery???? Without thinking I said, "I guess that would be me." They gave me a keychain that says "Just for today." I didn't share that it's been 41 days since I last used pot or alcohol. It didn't matter @ that moment. @ that moment instead I realized that I had finally surrendered. Really surrendered. Perhaps it really was my first day of recognizing that I want to create my life.....yeah....my life. Thank you, India. Thank you friends who read....and understand.....and tell the truth.....and cheer me on....you inspire me more than you know.
Continue to have a happy weekend, dammit.
Love you,
Diana
I also wore my brand new "immunity shawl". My reminder of India and it's gifts.
There was about 30 of us. Yesssss......there were girls. So grateful. I even recognized one beautiful soul from long ago, different group. Familiar hugs feel so good !
I didn't speak when offered, yet gained much by just listening. @ the end, they asked about whose first day of recovery???? Without thinking I said, "I guess that would be me." They gave me a keychain that says "Just for today." I didn't share that it's been 41 days since I last used pot or alcohol. It didn't matter @ that moment. @ that moment instead I realized that I had finally surrendered. Really surrendered. Perhaps it really was my first day of recognizing that I want to create my life.....yeah....my life. Thank you, India. Thank you friends who read....and understand.....and tell the truth.....and cheer me on....you inspire me more than you know.
Continue to have a happy weekend, dammit.
Love you,
Diana
~smiling~
my dear ww - i want you to know your post was the thing that helped push me to what i just did which was seriously dump whatever was left, little as it was it IS significat to me getting clean... i want to be past the worst again. your stories, your words... move me and inpsire me.
it's the final letting go that has been impossible this time around, it's your post that reminded me.. i can do it... again. there's a better way to live and think and ... articulate it all.
my new meds are helping (i think) and it's time to live clean. i need to.
thank u india:)
thank u, thank u, thank u!
(i'm sure the alainis song plays thru your head a lot "eh".)
xo jojo
it's the final letting go that has been impossible this time around, it's your post that reminded me.. i can do it... again. there's a better way to live and think and ... articulate it all.
my new meds are helping (i think) and it's time to live clean. i need to.
thank u india:)
thank u, thank u, thank u!
(i'm sure the alainis song plays thru your head a lot "eh".)
xo jojo
YES you can do this ! BELIEVE your thoughts are soooo powerful.....
LOL oh yes, that song, as soon as I typed that "Thank you India" , I thought about that song.....now I know have to google it.....to appreciate the whole thing.....
How about getting off of these antibiotics
How about stopping eating when I'm filled up
How about them transparent dangling carrots
How about that ever elusive kudo
Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence
How about me not blaming you for everything
How about me enjoying the moment for once
How about how good it feels to finally forgive you
How about grieving it all one at a time
Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence
The moment I let go of it was
The moment I got more than I could handle
The moment I jumped off of it was
The moment I touched down
How about no longer being masochistic
How about remembering your divinity
How about unabashedly bawling your eyes out
How about not equating death with stopping
Thank you India
Thank you providence
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you nothingness
Thank you clarity
Thank you thank you silence
yeah yeah
ahh ohhh
ahhh ho oh
ahhh ho ohhhhhh
yeaahhhh yeahh
Yeah.....Thank you, JoJo, it brought a tear to my eye....I needed to see it all.....
You sound so great, ((((((((JoJo)))))))) and it's Monday :-) Whoot Whoot !
Oh yes ! I forgot about the magpies !!!
Hey I had this weird/cool dream last night, I was dreaming about some dude doing high wire(on the power poles) acts on the freeway, I was in my car and staring up at him thinking, this must be an April fool. LMAO Then next thing I know I'm parking my car and climbing this very hilly-hill (for lack of a better term) and it was EASY, according to my dream book (The hidden meaning of dreams by Craig Hamilton Parker, best damn dream book ever written) it means :you now may have the inner resources you need to complete your task. Move forward one step at a time and be confident.
It's story time....friends,
Before I left in Feb. I had been obsessing a little about my dryer, (well, actually alot, I get like that sometimes) because I heard you can have fires under there with all the lint !!!! So I told my husband about my worries and I then stuck a stickie note on my computer for my husband and I to deal with it when I get home, it's a two person job.
So then my mom's visiting for this past week and I was lazy and kept saying "I really should be doing laundry" and she's saying, "Blame it on me." and we would laugh and drink more tea. So then as we chat, we start trying to figure out what happened to my grandmothers ring, it disappeared shortly after her death in 2002. I searched everywhere in this house.....or so I thought.....yanno, I felt pretty lousy for losing it.
