Hello:
I am back after one year. I was the one that stole her husbands methadone and vicodins and of course he did not understand. Well let me tell you what has happened in the past year. He, my husband, was worse off than myself, he was very abusesive to myself and my children. My son and him got into a very heated argument and it was bad, bad, bad. I had to call the police. He is now serving time in the state prison, after the incident, and has been there for 16 months. He will be getting out sometime in Dec. Well, since he went away soooo much has happened. I started going to his doctor and of course was prescribed methadone and vicadins. I was takeing 9 (5mg) of methadone a day plus the vicodins (7.5) for inbetween pain. It was just awful. Now mind you I felt very very good while taking them, but oh god if I ran out. I met another man during this time. He is wonderful to me. I have moved in with him, and he is helping me to recover. The only problem is that my 15 year old daughter is living with her sister. She hates the new man, but also hates her father. I have been off of all medication for about 2 weeks now. It was a very very rough few days. I weaned down to a half a tab of meth a day. Then took absolutely none. I feel ok now, but have absolutley no energy what so ever. I need to go see my daughter, but I have no energy. What can I take to get my energy back? I am sure of one thing, no more meds for me. I cant go through this any more. It is so so hard when you dont feel well. I am taking multi vitamins every day and trying hard to take a walk each morning. Sometimes I make it and sometimes I dont. My son is due to have a baby any minute. I am glad I am off the meds, but my family still does not understand why I dont visit as much as I should. Will I ever get my enregy back? I love my partner very much and thanks to him I am off the meds, but I feel so guilty for my kids. Will I ever feel 100%? I have applied for a divorce, from my husband. I even feel guilty that he is in jail, but enough is enough, you know? You can only take so much abuse. It was only a matter of time. Does anyone have any suggestions as to how I can get some energy? I am taking centrums, is that a good vitamin? I wish I would have never started taking hubby's pills, but I cant go back and beat myself up over it. If he only would have understood, it would maybe made our life easier. Now I have I new life, but my kids are suffering for it. I should be with them, they should be in my house, but they are not, and I am a mess, can anyone give some advice?
Hi it is bdwife again,
I am finding myself drinking beer first thing in the morning to feel better. This is NOt good. what can I do to get energy, I just want to go back to bed after a few beers, what is wrong with me? Will I get better? Pleasssse someone tell me what to do. I have a new granddaughter coming any minute, I sure want to go to the hospital to see her, I can not go drunk or out of my mind. help.....
I am finding myself drinking beer first thing in the morning to feel better. This is NOt good. what can I do to get energy, I just want to go back to bed after a few beers, what is wrong with me? Will I get better? Pleasssse someone tell me what to do. I have a new granddaughter coming any minute, I sure want to go to the hospital to see her, I can not go drunk or out of my mind. help.....
Did you trade the pills in for the alcohol? I don't know how I can help you but I have to tell you alcohol isn't any better. You will destroy your life if you keep going like you are. I would hate to see this happen to anybody. I lost custody of my kids to their Dad. Yes, he was using also, but the fact is if I weren't I could of had a better fight. Drinking, believe me isn't going to help you. It's only going to make things worse.
Well, Good luck to you.
Liz
Well, Good luck to you.
Liz
I have been clean for 11 days. I am finding it very hard to clean the house, be useful at work, etc. I wish someone could give us a cure to being clean. I used to keep my house so clean and be on top of everything. I am neglecting myself, my kids, my house, my husband. I have hear that vitamins help, etc. Drinking beer in the a.m. is definitely not the cure. That will make you worse....
hang in there. This is all so new....give it a chance.
hang in there. This is all so new....give it a chance.
Have you or anybody else considered counseling? I've talked to my doctor yesterday and she felt it would be a good idea if I started. I figured it couldn't hurt. I know for me I have to learn how to deal with the cards I've been dealt. I don't handle things well. But one thing I have learned, Alcohol definitely made my life worse. It didn't help anything. Magnified my depression. I traded alcohol in for the pain pills. Took me to the same place. So, maybe counseling will help you?
Thanks guys:
You are right, alcohol is not the answer. I am a mess, off the meds, but soooo not energetic. I think if I make myself do something, instead of feeling sorry for myself, I would feel a whole lot better. I begged, at one time,. for my boyfriend to take me back to the dr. but thank god he said "no" it will pass, I will help you. And yes he is wonderful, and I appreciate it to no end. I have to get my life back. My kids are important to me. They are my world. I will survive...... Thanks for your suggestions. I really do appreciate your help.
You are right, alcohol is not the answer. I am a mess, off the meds, but soooo not energetic. I think if I make myself do something, instead of feeling sorry for myself, I would feel a whole lot better. I begged, at one time,. for my boyfriend to take me back to the dr. but thank god he said "no" it will pass, I will help you. And yes he is wonderful, and I appreciate it to no end. I have to get my life back. My kids are important to me. They are my world. I will survive...... Thanks for your suggestions. I really do appreciate your help.
