Hi if any of you have read about me you'll know my main problem is tramadol.Well I can't belive I'm even thinking about doing what I'm thinking about doing.I was on Adderal for about 2 yrs before the dr giving them to me lost his license.Well I've been doing better with the tramadol if you can say 12 instead of 14-15 a day is better.Lately I have been down on myself.Since I stopped the Adderal I've gained 20-30lbs.My boyfriend has no problem with the way I look His love is neverending.My problem is I have found a couple on line Pharmacies that sell the adderal and even if I didn't find them I'm an old pro at playing Drs.I'm scaring myself because the pull to get those Freakin pills is overwelming!I realize it may be a deadly combination to mix the 2 and I keep saying to myself"oh I'll only be on them for a bit"30 pills are like 80.00 Please just give me some will power I have come so far since the days of melting my face off with speed.A part of me wants them so badly.And belive me I know there are much better ways to drop a couple pounds but the adderal works the quickest.God I really HATE myself right now......mollyjean
Molly, you have to tell yourself no!! You really shouldn't mix the two pills. I've taken adderal with lortab and it was horrible. I felt like my heart was going to burst. You are strong and yes, you've come so far, so don't let the pills win! Hang in there and BE STRONG!!!! Keep me posted, and please don't get the pills.
Mollyjean,
I don't know what the medication is you are trying to get but don't. You have come to far. If it is a diet pill, don't get it please. You have come to far in trying to wean yourself off of 1 drug you don't need another interfering with that process. Tell me is it a diet pill? Rae
I don't know what the medication is you are trying to get but don't. You have come to far. If it is a diet pill, don't get it please. You have come to far in trying to wean yourself off of 1 drug you don't need another interfering with that process. Tell me is it a diet pill? Rae
God Thank youSurgarbear.I need to find the will power fast! The only good thing about it right now is I can't afford it.Is it normal to miss that reved up feeling even after a couple years away from it.Its like part of me knows how dangerous it can be the other part keeps saying oh its only for 1-2 weeks its no big deal but damn it it is a big deal.Why do I have such a weakness when it comes to being a popper.I really know what your saying but like I said right now I'm fighting a war of wills and I am scared.I have my daughters that need me.Besides the fact that I was so bad into the Adderal that I started having these blister looking things pop up on my face that I still carry scar.What the hell is wrong with me
dear rae no its not a diet pill they prescripe it for add or adhd something like that its an amphetamine.I'm not really that bad overweight or maybe I'm just trying to find a reason to take it again.I know I really should find a therapist to talk to but after all i have been through with Drs i have a hard time trusting any.If anyone can think of a reliable one in New York please.I feel myself going where i don't want to go
Hey Molly,
I know what you are try to do rationalize using not just the tramadol but now adderal too. So I am gonna ask you to try something.
First I want you to do something......which is nothing.....nothing at all
Then later today I want you to try to come up with a tapering plan for yourself.
Like maybe 12 pills a day for a week and then dropping one pill every week until you are down to none!
Now for the weight......this is easy.......first try to walk everyday......doesn't matter how far but put in atleast 20 min. Another easy thing is to not eat anything after 6 pm. (or find low cal snacks for a night.....waterice (instead of ice-cream), plain popcorn(no butter), stuff like that. Make sure you eat a good breakfast......and try to cook everything yourself.....no processed stuff. I know that part is hard but it does help.
You are a good person Molly and it is worth it.......keep fighting for yourself.
Love,
Yina
I know what you are try to do rationalize using not just the tramadol but now adderal too. So I am gonna ask you to try something.
First I want you to do something......which is nothing.....nothing at all
Then later today I want you to try to come up with a tapering plan for yourself.
Like maybe 12 pills a day for a week and then dropping one pill every week until you are down to none!
Now for the weight......this is easy.......first try to walk everyday......doesn't matter how far but put in atleast 20 min. Another easy thing is to not eat anything after 6 pm. (or find low cal snacks for a night.....waterice (instead of ice-cream), plain popcorn(no butter), stuff like that. Make sure you eat a good breakfast......and try to cook everything yourself.....no processed stuff. I know that part is hard but it does help.
You are a good person Molly and it is worth it.......keep fighting for yourself.
Love,
Yina
Molly, I took adderal for a while and you just want energy. But remember, it's fake energy. And 1 or 2 weeks after you say you'll quit, you'll feel like you can't function without it. So...you won't quit. Plus, when I took it I NEVER ate and that is SO unhealthy. Don't do that to your body. It needs nourishment. I know how hard it is to fight the craving, but think of your children. They need a healthy mom who doesn't need drugs to function. Please, please be strong, I know you are so tell your cravings to go to hell and get out of the house and do something to stay busy. Think of the money you can save and spend it on Chrismas for the kids. If you spend $80.00 on pills, that's $80.00 worth of Christmas your kids won't get, right? Go get some decorations for the house, or new stockings or SOMETHING! lol You can beat this!!!
