Hello,
I was on ultram for 3 years. I could order them online and I got to the point I was taking 18 or more a day. I would love the feeling it gave me. It was almost as if nothing could bother me, I would "OH, Well" everything, or just plain ignore. I went into the hospital for a few days to go through withdrawal and left. I stayed clean for 2 months. Then I got married and started feeling stressed. (My husband did not even know I was taking the medication) I almost lost him because of this. We have a friend who was addicted to cocaine, and my husband gave him more care and attention to him. I asked him why he was so mad at me for doing almost the same thing and he lashed out and said that "I am not marrying him, HE IS NOT GOING TO HAVE OUR CHILDREN". Well you would think that would have been enough for me, NOPE! I started taking ultram when we got back from our honeymoon. I have been taking it for 2 months now and stopped 3 days ago. This is so hard. I am moody, cant sleep. The doctor gave me trazidone to sleep at night andchlordiazepoxide to stop the urges. Well its not really working, I am sitting here thinking that it would be okay if I just have one more, but then I do know that one wont be enough. I am tired and terrified that I will never beable to escape this. I just wish the doctor never gave me the medication in the beginning. (I had foot surgery)
I would appreciate any help or advice that would aide me into finishing this forever.
I am in need for some help or advice from people that understand whay I am feeling,.
Hey Im mj I too took ultram like candy.15+ a day I say that because I would lose count.Bad real bad.I was on it for three years.I tried Cold Turkey I couldnt take the pain and I tried tapering only to end up taking more than before.One day & I still do not know why I desided ENOUGH I cant keep doing this.I did alot of research on the computer.Got information and went to my MD to fess up.He was prescribing 240 + I was buying 120+ off line.He & I sat down & came up with a treatment plan that has worked so far for me.It includes a medication to help me through the ultram W/D As I said I did try many many times other ways before I got to the point where if I didnt have the support from my Dr & the medication Im on I dont think I would be alive.The name of the drug is Suboxone.I do suggest you really look in to it/Search out everything you can find & read about it.It may be for you it may not.I wish you all the luck in the world.Im always on & off of here so if I can help PLEASE let me know....mj
LostElvisgirl
We have all been where you are now, or have had loved ones in that predicament. It is not easy. I think that most of started to use pain meds for legitimate reasons, then the disease of addiction took over. I was taking 10 15 hydorcodone per day. I knew I was slowly killing myself, destroying my liver, not eating well, not exercising. Well, one day I took stock of my life and realized that if I continued, I would either die or go broke. Neither were very promising options for me, so I decided to change. Not this was not the first time I tried. I had relapsed a couple of times after a few weeks, but I took my last pain pill on December 20, 2004 and have not looked back.
Life is far better clean than when I was using, though it took 30 40 days before I started to feel really like my old self. The physical withdrawals, usually lasting 3 5 days were not that bad. Kind of like the flu, but managed with Motrin and Imodium. Vitamins have also helped. I too had trouble sleeping for about a month after I stopped, which was a tad annoying because I was exhausted. It was an effort, during the first few weeks, to do anything, let alone do it with a smile. Still, I forced a smile, played with my kids, talked with my wife (who did not know of my addiction, and still does not) and worked and interacted with customers. It was not easy, but I was unable to put my life on hold.
There are many paths toward recovery. AA/NA, withdrawal medication like sub/bup, cold turkey, tapering. Whichever path you take, there will be challenges, but to be free from the pill popping hell I was living in made the pain of withdrawal well worth it!
Stay strong. With 3 days behind you, you are through the worst of it. You have support and empathy here. You are not alone in this.
We have all been where you are now, or have had loved ones in that predicament. It is not easy. I think that most of started to use pain meds for legitimate reasons, then the disease of addiction took over. I was taking 10 15 hydorcodone per day. I knew I was slowly killing myself, destroying my liver, not eating well, not exercising. Well, one day I took stock of my life and realized that if I continued, I would either die or go broke. Neither were very promising options for me, so I decided to change. Not this was not the first time I tried. I had relapsed a couple of times after a few weeks, but I took my last pain pill on December 20, 2004 and have not looked back.