So finally, last night, hubby and I moved the dryer and I started vacuuming and there, in the lint was my grandma's ring. :-) Next to it was 2006 shiny penny. I got goosebumps and called my mommy.
So the next time I feel like I'm obsessing about something, I'm going to look at it like it's my intuition. My daughter says, "Whatever helps you sleep at night, mom."
Love and light,
Diana
PS I just realized the title of this thread was, "Nothing found by accident." LOL
LOL oh yes, that song, as soon as I typed that "Thank you India" , I thought about that song.....now I know have to google it.....to appreciate the whole thing.....
How about getting off of these antibiotics
How about stopping eating when I'm filled up
How about them transparent dangling carrots
How about that ever elusive kudo
Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence
How about me not blaming you for everything
How about me enjoying the moment for once
How about how good it feels to finally forgive you
How about grieving it all one at a time
Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence
The moment I let go of it was
The moment I got more than I could handle
The moment I jumped off of it was
The moment I touched down
How about no longer being masochistic
How about remembering your divinity
How about unabashedly bawling your eyes out
How about not equating death with stopping
Thank you India
Thank you providence
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you nothingness
Thank you clarity
Thank you thank you silence
yeah yeah
ahh ohhh
ahhh ho oh
ahhh ho ohhhhhh
yeaahhhh yeahh
Yeah.....Thank you, JoJo, it brought a tear to my eye....I needed to see it all.....
You sound so great, ((((((((JoJo)))))))) and it's Monday :-) Whoot Whoot !
Oh yes ! I forgot about the magpies !!!
Hey I had this weird/cool dream last night, I was dreaming about some dude doing high wire(on the power poles) acts on the freeway, I was in my car and staring up at him thinking, this must be an April fool. LMAO Then next thing I know I'm parking my car and climbing this very hilly-hill (for lack of a better term) and it was EASY, according to my dream book (The hidden meaning of dreams by Craig Hamilton Parker, best damn dream book ever written) it means :you now may have the inner resources you need to complete your task. Move forward one step at a time and be confident.
It's story time....friends,
Before I left in Feb. I had been obsessing a little about my dryer, (well, actually alot, I get like that sometimes) because I heard you can have fires under there with all the lint !!!! So I told my husband about my worries and I then stuck a stickie note on my computer for my husband and I to deal with it when I get home, it's a two person job.
So then my mom's visiting for this past week and I was lazy and kept saying "I really should be doing laundry" and she's saying, "Blame it on me." and we would laugh and drink more tea. So then as we chat, we start trying to figure out what happened to my grandmothers ring, it disappeared shortly after her death in 2002. I searched everywhere in this house.....or so I thought.....yanno, I felt pretty lousy for losing it.
So finally, last night, hubby and I moved the dryer and I started vacuuming and there, in the lint was my grandma's ring. :-) Next to it was 2006 shiny penny. I got goosebumps and called my mommy.
So the next time I feel like I'm obsessing about something, I'm going to look at it like it's my intuition. My daughter says, "Whatever helps you sleep at night, mom."
Love and light,
Diana
PS I just realized the title of this thread was, "Nothing found by accident." LOL
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| My daughter says, "Whatever helps you sleep at night, mom." |
~lmao~
Very cool story. Thanks for sharing it with us. So far my obsessing has been just that, obsessing. As I typed the word "obsessing" I noticed if you lose the o and s and add a l you'd have ~blessing~ Mmmmmmm How cool you found the ring.
No such thing as coincidence's
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| @ that moment instead I realized that I had finally surrendered. Really surrendered. Perhaps it really was my first day of recognizing that I want to create my life.....yeah....my life. |
Today, material things nor money give me happiness....Really true happiness is watching a friend post the above words and sitting back with a huge smile and being able to feel connected completely to another human being.....
Thank you for sharing that Diana...takes me back to that feeling of surrender and the peace that came over me after I quit fighting and truly surrendered...
(((big hugs)))
Stacey
24 carat Gordon,
Bless your heart, what a warm message, thank you.
With admiration,
Diana
Bless your heart, what a warm message, thank you.
With admiration,
Diana
Kerr Bear,
It's been a blessing to have found you.
Sincerely,
Diana
It's been a blessing to have found you.
Sincerely,
Diana
