about pills for..well im thinking about them now, (sh*t) but I am on a taper schedule and completely forgot to take the dose at 2:00....thought about that at 3:30 then thought well ill wait till i feel bad THEN take it....its now almost 4:00 and up till now, havent thought about them again ( sh*t) ..
Have to keep a bit of a sense of humor about his but I do want to share that my attitude is sooo different and thus far the taper is working well..have been on it for 9 days and are taking 75% less meds....its hard for me to even believe that i took what i did even 10 days ago...
This board has helped me soo much. Thankyou everyone for taking time to post and share your experiences, ideas and thoughts...Im far from Home free...but i have hope. something i didnt have 10 days ago.
Hugs,
Ali
Hi Ali,
You seem to be in good spirits today. Keeping pills out of your mind for that long, while tapering, is a miracle. When I would try (unsuccessfully) to taper, I couldn't go 15 minutes without thinking of pills. It was as if the thought of being off of pills would cause me to want more pills.
I can't remember how much you were taking, but it's now 75% less? Maybe you might be ready to take a leap onto a faster taper schedule and get this over with. Just a thought.
Take care, Atlas
You seem to be in good spirits today. Keeping pills out of your mind for that long, while tapering, is a miracle. When I would try (unsuccessfully) to taper, I couldn't go 15 minutes without thinking of pills. It was as if the thought of being off of pills would cause me to want more pills.
I can't remember how much you were taking, but it's now 75% less? Maybe you might be ready to take a leap onto a faster taper schedule and get this over with. Just a thought.
Take care, Atlas
Dear Atlas,
Okay i thought it about it..nope not ready....lolol
Seriously I know exactly what you mean luv, I really feel that Im ready to do that in one way, but i was on 25 pills a day and am down to 8...I occasional have like a jolt or mini spasm and my arm or leg will shoot out like it has a mind of its own. The Dr. said it is from the narcotic and that i shouyld be down to at least 4 pills Minimum ( or is that maximum????) before i even THINK about stopping them....
the last thing i want to do is have some kind of grand mal seizure, and scare my poor husband to death...but I am torn...seems like I have had such a radical change that I should take advantage of my attitude and commitment NOW in case it doesnt last.....
Will taper down at least one more week though, before i take the plunge...i deserve to have terrible withdrawals, deep in my heart feel if its too easy I wont take it as seriously...god hope i didnt just jinx myself....hopefully the withdrawals will be bad enough i will never forget but not so bad i cave...
Thanks for your support atlas means the world to me.
Hugs,
Ali
Okay i thought it about it..nope not ready....lolol
Seriously I know exactly what you mean luv, I really feel that Im ready to do that in one way, but i was on 25 pills a day and am down to 8...I occasional have like a jolt or mini spasm and my arm or leg will shoot out like it has a mind of its own. The Dr. said it is from the narcotic and that i shouyld be down to at least 4 pills Minimum ( or is that maximum????) before i even THINK about stopping them....
the last thing i want to do is have some kind of grand mal seizure, and scare my poor husband to death...but I am torn...seems like I have had such a radical change that I should take advantage of my attitude and commitment NOW in case it doesnt last.....
Will taper down at least one more week though, before i take the plunge...i deserve to have terrible withdrawals, deep in my heart feel if its too easy I wont take it as seriously...god hope i didnt just jinx myself....hopefully the withdrawals will be bad enough i will never forget but not so bad i cave...
Thanks for your support atlas means the world to me.
Hugs,
Ali
Sorry Ali, I misunderstood what you said. I thought you meant 75% of what you were taking, rather than 75% less. That's great!! You're almost there.
Thanks Atlas,
sorry if i wasnt clear...so happy you responded to my posts..i think your great!
hugs,
Ali
sorry if i wasnt clear...so happy you responded to my posts..i think your great!
hugs,
Ali
A 25% drop in 9 days is much larger than what people normally do on a taper and would send most people into withdrawls. Perhaps I misunderstood too
How about them Eskimos!
But seriously Ali, if you're able to stick with your taper schedule more power to you. I've tapered (my wife held the pills) and gone ct. The mental part was what always got me to eventually "jump off". I mean, if my love affair with the pills was over, then it was time to move on to recovery.
But I admire your determination and desire to get clean. Stay strong and before you know it you'll be free of these pills. Good for you!
Jim
But seriously Ali, if you're able to stick with your taper schedule more power to you. I've tapered (my wife held the pills) and gone ct. The mental part was what always got me to eventually "jump off". I mean, if my love affair with the pills was over, then it was time to move on to recovery.
But I admire your determination and desire to get clean. Stay strong and before you know it you'll be free of these pills. Good for you!
Jim
Thankyou..
To the Buddha post...I didnt get my numbers wrong...swear to everything holy...but i am having that one withdrawal symptom i mentioned...that my arm or leg will suddenly go shoot out on its own ( very embarrasing but im by myself so....) I left my pills at the pharmacy so dont have a whole bottle to stare at..even went to Vancouver with exactly the right taper amount of 8 a day which is something i cant even IMAGINE doing 10 days ago....