Life is far better clean than when I was using, though it took 30 40 days before I started to feel really like my old self. The physical withdrawals, usually lasting 3 5 days were not that bad. Kind of like the flu, but managed with Motrin and Imodium. Vitamins have also helped. I too had trouble sleeping for about a month after I stopped, which was a tad annoying because I was exhausted. It was an effort, during the first few weeks, to do anything, let alone do it with a smile. Still, I forced a smile, played with my kids, talked with my wife (who did not know of my addiction, and still does not) and worked and interacted with customers. It was not easy, but I was unable to put my life on hold.
There are many paths toward recovery. AA/NA, withdrawal medication like sub/bup, cold turkey, tapering. Whichever path you take, there will be challenges, but to be free from the pill popping hell I was living in made the pain of withdrawal well worth it!
Stay strong. With 3 days behind you, you are through the worst of it. You have support and empathy here. You are not alone in this.
I agree with mollyjean, find a doctor who can draw up a treatment plan that includes suboxone. You don't have to do this alone.
My thoughts are with you.
My thoughts are with you.
Lost......Hey and welcome to the board.....congrats on 3 days,and keep going! It will be uncomfortable for a couple more, but will be so very worth it. To live a life ruled by pills sucks, as you know, and breaking free from the cycle is going to be the best thing you have ever done for yourself and your husband. Not to mention your future babies!
I used hydrocodone in ridiculous amounts for 8 years. Until the day came that I was sick of myself and the addiction. I was very determined and still am, to return to a 'normal' life. I went through some pretty bad days, though nothing unbearable, and now have 90 days clean. Darn, I just realized that today is my 90 day anniversary. LOL I have pretty much quit counting. LOL Anyway, I wanted to say that I have never felt this good, and have never felt this good about myself for having come this far. If I can do this, you surely can.
Please keep posting and let us help us. There are several on here whose DOC was ultram, and they know a lot about the w/d, etc.
Cheer up girl, you;re only going UP from here..promise!
TAke care, Carol
PS......POWERFUL, great post!! Glad to see you are doing good and hanging in there! Please come by more often.
Hey MollyGirl,
I was also taking them like candy, I would hid them in my bathrobe pocket so my husband couldnot see me taking them. I am glad I am not alone. I feel so stupid. I guess I am just really emotional too! I saw a comercial and cried like a baby. Then heard the song I danced to with my dad at my wedding and you would have thought I just lost my best friend.
I am feeling a bit better right now. I took a really really long bubble bath and now am going to eat dinner, hope I sleep all night!
Thanks soooooo much.
Meg
I was also taking them like candy, I would hid them in my bathrobe pocket so my husband couldnot see me taking them. I am glad I am not alone. I feel so stupid. I guess I am just really emotional too! I saw a comercial and cried like a baby. Then heard the song I danced to with my dad at my wedding and you would have thought I just lost my best friend.
I am feeling a bit better right now. I took a really really long bubble bath and now am going to eat dinner, hope I sleep all night!
Thanks soooooo much.
Meg
Bribriston,
Thank you so much for even taking the time to read my problems. I feel kina silly because it seems like all I do is complain.
I hope you have a good day
Meg
Thank you so much for even taking the time to read my problems. I feel kina silly because it seems like all I do is complain.
I hope you have a good day
Meg
trideltmom,
Thank you so much for the post! I appreciate knowing I am not alone
Megan
Hi Lost!
One thing about this board- you're NEVER alone! I've learned that no matter what you've done or felt, there is someone here that can relate to your story.
We're all addicts, just different meds and different methods.
Welcome and keep posting!
One thing about this board- you're NEVER alone! I've learned that no matter what you've done or felt, there is someone here that can relate to your story.
We're all addicts, just different meds and different methods.
Welcome and keep posting!
