How ya doing girl???? Please check in when you can to let us know you are okay. I know you have been really depressed lately. Just wanted to start a thread in case you were lurking! You are not alone and we are all here for you when you are ready.
Hi Valarie... thanks for the concern... I've been much better lately and the Psychiatrist has prescribed a mood stabiliser so I have to get bloods done first but that should help me... plus I haven't had a drink for 5 days so I'm feeling good about that...
I'll come back soon...
Izzy X
I'll come back soon...
Izzy X
Way to go Izzy, good job taking care of yourself by seeing the Doctor and getting the meds you need !
Way to go Izzy your in action mode. I'm glad your getting the help you need. I'm so glad your doing better. I've been thinking about you & praying for some relief . I'm going to reply to Cooksters" Hey Looking Up." So I'll update about me who ever's interested. Thanks for checking in! Love, Chris
Hi everyone... I went on a wee outing with my dog today... he loves going on bus rides and I hadn't been well enough for ages so today we went out for a few hours my mum came too... I get free bus travel because I'm not well and I have a companion card so my mum can get on free too if she's with me... so that saved a bit of money... I had a good time and I was able to get up early because I haven't been drinking... I'm off to Germany in 3 weeks so I'm looking forward to that...
I hope everyone is well...
Izzy X
I hope everyone is well...
Izzy X
Izzy....you lucky girl you get to go to Germany. How fun! Do you have alot of fun activities planned? Thanks for checking in and keeping us posted. I always worry about you if you haven't been on in a while.
Way to go on 6 days!!!! That is awesome!
Have a great weekend!
Way to go on 6 days!!!! That is awesome!
Have a great weekend!
Hi Valarie... I haven't got many activites planned actually but I am thinking more about what I'm going to do the next day... like I actually am craving doing things now like even just to get out the house... my usual day consisted of staying in bed all day then drinking at night... a vicious circle...
I'm pretty annoyed at my so called friends at the moment though... my dog's breeder is ill with cancer and she'd had to rehome most of her dogs and my pals sister got 2... now these women are like 40 years old... and I just feel totally pushed aside deliberatley because they want the 3 remaining dogs that my breeder has left when she can't look after them anymore... one of the 3 dogs is my dog's mum and I said that I'd take her if she couldn't look after her anymore... and my pal's like "No you can't split the girls up" treating them like flipping people... the b**** her sister has is already turning nasty because they wont discipline her because she's small... she's a dog she needs boundaries...
I'd known my dogs breeder for about 2 years before these two came along and we were quite close because we used to go to the dogshows together... now I get asked along to things like having lunch at the hotel round the corner from where she lives and then the next week I find out they've all been and didn't bother to even tell me... I was speaking to my mum about this earlier and she said well it turned you onto the drink the last time they did that but this time I'm just thinking well f*** them... I can't be bothered with people who're manipulating each other just to get what they want.
I did want to get another Schnauzer puppy but now I'm just thinking to myself that I'd like to move onto the Kerry Blue Terrier... I'd like a new challenge and I'd meet new people too... so I'm in the process of getting another puppy. I know it'll put a few people's noses out of joint but I don't care because that lot don't give a s*** about me so why should I bother what they think? They leave me out of just about everything saying they don't have time to get over and see my breeder then I hear they've been over twice in one week... they know I'm free all day but it's just deliberate.
I'm making plans to go over myself this week and that'll probably be the last time before she dies so that will be that....
I don't need that kind of s*** in my life... I'm trying to get well again... I just don't need it...
Izzy X
I'm pretty annoyed at my so called friends at the moment though... my dog's breeder is ill with cancer and she'd had to rehome most of her dogs and my pals sister got 2... now these women are like 40 years old... and I just feel totally pushed aside deliberatley because they want the 3 remaining dogs that my breeder has left when she can't look after them anymore... one of the 3 dogs is my dog's mum and I said that I'd take her if she couldn't look after her anymore... and my pal's like "No you can't split the girls up" treating them like flipping people... the b**** her sister has is already turning nasty because they wont discipline her because she's small... she's a dog she needs boundaries...
I'd known my dogs breeder for about 2 years before these two came along and we were quite close because we used to go to the dogshows together... now I get asked along to things like having lunch at the hotel round the corner from where she lives and then the next week I find out they've all been and didn't bother to even tell me... I was speaking to my mum about this earlier and she said well it turned you onto the drink the last time they did that but this time I'm just thinking well f*** them... I can't be bothered with people who're manipulating each other just to get what they want.
I did want to get another Schnauzer puppy but now I'm just thinking to myself that I'd like to move onto the Kerry Blue Terrier... I'd like a new challenge and I'd meet new people too... so I'm in the process of getting another puppy. I know it'll put a few people's noses out of joint but I don't care because that lot don't give a s*** about me so why should I bother what they think? They leave me out of just about everything saying they don't have time to get over and see my breeder then I hear they've been over twice in one week... they know I'm free all day but it's just deliberate.
I'm making plans to go over myself this week and that'll probably be the last time before she dies so that will be that....
I don't need that kind of s*** in my life... I'm trying to get well again... I just don't need it...
Izzy X
Hey Izz....sounds like you are pretty upset at these people. Are they good friends of yours? Or were they ever good friends of yours to begin with or do you gals just know eachother through the dog groomers?? Try not to let it get to you. Remember that saying that what another people think of me is none of my business.
If you don't mind me asking.....What was your mum talking about when she stated that the last time you went with them it turned you onto the drink? Did you gals get together and you were drinking or something? Maybe they know that you are struggling with alcohol and just didn't want to expose you to it? Or do you act differently when on the drink? Perhaps they didn't enjoy being with someone who was drinking. I have a bunch of friends that used to run for the hills when they saw me pick up a drink. Don't take it personal. Some people are just like that.
