Okay...I need your support. I am at work. I am on day 11 of detox from Norco (10/325 hydro)....I was taking 10+ per day. My friend who is a big user...we used to split orders, share, etc., just received her order via UPS. OH, just seeing that truck pull up made my stomach all antsy. He brought her the package...I knew what was in it. She got her supply of Norcos. All I had to do (or could do) is ask and she would give some to me. OH, I want some so bad. She knows I am detoxing and says how proud she is, but also knows I suffer with pain and depression and they make me feel good. I need some words of encouragement to help me through this...
Pray! it's what I would do. If nothing else comes to mind say the serenity prayer. Walk outside and get some fresh air, that might help. Hang tough, I can imagine how difficult this is for you. The hardest time I ever have is knowing my husband might have a pill or even worse...hearing it.(the bottle rattling in his pocket). And just like you I know all I have to do is ask. I've done many little tricks to get past those horrid moments. I have actually left the house and went to the store just to get my head somewhere else. Be strong, remember how far you've come. Also, remember just one and you're back on that cycle all over again. Good luck! Much compassion for you from one Kat to the other. Kat
Stay clam and breath it will pass, maybe you should the your friend no matter what do not give me any pills. We are here for you, and Hun you can do this !! Believe in yourself, cause I do
Marina~
Always be true to yourself
Marina~
Always be true to yourself
UGH. I have the chills. I want I want. My friend knows not to give me any ... I know if I begged her she would give....she is a good friend....users are really good friends. BUT, she knows how good I have been doing so she won't give. CUZ, I won't ask
Kat ~
Talk to me. I may not be next to you but I can hold you hand in spirt :-)
Marina ~
Talk to me. I may not be next to you but I can hold you hand in spirt :-)
Marina ~
However much she gave you, would it really ever be enough? Think it through. God Bless, M.
Kat
If you take one pill you will want more.
If you take one pills then all the hard work and fighting to be clean will be erased. You have come to far to stop now. Think about all the good things in you life. Family, being clean and finally being happy. Please my friend keep fighting the evil carving. Take it min by min
Marina ~
If you take one pill you will want more.
If you take one pills then all the hard work and fighting to be clean will be erased. You have come to far to stop now. Think about all the good things in you life. Family, being clean and finally being happy. Please my friend keep fighting the evil carving. Take it min by min
Marina ~
Also know this ~
YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
Marina ~
YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
Marina ~
i know how hard it is i'm going through the same thing I was the supplyer to my friend bc i could get to my fathers pills whenever i wanted
now my parents know so they are locked in a file cabnet
everyday i go to see if they forgot to shut the drawer i pray that they will forget b/c i want them so bad They ARE RIGHT THERE AND I CANT GET THEM ithinki might go insane
now my parents know so they are locked in a file cabnet
everyday i go to see if they forgot to shut the drawer i pray that they will forget b/c i want them so bad They ARE RIGHT THERE AND I CANT GET THEM ithinki might go insane
Well, well, well...
KAT, yesterday you were the one to help me when i wanted to kick the neighbor in the head. And now my dear friend, i will be there for you. I kind of understand what your going threw but im the one who is tappering and when the w/d are that bad, i take one. Its a lowwer mlg, but it helps take the edge off. The other thing is that, i dont do it for the high anymore, it just makes me sick to my stomic now.
Tell your neighbor to stop having the stupid f***ing things delivered to her house. The belong getting delivered to the junk yard. Im just kidding i know that you cant do that but, maybe whatever the date is that she gets them you can go out to the store or have a lunch date.
Dont olet it be the day the pills are delivered, let it be the day that you had a great lunch, or the day that you met a huge good looking guy.
My advise is not all that great and everyone always says all this nice stuff to each other about hopeing and praying. Im just not that happy of a person right now. And you know what, i have a right to have alittle bit of an attitude. I have gone from.... 5,625mlgs, taken all day yesterday from 8:00am to 10:38pm. and today i have only taken 2,200mlg. I actually feel o.k. not wonderful, but o.k.
Christina
P.S. I miss taking to you from yesterday. Did you get to finish reading the story about the NEIGHBOR?????
KAT, yesterday you were the one to help me when i wanted to kick the neighbor in the head. And now my dear friend, i will be there for you. I kind of understand what your going threw but im the one who is tappering and when the w/d are that bad, i take one. Its a lowwer mlg, but it helps take the edge off. The other thing is that, i dont do it for the high anymore, it just makes me sick to my stomic now.
Tell your neighbor to stop having the stupid f***ing things delivered to her house. The belong getting delivered to the junk yard. Im just kidding i know that you cant do that but, maybe whatever the date is that she gets them you can go out to the store or have a lunch date.
Dont olet it be the day the pills are delivered, let it be the day that you had a great lunch, or the day that you met a huge good looking guy.
My advise is not all that great and everyone always says all this nice stuff to each other about hopeing and praying. Im just not that happy of a person right now. And you know what, i have a right to have alittle bit of an attitude. I have gone from.... 5,625mlgs, taken all day yesterday from 8:00am to 10:38pm. and today i have only taken 2,200mlg. I actually feel o.k. not wonderful, but o.k.
Christina
P.S. I miss taking to you from yesterday. Did you get to finish reading the story about the NEIGHBOR?????
how in the world do you have that many m/g of pills that you can take???
O.k maybe im writing this wrong, but i have 750mlg vics. If i take 1 1/2 pills thats 1125mlgs of vic. in my system. Am i wrong ??? I fell like maybe im saying it wrong and everyone is laughiing at me...
Christina
Christina
no way i'm not laughing at you i have no idea
i know i've taken the same amount before but mine come from my dad who has them perscribed
Do you have them perscribed for a reason
i know i've taken the same amount before but mine come from my dad who has them perscribed
Do you have them perscribed for a reason
I am on day 11 and have felt really good until now. I am having high anxiety....I feel horrible. The foggy feeling was going away but now it is back again really bad. I am at work and am having a horrible time. Can anyone relate to this. I am going to go nuts. Plese help.
How can you even entertain the thought of going back on pills after all you went through???
Do you want to go through this ALL OVER AGAIN! Feeling so horrible for 10 days... You made it this far already. Do you want to start at Day 0?
Please don't get a tiny little pill control your life. You sound so much smarter and brighter then that.
I mean why would you want to get high now just for a temporary feeling just to feel horrible after????
Do you want to go through this ALL OVER AGAIN! Feeling so horrible for 10 days... You made it this far already. Do you want to start at Day 0?
Please don't get a tiny little pill control your life. You sound so much smarter and brighter then that.
I mean why would you want to get high now just for a temporary feeling just to feel horrible after????
kat,
read back on some of your first posts and see how miserable you were then look how far you have come do you really want to go through that again. remember this is alot in our minds and you are strong enough to beat this thing. we are fighting for you in prayer but the ultimate decision is yours. you can do it!!!!!
johnny
read back on some of your first posts and see how miserable you were then look how far you have come do you really want to go through that again. remember this is alot in our minds and you are strong enough to beat this thing. we are fighting for you in prayer but the ultimate decision is yours. you can do it!!!!!
johnny
hey katboyd
where are you from i knew a kathy boyd wher i grew up just wondered are you from GA.
johnny
where are you from i knew a kathy boyd wher i grew up just wondered are you from GA.
johnny
Katboyd.. that is a tough situation to be in.. i really admire your efforts and can identify with what you are feeling.. but to start the cycle all over after how far you have come would be really tragic..please hold on..
