I am not here to boast just for my own little diary input, it is 3 weeks today that I haven't used, got offered today and turned it down with no problem. I really hope I continue to feel like this, the only problem I am having is sometimes feeling bored of things I do, compared to doing it whilst using. Then I try and think of all the bad feelings. Day by day I suppose. Hope you are all well on here. I really must click off as my partner wants to use pc. Just thought I would tell you my 3wek mark is here. I hope I get as far as alot of you amazing people have in recovery. I know I have realised one thing since trying to stop, there's only me can do it, no one can make me or do it for me. I will try and stay strong enough. Can anyone answer me this, I have read b4 that once an addict always an addict, and that if you have been an addict you will go the rest of your life often been tempted to that habit. Or is there a day when you forget and are never tempted. xxxxx
I don't think there will ever be a day that I don't remember the high or be tempted...i think you just learn NOT to act on it....
So proud of you Sugar!
So proud of you Sugar!
Congrats andr1. I know that for me, being in recovery (NA) gives me a daily reprieve from my active addiction. I've been clean for 5 months, and I still get many urges. But I've learned that I don't have to act on those urges, and instead I reach out to a fellow recovering addict.
Do you go to meetings or have any other plan in place to help you stay clean for the long haul?
Do you go to meetings or have any other plan in place to help you stay clean for the long haul?
Hi Janet, you know I really do look up to you, I can't say what it is but I always read your posts and look for your name on here, we had some strange conversations to start with I know. Since then you have always been honest with me and told me how it is, and others. I guess you are right what you are saying, because it has got easier for me to think NO than it used to be. And another thing (by the way my mum looks ace) you have a resemblence of my mother, sorry not meaning you are a mother figure, but because I have seen your photo and spoke to you most, I really have looked up to you. You really are a REASON to make it through. I have read your good and bad times, and you have coped with alot more than I think I could, I am sure I have it to come as far as children are concerned. You seem so strong, even when you feel weak and I admire that. You are always there for others when you need others. You really are amazing, please don't let your head go too big. Then again it would be handy for halloween if your head did get big (pumkin) only kidding. Seriously thank you Janet, I mean it. xxxxxxxxxGoodnight speak to you soon.
P.s you could be the pumkin I could be the creepy crawly (I hope creep has the same meaning as here, here it's when you compliment someone so much to get round them, in other up someones a**) Not that I am creeping I really mean it. (digin deeper) bye bye good night, shut up andrea timexxxxxx
P.s you could be the pumkin I could be the creepy crawly (I hope creep has the same meaning as here, here it's when you compliment someone so much to get round them, in other up someones a**) Not that I am creeping I really mean it. (digin deeper) bye bye good night, shut up andrea timexxxxxx
thanks sweetie...tears in my eyes...
and no...i know better than to let it give me a big head...that's when you get overconfident and careless.
and no...i know better than to let it give me a big head...that's when you get overconfident and careless.
Hi cadlehead, thanks for your reply. I have tried counselling it didn't work out, basically because he had more important addicts who were more at risk than me to deal with. Pathetic I know but anyhow I think it gave me a kick in the right direction as I came to the conclusion only I was going to stop, no majic wand or counsller. So no I didn't get to the stage of meetings. None of my family or friends know and I am not going to ever tell them. As I say it's been 3wk this is the only place I come (more since being clean due to shame) which I know is also pathetic as that is what this place is for. I think you and Janet told me what I thought would be true, that I will think about it. To be totally honest something must have realy hit me this time, as I have been stronger and not found it as hard this time round. And it's 3wk. For some reason I really do feel I have had enough, I hope it's not just a stage in recovery and I relapse. I know I have to do alot more than hope now, I have to do it. Myself.
As I have said b4 I do mumble alot, and talk as if I am talking to a diary sometimes, but it's my only place where I come about my addiction, and I am grateful. Hope you alright. Your time is brillian I bet you are really proud, I would be, sorry rephrase that WlLL be. Take care.xxxxxx
As I have said b4 I do mumble alot, and talk as if I am talking to a diary sometimes, but it's my only place where I come about my addiction, and I am grateful. Hope you alright. Your time is brillian I bet you are really proud, I would be, sorry rephrase that WlLL be. Take care.xxxxxx
Dear Andr1
I think you sound amazing for 3 weeks, obviously, you are open minded and took the advice of people gone before you, Janet is a great role model in my opinion, and quite a tolerant one at that.........I Have also learned some things from her that frankly, I thought I was incapable of learning or agreeing on for that matter, Lucky for me that I Stuck around, these wonderful people have helped me with not only addiction, but Life!! What more can we ask for?
God Bless
Dottie
I think you sound amazing for 3 weeks, obviously, you are open minded and took the advice of people gone before you, Janet is a great role model in my opinion, and quite a tolerant one at that.........I Have also learned some things from her that frankly, I thought I was incapable of learning or agreeing on for that matter, Lucky for me that I Stuck around, these wonderful people have helped me with not only addiction, but Life!! What more can we ask for?
God Bless
Dottie
dottie...stop...i can be a total biotch too....
but i can't stop gushing about andrea....she is doing great!!!
but i can't stop gushing about andrea....she is doing great!!!
Andre1 Good for you on three weeks clean, I know you have struggled before, you are doing brilliantly and you should be so proud of yourself.
We all come to this site and babble sometimes, thats what keeps people going, knowing everyone feels the same at some point in their recovery and knowing that things can get better.
Take care of yourself.
Karen
We all come to this site and babble sometimes, thats what keeps people going, knowing everyone feels the same at some point in their recovery and knowing that things can get better.
Take care of yourself.
Karen
