Just another thing i forgot to tell you bout..
My friend died of an OD last monday. I see him the night before, he was totally smashed an he asked me if i would score wiv him. I didnt. But i cant help thinking if i had then he would still be around.
It is his funeral this coming thursday.
He is about the tenth person i know personally to have died from an OD in the last eight or nine years.
Someone asked me if it has made me stop and think about the value of life...but it hasnt really, it doesnt even shock me anymore. It sadens me, but doesnt come as a surprise or shock. It happens so much in 'our' commnunity that it is no longer shocking.
Just another stat.eh TinMan.....if ya live the druglife there just dead soldeirs along the way .My bro although not a addict o.d a booze&methadone cocktail..in 98.....sow i know its cuts to the bone.....but as ya said....it does sadden you......ya still got that heart???course ya have.Sorry bout yer mate....keep yer chin up.Take care...........Davey
Yeah it's sadly an all too familiar story guys, My eldest brother overdosed on a cocktail of Heroine,Methadone and oramorth-(, I also took no notice and can remember having to have 50 of crack the day of the funeral just to get thru it stupid eh, Still hurts my mom to this day losing her first born which is why i guess she was so supportive when i finally admitted my heroine habit 2 1/2 years later,
L8's Shane
L8's Shane
Dear Tinman,
From your post...."But i cant help thinking if i had then he would still be around."
The other possibility is that YOU might not be here as well. I'm SO GLAD you didn't! Besides...you should know that your doing it with him wouldn't have stopped this from happening. Don't accept any blame for it. He is gone because of HIS choices.
So sorry about your friend.
Love,
Susan
From your post...."But i cant help thinking if i had then he would still be around."
The other possibility is that YOU might not be here as well. I'm SO GLAD you didn't! Besides...you should know that your doing it with him wouldn't have stopped this from happening. Don't accept any blame for it. He is gone because of HIS choices.
So sorry about your friend.
Love,
Susan
Tinman, please dont say if only....dont go into that.
If only I had stayed with Kevin that day, if only he hadnt fallen out with his mam.
The fact of the matter is that he chose to take the drugs knowing the risks and therefore no one cud of changed that. I know where your coming from but if not now maybe it wud of happened another time.
Who knows but please dont cut urself up ova it. Thinkin ov ya and am sorry for ur loss. Too many lives taken as a result from heroin use.
xx.
If only I had stayed with Kevin that day, if only he hadnt fallen out with his mam.
The fact of the matter is that he chose to take the drugs knowing the risks and therefore no one cud of changed that. I know where your coming from but if not now maybe it wud of happened another time.
Who knows but please dont cut urself up ova it. Thinkin ov ya and am sorry for ur loss. Too many lives taken as a result from heroin use.
xx.
Tinney I am so sorry about your friend.......I'm sure as heck glad to see you here though.
Sorry to hear about your friend its never easy no matter how many time's you go through it . What is going to make you stop and think let your friend's misfortune be enough for both of you's hang in there and my condolanses
Tinman, sorry to hear about your mate, yeah when we're on it deaths don't hit us the same, eh? Was in the drug problem clinic yest and they have got flyers that their handing out warning users in dundee that there is a batch of H high in prurity on the streets and in Jan alone 2 people have died already......
Nothing changes if nothing changes......
Take it easy Tinman, Kev
Nothing changes if nothing changes......
Take it easy Tinman, Kev
I got it wrong, My friends funeral is on Monday (three days time) not thursday.
I am not really looking forward it to tell you the truth, well who would? But anyhow, the thing i wanna say now is this..
Since he died everybody in town that knew him has been goin o.t.t with the fake grief an tears, wen only a few days b4 he died they wer slagging him off saying that he was a ponce etc etc.....it makes me sick the way people jump on the bandwagon..and are so false and two faced.
Another thing, the other night i was with my friend, he had just scored, we both walked round to another friends house an at the doorstep was my mates brother (the one who died)....an we all went in the house together. His brother doesnt do drugs, but i couldnt believe it when all of the others started getting there works out an started cooking up in front of this guy, when his brother had just died a few days ago from the exact thing that they were about to do ...it was crazy. An these are the same people that have gone o.t.t wth there fake grieving....like i said, people are so false its unbelievable.
Thnx 4 all your replies anyway guyz.
I am not really looking forward it to tell you the truth, well who would? But anyhow, the thing i wanna say now is this..
Since he died everybody in town that knew him has been goin o.t.t with the fake grief an tears, wen only a few days b4 he died they wer slagging him off saying that he was a ponce etc etc.....it makes me sick the way people jump on the bandwagon..and are so false and two faced.
Another thing, the other night i was with my friend, he had just scored, we both walked round to another friends house an at the doorstep was my mates brother (the one who died)....an we all went in the house together. His brother doesnt do drugs, but i couldnt believe it when all of the others started getting there works out an started cooking up in front of this guy, when his brother had just died a few days ago from the exact thing that they were about to do ...it was crazy. An these are the same people that have gone o.t.t wth there fake grieving....like i said, people are so false its unbelievable.
Thnx 4 all your replies anyway guyz.
Totally agree with you there Tinman. The amount of people who sit and say to me oh Kevin was a good man, we had allot in common etc and I think you hated each other before he died...lol. Am sick of people talkin about him as if they knew him and talkin about me, my daughter and Kevin. Why cant they let him rest in peace and us live in peace.
They dont know what happened exactly and they dont need to know either.
How false are people?? Also Kevins friend was to definately stay on his meth programme after Kevin died...well he was back on it the same day....infact when we went to see Kevin I met up with him and I could tell he had sumthing. You just know. Anyway his life and up to him.
I dont pretend that me and Kevin were getting on...we were about to end it...or I was and it did end on bad terms and I wont pretend any different. I did however love him and thought he was a good man when he was good, but at the same time an evil bas*ard wen he wanted to be...lol.
Good luck with the funeral too. Never a nice thing.
Lynds xx
They dont know what happened exactly and they dont need to know either.
How false are people?? Also Kevins friend was to definately stay on his meth programme after Kevin died...well he was back on it the same day....infact when we went to see Kevin I met up with him and I could tell he had sumthing. You just know. Anyway his life and up to him.
I dont pretend that me and Kevin were getting on...we were about to end it...or I was and it did end on bad terms and I wont pretend any different. I did however love him and thought he was a good man when he was good, but at the same time an evil bas*ard wen he wanted to be...lol.
Good luck with the funeral too. Never a nice thing.
Lynds xx
