Lisa...I read in another thread that you relapsed after 5 months.
What triggered you to pick up again?..I want to avoid the same
fate..Its been 23 days for me, and man what a ride its been...
Doug
Doug,
Please excuse my butt-in ....
I'm sorry I don't know your story yet - but congrat's on your current 23 days!!! Keep it up!! :-)
What kind of support program do you have in place to help you STAY clean?? For me, that has always been the tough part!! I was the queen of relapse for a period of time. Working hard using the NA 12-step program is what has finally put me on the path to recovery. I know that I have to work at it daily & never let my guard down.
Addiction is very sneaky!! My sponsor had 13 years clean and then relapsed!! She had stopped going to regular meetings and thought she was "cured". She now has 5 years, but it took her almost a year to get back into NA when she relapsed. I am SO thankful to be able to learn from her experieces!! Hoping to not repeat any of the mistakes she made in the past....
Please excuse my butt-in ....
I'm sorry I don't know your story yet - but congrat's on your current 23 days!!! Keep it up!! :-)
What kind of support program do you have in place to help you STAY clean?? For me, that has always been the tough part!! I was the queen of relapse for a period of time. Working hard using the NA 12-step program is what has finally put me on the path to recovery. I know that I have to work at it daily & never let my guard down.
Addiction is very sneaky!! My sponsor had 13 years clean and then relapsed!! She had stopped going to regular meetings and thought she was "cured". She now has 5 years, but it took her almost a year to get back into NA when she relapsed. I am SO thankful to be able to learn from her experieces!! Hoping to not repeat any of the mistakes she made in the past....
Swizz...I don't really have a plan other than to detox, which i've done..
I have been to 2 NA meetings already and plan to go back..
Doug
I have been to 2 NA meetings already and plan to go back..
Doug
As far as I know Cowgirl has not relapsed
Janet...she said that she once had relapsed after being clean
for 5 months...I just don't ever want to go through the hell
I just went through..
Doug
for 5 months...I just don't ever want to go through the hell
I just went through..
Doug
Hi Doug...yes, I did relapse at 5 months when I got out of treatment. That was 5 almost 6 years ago. It took me another 4 years to get clean again after countless relapses, stops and starts. It wasn't until I got serious about a program of recovery which for me was NA, that I was able to get some clean time under me and be able to move on with my life. I had to fix me and that was the hardest part of all.
I stay clean because I practice the steps as best I can (I'm not perfect, it isn't always easy to do it exactly as suggested), I have a sponsor who I call daily and work those steps with and I go to meetings where I can hear and share my experience, strength and hope. I try to give away what's been given to me by helping people on this board, that in turn helps me, I hear something that I need to hear, every day.
The cravings in the beginning were brutal and without that support network, I would have kept relapsing. I had to shut up, sit down and listen. Stop doing things my way.
I'm really happy to hear that you've made a couple of meetings and that you plan to go back. When? What are you waiting for?
Ask for a temp. sponsor Doug. Reach out and let someone help. Someone who's been where you are and can understand what you're talking about. It's sometimes so frustrating to talk to people who don't get it.
I hope this answers your questions, please ask me more!!
Cowgirl
Hey Janet..I knew what he meant, I had talked about relapsing after treatment on another thread. This is how rumors get started! lol, before you know it, everyone will be saying, cowgirl relapsed???!!!!
xxx
I stay clean because I practice the steps as best I can (I'm not perfect, it isn't always easy to do it exactly as suggested), I have a sponsor who I call daily and work those steps with and I go to meetings where I can hear and share my experience, strength and hope. I try to give away what's been given to me by helping people on this board, that in turn helps me, I hear something that I need to hear, every day.
The cravings in the beginning were brutal and without that support network, I would have kept relapsing. I had to shut up, sit down and listen. Stop doing things my way.
I'm really happy to hear that you've made a couple of meetings and that you plan to go back. When? What are you waiting for?
Ask for a temp. sponsor Doug. Reach out and let someone help. Someone who's been where you are and can understand what you're talking about. It's sometimes so frustrating to talk to people who don't get it.
I hope this answers your questions, please ask me more!!
Cowgirl
Hey Janet..I knew what he meant, I had talked about relapsing after treatment on another thread. This is how rumors get started! lol, before you know it, everyone will be saying, cowgirl relapsed???!!!!
xxx
Lisa..thanks for the advise..I wanted to get my brain together a
little bit if you know what I mean..Before I went back to the
meetings..I have been taking those damn pills everyday for
nearly 15 years..When I quit 23 days ago, I didn't realize how
screwed up my brain chemistry was..Man, my eyes were blurry,
panic attacks, depression, insomnia,ect..ect..
Doug
little bit if you know what I mean..Before I went back to the
meetings..I have been taking those damn pills everyday for
nearly 15 years..When I quit 23 days ago, I didn't realize how
screwed up my brain chemistry was..Man, my eyes were blurry,
panic attacks, depression, insomnia,ect..ect..
Doug
Doug,
Congratulations on 23 days. So you experienced the blurry vision too? I thought it was just me. I've never heard anyone mention that one before.
At any rate, you are doing great. It's good to hear you sounding so positive.
Congratulations on 23 days. So you experienced the blurry vision too? I thought it was just me. I've never heard anyone mention that one before.
At any rate, you are doing great. It's good to hear you sounding so positive.
I remember the blurry vision as well. It all goes away, eventually. Just takes patience and kindness to ourselves.
You aren't any more screwed up than half the people that attend those meetings, Doug. People know where you're coming from. I just don't want you to lose your momentum. For the first 6 months I just listened. Very rarely did I ever talk. I couldn't. I couldn't make the thoughts turn into words. I still struggle with that and don't always come across the way I intend. But it does get better and easier with time. NA has a saying....time takes time. It's a cliche and states the obvious but so true.
You're doing great hon, hang in there.
Cowgirl
You aren't any more screwed up than half the people that attend those meetings, Doug. People know where you're coming from. I just don't want you to lose your momentum. For the first 6 months I just listened. Very rarely did I ever talk. I couldn't. I couldn't make the thoughts turn into words. I still struggle with that and don't always come across the way I intend. But it does get better and easier with time. NA has a saying....time takes time. It's a cliche and states the obvious but so true.
You're doing great hon, hang in there.
Cowgirl
Hi Jodi..
Hi Doug...nice to meet you. You have been really inspiring. I hope you stick around here.
Congrats on your beginning recovery Doog! I too remember the blurry eyes and something else I rarely hear mentioned but had a problem with was my ears. I had and continue to have a small problem with my left ear having hearing problems since using the oxycontin. It's nothing like it was prior to stopping the pills but just one more weird side effect. Keep up the good work!
Achy
Achy
Thanks achy...Nice to meet you...
Doug
Doug
