Oxcycontin

just found this site quite good!!!experianced most drugs and still at forty still taking alot no one around me would guess it they are all straight and would not know what to look for my doctor prescribed oxy five years ago for pain i am know shooting them upi just want to stop all of these habits i want to get through life without drugs the hardest part is i love drugs and it scares me to think of ife without them would love to go to rehab cant afford it would like some advice
Really glad you're here..welcome to the board.

Is this the first time you've tried to get clean? If not, what have you done in the past? How much are you using a day?

Can you talk to your doctor and ask for help?

Both my son and neice were/are addicted to Oxycontin...it is the scariest drug I've ever come across.
no said alot of times i want to stop but didnt even try i can use up to three eighys a day plus alot of the time dope and once a fortnight speed let alone all the coke i drinkthe money is starting to become an issue now im buying pills have not told my doctor i
feel i cant kill my main source
Maybe you haven't hit your bottom yet? Until you do, you won't get honest with those that could help you.

If you can find the money to buy all of the "dope", you can find money for treatment. Have you heard of Suboxone? You may be a good canidate for that.

What about a family member? Are you married? A friend that you trust?
I used it for 5 years took it exactly as the Dr prescribed and just about 2 months ago tapered off it. I think you need some help esp if you are shooting it. Don't be afraid to ask for help it's out there and you can find it. You might be surprised that some of your friends suspect it or may have had some experience with it. Good Luck and get some help...Welcome to the boards
no probally not yet but its coming yes just got married he is way against drugs
and does not understand the rehabs i have looked at are way out of my league
So what's your drug budget? And are you implying your new spouse doesn't know? Hardly seems possible...
I am not a doctor nor a counselor, but I urge you to talk to your new husband about this addiction. Most people feel as if they can not tell their spouse for one reason or another. I was terrified to tell mine. He was upset, sure and probably a little angry, but he got over that b/c he loved me and wanted to help me. Now, you are starting out in a new marriage with this secret. Our secrets keep us sick.

I get the feeling that these excuses are b/c like you said...you don't want to cut off your main supply and you don't want anyone close to you to know b/c then you would have a harder time keeping this hid. Chances are they are already suspicious(sp?). I know because I've been there. When you hit bottom you are then ready to do whatever it takes to clean. What are you willing to do?

I do know how frightened you are. Keep coming back, reading, and posting. There is a better way and better life waiting for you! I wish you all the best.
I didn't think my husband knew either...wrong. They know, they all know. On some level he suspects something's up with you. You can run but you can't hide.

Ok, so rehab's are out of your league...you may qualify for state assistance. There are ways around this, just got to want it bad enough and do the hard work. NA/AA is free..maybe start there? Find a meeting in your area, put your butt in a chair and listen. It's not as scary as it sounds.

Coming here and asking questions is a good start but I get the feeling you aren't quite ready to give up your drugs. Am I wrong? Be honest with yourself.