Maybe the vitamins and amino acids are helping too i dont know for sure, just know that it is what it is and i am determined to keep going forward.
Just knowing that I am not alone like i thought, this dirty little secret isnt so rare has helped me soooo much...I cant say that i would have made this leap without finding this board....its made a huge difference in mylife and i will be forever grateful....
i may be posting in a week with no will no determination and totally whipped, but for now im taking advantage of my new attitude ( do i hear a Dianna Ross song coming on??)
thanks for all your encouragement! please send me positive vibes...
hugs,
ali
To the Buddha post...I didnt get my numbers wrong...swear to everything holy...but i am having that one withdrawal symptom i mentioned...that my arm or leg will suddenly go shoot out on its own ( very embarrasing but im by myself so....) I left my pills at the pharmacy so dont have a whole bottle to stare at..even went to Vancouver with exactly the right taper amount of 8 a day which is something i cant even IMAGINE doing 10 days ago....
Maybe the vitamins and amino acids are helping too i dont know for sure, just know that it is what it is and i am determined to keep going forward.
Just knowing that I am not alone like i thought, this dirty little secret isnt so rare has helped me soooo much...I cant say that i would have made this leap without finding this board....its made a huge difference in mylife and i will be forever grateful....
i may be posting in a week with no will no determination and totally whipped, but for now im taking advantage of my new attitude ( do i hear a Dianna Ross song coming on??)
thanks for all your encouragement! please send me positive vibes...
hugs,
ali
Ali - that wd symptom you're having? I think of Elaine of Seinfeld fame when she dances. Ever see that? Pretty funny.
Keep that positive attittude...you will succeed!
Jim
Keep that positive attittude...you will succeed!
Jim
Jim,
LOLOLOL i know the episode, and yup thats what it looks like....LOL
Thanks for the post...
Hugs,
Ali
LOLOLOL i know the episode, and yup thats what it looks like....LOL
Thanks for the post...
Hugs,
Ali
I have not read your entire thread yet. I just wanted to throw out my congratultions to you right away!!!
Staying on a taper schedule?
holy sh t . You rock!!
as others have said, and i agree.. THAT is a TUFF t**** spot to be in.
lol
my idea of tapering, i remember, was to watch the clock and make sure that there was exactly 3 hours between pills.. > rolling eyes<
yet.. i still took about 20 a day.
HA! a little a** backwards ya think?
congratulations for having the dedication to stay on the schedule
Oh boy.. I wish you the best of luck . :-) :-) :-)
Staying on a taper schedule?
holy sh t . You rock!!
as others have said, and i agree.. THAT is a TUFF t**** spot to be in.
lol
my idea of tapering, i remember, was to watch the clock and make sure that there was exactly 3 hours between pills.. > rolling eyes<
yet.. i still took about 20 a day.
HA! a little a** backwards ya think?
congratulations for having the dedication to stay on the schedule
Oh boy.. I wish you the best of luck . :-) :-) :-)
She wolfe
You related to wolfe????lolol
I know its rare, and i can tell you that what im doing now was not even possible a month ago a year ago or before that...i posted somewhere about my friend who ( years ago) put herself on a taper- shed met someone new....she was my "Buzz buddy" and we enjoyed doing them...so i was alittle freaked out when she made this announcement...secretly i thought...she wont do it...but sure enough in a matter of months...she did! and off she went as planned with her Brad-Pitt look-a-like to Europe...drug free....Shes now married and a little baby...wouldnt TOUCH a narcotic...
The thing is i remember saying, but HOW ???HOW are you doing it????She just kept saying the same thing, this week i take X amount, the next week Y amount.....she even offered to write the schedule down for me!!!! What she didnt understand was I didnt know HOW she was sticking to her taper. COULDNT FATHOM IT....thats when true panic set in....s***..im addicted.
here it is 4 years later and suddenly Im doing it too...im ahead of my taper schedule....actually forgot to take a DOSE?????? UNBELIEVABLE!!!!
Is it just a shift in my mind? Will? Or could it be the amino acids, vitamins and such im taking? I DONT KNOW....but hell im just thanking God and praying that this will continue.....then share what i learn...thats all i can do.
Thanks for wishing me luck..or was that sarcastic???LOLOL
Hugs,
Ali
You related to wolfe????lolol
I know its rare, and i can tell you that what im doing now was not even possible a month ago a year ago or before that...i posted somewhere about my friend who ( years ago) put herself on a taper- shed met someone new....she was my "Buzz buddy" and we enjoyed doing them...so i was alittle freaked out when she made this announcement...secretly i thought...she wont do it...but sure enough in a matter of months...she did! and off she went as planned with her Brad-Pitt look-a-like to Europe...drug free....Shes now married and a little baby...wouldnt TOUCH a narcotic...