I hope your day goes better. Explain to me alittle more who these women are and why is it that you are so upset by them?
Your Friend Valarie
If you don't mind me asking.....What was your mum talking about when she stated that the last time you went with them it turned you onto the drink? Did you gals get together and you were drinking or something? Maybe they know that you are struggling with alcohol and just didn't want to expose you to it? Or do you act differently when on the drink? Perhaps they didn't enjoy being with someone who was drinking. I have a bunch of friends that used to run for the hills when they saw me pick up a drink. Don't take it personal. Some people are just like that.
I hope your day goes better. Explain to me alittle more who these women are and why is it that you are so upset by them?
Your Friend Valarie
Hi Val... I'll tell you from the beginning...
The thing was I met my pal Babs at a dogshow as she was looking for a Miniature Schnauzer puppy and she got talking to me and my breeder Margaret... anytime Margaret had puppies she'd always ask me what i thought of her decision if she was going to keep one and we always had the same choice... anyway I got friendly with Babs and ended up teaching her how to groom her dog when she finally got one... then I got friendly with her sister.
Inbetween times I got really unwell with Borderline Personality Disorder and none of them understood me at all so I kind of got sidelined anyway by people I thought were my friends. Babs started seeing Margaret more and occassionally they'd include me when I was feeling ok... they asked me on one occassion if I'd wanted to go and have lunch at the Hotel with them and I'd said yes and had arranged for Babs to phone me when they were going over... I never got any phonecall and found out from Margaret 2 weeks later they'd been without me... and I got really upset and started drinking heavily again...
NOW... I know they've got their eyes on getting her 3 dogs when she can't look after them anymore... they never say it outright but I'm not flipping stupid... I just think it's a horrible situation... they don't know how to discipline a dog because they don't understand anything about pack mentality and they treat them like children hence why their dogs take the absolute piss out of them.
I guess it's just me being too caring about the dogs because I've spent years studying books... I'd made it my life's work to bring my dog up perfectly and I succeeded... Babs sister is going to end up with 5 dogs... a pack of dogs... and it's going to turn into absloute bedlam... I'm never wrong I don't know how many times I've said I told you so when it comes to dogs... but as usual nobody listens to me because I'm young so I've given up... I just sit back and watch it all exactly as I predicted...
Izzy X
The thing was I met my pal Babs at a dogshow as she was looking for a Miniature Schnauzer puppy and she got talking to me and my breeder Margaret... anytime Margaret had puppies she'd always ask me what i thought of her decision if she was going to keep one and we always had the same choice... anyway I got friendly with Babs and ended up teaching her how to groom her dog when she finally got one... then I got friendly with her sister.
Inbetween times I got really unwell with Borderline Personality Disorder and none of them understood me at all so I kind of got sidelined anyway by people I thought were my friends. Babs started seeing Margaret more and occassionally they'd include me when I was feeling ok... they asked me on one occassion if I'd wanted to go and have lunch at the Hotel with them and I'd said yes and had arranged for Babs to phone me when they were going over... I never got any phonecall and found out from Margaret 2 weeks later they'd been without me... and I got really upset and started drinking heavily again...
NOW... I know they've got their eyes on getting her 3 dogs when she can't look after them anymore... they never say it outright but I'm not flipping stupid... I just think it's a horrible situation... they don't know how to discipline a dog because they don't understand anything about pack mentality and they treat them like children hence why their dogs take the absolute piss out of them.
I guess it's just me being too caring about the dogs because I've spent years studying books... I'd made it my life's work to bring my dog up perfectly and I succeeded... Babs sister is going to end up with 5 dogs... a pack of dogs... and it's going to turn into absloute bedlam... I'm never wrong I don't know how many times I've said I told you so when it comes to dogs... but as usual nobody listens to me because I'm young so I've given up... I just sit back and watch it all exactly as I predicted...
Izzy X
Okay Iz...I think I understand a little better. The one thing that i can see by merely being an outsider is that you are allowing these people to take up way too much space in your head. You should start charging them rent for all the time they are spending in there. LOLOL....It doesn't sound like they are truly good friends either way.
I think it's great that you know so much about dogs and grooming and all there is to know about dogs. Sounds like this is one area in your life that you can control. Does that make sense? You will not however be able to control people. They aren't doing what you want and they are making you feel out of control thus, the time you started drinking again heavily over what happened with "them". Does that make any sense?
Many of us do this type of thing Izz. I have no control over my drinking. I am sober but I know focus on something else that I can control. An example my food intake. I can control what I eat and when I eat.
Try to move your focus to something else that you enjoy. These ladies probably don't even realize that what they are doing is making you nuts! Take the focus off of them and put it back on you. Remember what they think of you is none of your business. It is the best motto to live by.
If I am totally off the Mark here and don't understand what is doing on with you please better explain so I will understand. It's just that is what I saw as being an outsider who knows none of you personally.
Your Pal Valarie
I think it's great that you know so much about dogs and grooming and all there is to know about dogs. Sounds like this is one area in your life that you can control. Does that make sense? You will not however be able to control people. They aren't doing what you want and they are making you feel out of control thus, the time you started drinking again heavily over what happened with "them". Does that make any sense?
Many of us do this type of thing Izz. I have no control over my drinking. I am sober but I know focus on something else that I can control. An example my food intake. I can control what I eat and when I eat.
Try to move your focus to something else that you enjoy. These ladies probably don't even realize that what they are doing is making you nuts! Take the focus off of them and put it back on you. Remember what they think of you is none of your business. It is the best motto to live by.
If I am totally off the Mark here and don't understand what is doing on with you please better explain so I will understand. It's just that is what I saw as being an outsider who knows none of you personally.
Your Pal Valarie
