I made a personal milestone today: 28 days and no weed. It was a rough period I must say and the cravings are down significantly, but for some reason my mood was black and close to being unmanagable due to my wife attacking me w/ comments on my not being supportive and me not buying her a house and us not having a child; she sure knows where to put the knife in me after 5 years.
I ended up at my M.D.'s office for a one hour counsultation and he prescribed Alprazolam 0.5mg tabs x2 at bedtime. I took them about 1.15 hours ago and am surprised how sleepy I am now but my mood is is stabilizing and not labile. I thought I'd just post a message before sleep so as to stay in contact w/this helpful group I have discovered.
Peace be with you all,
Ernie
Hi ernie,
Congratulations on 28 days clean! That's terrific.
I'm sorry you're not getting the support you need at home. Perhaps you could direct your wife to the Family & Friends site on this webpage. It may help her understand your situation better and she could get some support as well.
I'm told that it will take roughly one month for every year we used for our body to be back to normal, so don't be impatient with yourself. Depression is perhaps the result of brain chemical imbalance in the absence of pot.
Just a question. Were you aware that the tranquilizer your doctor prescribed, Alprozalam, is Xanax, which is a highly addictive benzodiazepene? (My psychiatrist has stopped prescribing alprozalam to his patients because it is so extremely addictive.) Please keep that in mind. I'd hate to see you battle through one addiction to succumb to another. Maybe you could drop by the prescription pills site -- there are several people detoxing from xanax/alprozalam who would be happy to answer any questions and they are certainly more knowledgeable than I.
Congratulations again.
Best wishes.
Congratulations on 28 days clean! That's terrific.
I'm sorry you're not getting the support you need at home. Perhaps you could direct your wife to the Family & Friends site on this webpage. It may help her understand your situation better and she could get some support as well.
I'm told that it will take roughly one month for every year we used for our body to be back to normal, so don't be impatient with yourself. Depression is perhaps the result of brain chemical imbalance in the absence of pot.
Just a question. Were you aware that the tranquilizer your doctor prescribed, Alprozalam, is Xanax, which is a highly addictive benzodiazepene? (My psychiatrist has stopped prescribing alprozalam to his patients because it is so extremely addictive.) Please keep that in mind. I'd hate to see you battle through one addiction to succumb to another. Maybe you could drop by the prescription pills site -- there are several people detoxing from xanax/alprozalam who would be happy to answer any questions and they are certainly more knowledgeable than I.
Congratulations again.
Best wishes.
Way to go, Ernie!!! One month will lead to 2 and 2 to 3 --- keep it going!!!!
We are all rooting for you.
Congratulations.
SusanJean
We are all rooting for you.
Congratulations.
SusanJean
Thank you for the kind words SM and Susan.
Yes we did discuss the Xanax issue; I had concerns as well as I work in Mental Health and monitor and distribute this same medication to clients several times a day, which by the way is most often prescribed for panic disorders. I had concerns as well, but I honestly have only been sleeping maybe 2-3 hours a day at most and w/what I'm going through with my marriage, well, after a month, I was ready to try about anything. I talked to my MD (a family friend for over 20 years) and described my symptoms, sleep problems, edginess, general depression as well as absolutley becoming unable to keep my wife leaving me out of my mind, and then w/her periodically calling or showing up and attacking me w/ little or no warning (after not seeing or hearing from her for three days, and my not knowing where she is staying, at 9AM she just opened the door and started an argument w/me) I was becoming almost irrational and having dificulties not crying at inappropriate times, and believe me I just don't do this normally. This even happened at work during a counseling session I was conducting on Monday, so, despite some people's misgivings, I'll take a little risk so I can keep functioning. Given my job, I am walking a fine line here, and I sure would hate to get problems there as I have a very good record as being somewhat of a rock in field that has high burn-out.
Actually, the 0.25mg Alprazolam seem to have little effect except to let me concentrate on something else other than what my MD is calling my wife's "psychological terrorism" when I described what she's doing to me, which I won't go into here.
Thanks for you concerns. I'll try to be careful. But I had to do something to help me sleep and w/her visits and telephone calls at odd hours, it was getting kind of hard to function.
I pray you all are doing well trying to get this drug out of our lives and are able to deal w/life's assorted problems.
Ernie
Yes we did discuss the Xanax issue; I had concerns as well as I work in Mental Health and monitor and distribute this same medication to clients several times a day, which by the way is most often prescribed for panic disorders. I had concerns as well, but I honestly have only been sleeping maybe 2-3 hours a day at most and w/what I'm going through with my marriage, well, after a month, I was ready to try about anything. I talked to my MD (a family friend for over 20 years) and described my symptoms, sleep problems, edginess, general depression as well as absolutley becoming unable to keep my wife leaving me out of my mind, and then w/her periodically calling or showing up and attacking me w/ little or no warning (after not seeing or hearing from her for three days, and my not knowing where she is staying, at 9AM she just opened the door and started an argument w/me) I was becoming almost irrational and having dificulties not crying at inappropriate times, and believe me I just don't do this normally. This even happened at work during a counseling session I was conducting on Monday, so, despite some people's misgivings, I'll take a little risk so I can keep functioning. Given my job, I am walking a fine line here, and I sure would hate to get problems there as I have a very good record as being somewhat of a rock in field that has high burn-out.
Actually, the 0.25mg Alprazolam seem to have little effect except to let me concentrate on something else other than what my MD is calling my wife's "psychological terrorism" when I described what she's doing to me, which I won't go into here.
Thanks for you concerns. I'll try to be careful. But I had to do something to help me sleep and w/her visits and telephone calls at odd hours, it was getting kind of hard to function.
I pray you all are doing well trying to get this drug out of our lives and are able to deal w/life's assorted problems.
Ernie
Hey ernie,
Certainly no one needs to suffer during w/ds, and I didn't wish to sound disapproving of the xanax use. I wasn't aware that you are in the mental health profession and therefore knowledgeable about the drug.
I'm sorry to hear about your wife's "psychological terrorism." My therapist said that about my parents, so I understand something of what you are going through. Sometimes it's hard for partners to see us change, especially if they have unresolved issues of their own -- I'm sure you know this.
I've started posting more on the pain pills site, and there's a lot more activity there. Many wonderful, caring people and they don't care what drug you're recovering from. Addiction is addiction. Why don't you drop by and see if you like it. This page gets a little lonely and you don't need to feel alone right now.
You take care. You're doing fine. One day at a time.
Gina
Certainly no one needs to suffer during w/ds, and I didn't wish to sound disapproving of the xanax use. I wasn't aware that you are in the mental health profession and therefore knowledgeable about the drug.
I'm sorry to hear about your wife's "psychological terrorism." My therapist said that about my parents, so I understand something of what you are going through. Sometimes it's hard for partners to see us change, especially if they have unresolved issues of their own -- I'm sure you know this.
I've started posting more on the pain pills site, and there's a lot more activity there. Many wonderful, caring people and they don't care what drug you're recovering from. Addiction is addiction. Why don't you drop by and see if you like it. This page gets a little lonely and you don't need to feel alone right now.
You take care. You're doing fine. One day at a time.
Gina