Mollyjean,
I did some research on it and what I found out about it was:
Adderal,like all amphetamines,have a high potiental for ABUSE. If used in large doses over a long period of time it CAn cause DEPENDENCE and ADDITCTION...It looks like there is MANY things that you should NOT take that drug with because of interactions. For example taking it within 14 days of taking an anti-depressant could result in a potientially life threathening spike in blood pressure. Also Benadryl and some others should not be taken with it. I hope and pray you change your mind. You need to focus on tappering down the med's you are on now and getting on with you life. Not adding another obsticle-sp?to get in your way of doing that... Mollyjean,just get that thought OUT OF YOUR MIND...If it is for energy a B-12 vitamin and a multi-vitamin with some good ol'exercise will do that trick and make you feel so much better about losing the weight.... If you need to talk I am here for you! Rachel
I did some research on it and what I found out about it was:
Adderal,like all amphetamines,have a high potiental for ABUSE. If used in large doses over a long period of time it CAn cause DEPENDENCE and ADDITCTION...It looks like there is MANY things that you should NOT take that drug with because of interactions. For example taking it within 14 days of taking an anti-depressant could result in a potientially life threathening spike in blood pressure. Also Benadryl and some others should not be taken with it. I hope and pray you change your mind. You need to focus on tappering down the med's you are on now and getting on with you life. Not adding another obsticle-sp?to get in your way of doing that... Mollyjean,just get that thought OUT OF YOUR MIND...If it is for energy a B-12 vitamin and a multi-vitamin with some good ol'exercise will do that trick and make you feel so much better about losing the weight.... If you need to talk I am here for you! Rachel
Dear misty I know I'm trying to find reasons to get stuff.Is there any hope for me ever.It seems like for the last 20-25 yrs pills have been a costant thing I think About.Your right I'm just trying to find excuses to use anything.I was doing so well I thought To go to 12 a day was a big step.Why do I go 1 step forward 2 steps back.Am I going CRAZY!Is there any help for me.I'm only 37 I DON"T WANT TO DIE YET>even though that would be a relief from this mental crap.Are there any good DR I can go to Why are most of them so easy to play.I know I'll regret writing all this I feel like I've lost my way n GOD it makes me so mad at myself
Molly, use that anger to fight!!!
Yes I remember the last time I was on the Adderal I had to have a friend who would actually remind me to eat cause I would go 2 days or so without eating.I was working nights I remember having to smoke pot to try to come down enough to sleep.Belive me I know all the reasons I should NOT but why do I still want it.Does anyone know of a good caren therapist in ny please keep posting you guys give me such hope I read your stories and I hope
Go to Physicans in your phone book,maybe you'll have some luck there or on the internet type in therapist's in the city and state you are in maybe something will pop up! Hang in there---You are strong in giving everyone great advice all the time. You need to use some for yourself. I mean that in a good way! Take care-Rae
Yes there is always hope...........hope is all around you............you see it don't you? Look into you childrens eyes....its ever present there. It is in your heart....or you wouldn't have reached out!
About the 2 steps forward thing: Thank god you aren't like my hubby he does the 2 forward and then about 10 back....LOL
Hang in there Molly......you can do it!
Hey Jess saw you jumped in.....hope you are doing well today!
About the 2 steps forward thing: Thank god you aren't like my hubby he does the 2 forward and then about 10 back....LOL
Hang in there Molly......you can do it!
Hey Jess saw you jumped in.....hope you are doing well today!
Thank you all I need some down time right now I'll go clean my 12yr olds room and try to work through all this.I will keep checking in with all.For the first time in my life I am so glad I'm broke.At least that kinda helps knowing no cash no adderal take care all......mollyjean
Molly, I used to have to take valium to go to sleep at night and I still couldn't sleep! It was awful! The truth is, I really don't even like the way adderal made me feel! I just couldn't quit! it was all mental. I have cravings even now for pain pills. And, Molly, they are SO strong sometimes. I feel like I can't fight them another day, but I do and the next day I feel good about myself. Please just fight for one more day! You can do it!
Sugarbear Thanks for the words of support I just got done cleaning my 12 yr olds room and I kinda destressed that way.I feel so stupid for babbling like that its just sometime(even though I know I'm not)I feel so lost.Your right I have been through so much crap in my life I'll be damned if I'm gonna throw away all I've been trying to do.Getting mad is a great tool especially when your home alone.Thank you again youll never know how some strangers words can be so soothing..I'll be around sometime later.I have to take my 16yr old driving (GULP) around 2:00 so wish me some luck.If I can get through that I should be ok Tank You again I'm very grateful....mollyjean
Molly, I knew that you are strong!! I am here anytime you need me. If I don't answer right away, I am probably at school or picking my kids up from school or something, but I always check in. You hang in there and keep fighting the good fight! Keep me posted and I hope you make it through the "driving lesson" OK! LOL! Love, Jessica
Thank you SOOO MUCH I am so glad I found this site and people who as good hearted as you.Now I think I'll go on a cleaning binge in my living room Thank you again even though I haven't met any of you for the first time in years I feel friendship.Thats one of the best drugs huh....Take care.....mollyjean
Molly, there are other ways to lose weight. I hate the weight thing...that is one of the reasons I started the tramadol, too, so I could workout without pain. I understand carrying extra weight, ten pounds extra and I am miserable.
But the adderall isn't the answer. Exersize is a much better way. Plus, exersize has all these great health benefits with it. Listen to misty, try walking everyday and get someone to go with you, it will make it fun.
But, please, don't go back on the adderall,,,,,
kerry
But the adderall isn't the answer. Exersize is a much better way. Plus, exersize has all these great health benefits with it. Listen to misty, try walking everyday and get someone to go with you, it will make it fun.
But, please, don't go back on the adderall,,,,,
kerry