The thing is i remember saying, but HOW ???HOW are you doing it????She just kept saying the same thing, this week i take X amount, the next week Y amount.....she even offered to write the schedule down for me!!!! What she didnt understand was I didnt know HOW she was sticking to her taper. COULDNT FATHOM IT....thats when true panic set in....s***..im addicted.
here it is 4 years later and suddenly Im doing it too...im ahead of my taper schedule....actually forgot to take a DOSE?????? UNBELIEVABLE!!!!
Is it just a shift in my mind? Will? Or could it be the amino acids, vitamins and such im taking? I DONT KNOW....but hell im just thanking God and praying that this will continue.....then share what i learn...thats all i can do.
Thanks for wishing me luck..or was that sarcastic???LOLOL
Hugs,
Ali
Dear Ali,
Sounds like your doing great, if you arent thinking about the pills you must be in good shape. I know that I always thought about the pills. Keep up the good work! .Shel
Sounds like your doing great, if you arent thinking about the pills you must be in good shape. I know that I always thought about the pills. Keep up the good work! .Shel
Thanks shel,
appreciate the support, and pray to God this resolve or whatever is working keeps working. i feel so lucky...like its too good to be true, but it is..
Hugs,
Ali
appreciate the support, and pray to God this resolve or whatever is working keeps working. i feel so lucky...like its too good to be true, but it is..
Hugs,
Ali
Awesome Ali!! Congrats on the progress. Tapering is all bad now is it?? It's been great for me...I took just a half a pill today...doubt I even need to take any now. Sure they're still on my mind each day, but reminding myself of the progress and where I was at is the motivation I need.
What vitamins are you taking?
Congrats again!
What vitamins are you taking?
Congrats again!
Meant to say tapering ISN'T all bad now is it?
furious,
LOLOL i knew what you meant....Im taking the Omega 3 ( for one month now) vitamin E , B complex, Vit B6 ( chewable 100mcg ) Vitamin C ( long acting ) Calcium and Magnesium
In the last 10 days ( which is how long i have stuck to an incredibly reduced taper) I have been taking the following Amino acids: L-Tyrosine ( energy) ( half dose) GABA (calmer) and 5HTP ( serotonin riser) take these 2 X a day....
Have no idea Furious if these are what is working but like you, Im able to stick to the taper for the first time in my life...so glad you are doing well just think of your new life being accepted in to your school...you can start fresh.
Keep me posted, know Im rooting for you!!!!!!! I KNOW you will have this behind you in no time...
Hugs,
Ali
LOLOL i knew what you meant....Im taking the Omega 3 ( for one month now) vitamin E , B complex, Vit B6 ( chewable 100mcg ) Vitamin C ( long acting ) Calcium and Magnesium
In the last 10 days ( which is how long i have stuck to an incredibly reduced taper) I have been taking the following Amino acids: L-Tyrosine ( energy) ( half dose) GABA (calmer) and 5HTP ( serotonin riser) take these 2 X a day....
Have no idea Furious if these are what is working but like you, Im able to stick to the taper for the first time in my life...so glad you are doing well just think of your new life being accepted in to your school...you can start fresh.
Keep me posted, know Im rooting for you!!!!!!! I KNOW you will have this behind you in no time...
Hugs,
Ali
OMG that seems like so many pills to take! lol Really all I guess I need is something safe and natural for energy. I drink coffee all day everyday but am going to try to keep it to just a cup in the morning. I need to get to bed earlier too...but I usually get 8+ hours of sleep/night but still feel heavy-eyed all day. I do have noticeably more energy since the tapering started.
You've cut down so much, I'm impressed.
By my calculations...I had cut down by 31% when I was 9 days in...and u've cut by 32% despite the fact that u were taking more and for a longer period, which is all the more impressive.
Best of luck!
Chris
You've cut down so much, I'm impressed.
By my calculations...I had cut down by 31% when I was 9 days in...and u've cut by 32% despite the fact that u were taking more and for a longer period, which is all the more impressive.
Best of luck!
Chris
Wow..if I had cut down that much that fast, they'ld be wiping the drool off of my face. I wouldn't be posting here all the time.
I'm in awe of you.
cowgirl
I'm in awe of you.
cowgirl
Cowgirl,
Hold on to that awe till ive gone a month without anything, but it is an amzing turnaround and i feel blessed thus far, its never happened to me before.
Thanks for your support,Great picture on the picture thread!
Hugs,
ali
P.S. the "posting here all the time" is actually therapeutic for me right now...although i had to run around the last minute, make dinner and clean the house 20 mins. before my husband got home so he thinks im a good wife and not sitting here posting all day..LOLOLOL
Hold on to that awe till ive gone a month without anything, but it is an amzing turnaround and i feel blessed thus far, its never happened to me before.
Thanks for your support,Great picture on the picture thread!
Hugs,
ali
P.S. the "posting here all the time" is actually therapeutic for me right now...although i had to run around the last minute, make dinner and clean the house 20 mins. before my husband got home so he thinks im a good wife and not sitting here posting all day..LOLOLOL
