Hi everyone - I don't post much but I read these threads often. I've been completely clean for about 3 weeks, that was a 1-day relapse after a couple of months clean. I'm in a recovery program and I'm doing pretty well despite the relapse. Don't know if anyone remembers, but I've posted before, deeply concerned about my job and keeping it, having told my bosses that I am in recovery. Well, the s--- hit the fan...Someone anonymously turned me in and said I was using drugs. I was fired today - there will be a full investigation (at least I'll have the chance to clear my name). I know that I didn't take the drugs and my bosses know also-I wasn't even in the area on one instance. But that doesn't save my job, what little dignity I've maintained thru this recovery or my very freedom if this isn't corrected. The boss told me to be sure and re-apply after all this "blows over" - that didn't make me feel better, but it lets me know that it was a corporate decision, not his. I feel so freaking low right now that it's hard to breathe. Can someone talk? s
Sorry Sherriet, I dont remember your job, were you a nurse?
Yes, I am, and I am trusting you, a stranger at this point, with this info. I know there are several in the medical profession who post here. I just re-read that first line and it sounds so STUPID - I guess i'm entrusting this to everyone who reads. I would really appreciate some support or just conversation.
S where did you work? Keep you're head up! The serenity prayer alway's works well. When you know you're right I would fight it till the end.Remember were all here for you!
Sherriet,
Oh dear, I feel your pain, and I am so sorry for your loss. Here you are fighting to do the right thing, and someone bit you in the behind. I wish I could say it will be alright, but I won't, because I dont' have that knowledge.
What I do know is that you have been doing what is right, and that will show, not to worry. Plus, you are doing it for yourself, not just to keep your job. You seem to be on the right track, and I wish you the best on your journey. As hard as it seems, it is worth it..... and so are you.
I know that with my addiction, I lost myself, and it is taken me a long time to find out who I am now. I can't go back, but I can move forward. So can you. I will include you into my prayers, and ask for you to find some peace in this trying time.
God Bless,
Lady M
Oh dear, I feel your pain, and I am so sorry for your loss. Here you are fighting to do the right thing, and someone bit you in the behind. I wish I could say it will be alright, but I won't, because I dont' have that knowledge.
What I do know is that you have been doing what is right, and that will show, not to worry. Plus, you are doing it for yourself, not just to keep your job. You seem to be on the right track, and I wish you the best on your journey. As hard as it seems, it is worth it..... and so are you.
I know that with my addiction, I lost myself, and it is taken me a long time to find out who I am now. I can't go back, but I can move forward. So can you. I will include you into my prayers, and ask for you to find some peace in this trying time.
God Bless,
Lady M
Thanks for the enocuragement. I will hold my head as high as my shattered self-esteem can! I will fight this fight to the very end, but I feel like the accusation alone has destroyed me. I live in a small town where everyone knows everything, but it's never the truth and if the truth isn't interesting enough, well, let's liven it up a bit! I keep telling myself "This too shall pass" - but each minute feels like an eternity!
Sherriet:
Sometimes it is hard to believe that when one door closes another, better door will open but I truly believe this to be true. I work in the medical profession also and nobody knows about my addiction and I know how small that community can be. Keep your chin up and I know you are in store for better, brighter days because you are clean.
Rach
Sometimes it is hard to believe that when one door closes another, better door will open but I truly believe this to be true. I work in the medical profession also and nobody knows about my addiction and I know how small that community can be. Keep your chin up and I know you are in store for better, brighter days because you are clean.
Rach
Thanks, Rach, I appreciate that, things will get better, maybe not before they get worse, but eventually things will look up!s
Just remember, you were wronged, and that is what will get you through the night. I grew up in a town like that, and even now, if you did something like help put a tack in a teachers seat, they will bring it up even 25 years later. I used to hate that, but now I see the closeness that is not there when you live in a big city.
It does not matter where you go sweetie, it is alway funner to believe the bad, the lie is always more interesting than the truth. It sucks, but you don't have to live in a small town to suffer it.
You know the truth, and the more you deny, laugh at the situation, and show it doesn't bother you even when it does, it makes things easier for you. Holding your head high is the right thing to do. No one ever died of embarrassment, even though we have wanted to at one time or another.
What can kill us is our addictions, letting them be active, and run our lives. Fighting for recovery is what is important. Living life to the fullest is what is important. Being PROUD of what we have accomplished is important. A silly rumor, damaging as it feels now, is minor. Losing you job over it is not minor though. Who ever did that to you is evil beyond evil. I have seen those who can spread a lie, but never ones who would mess with how a person supports themselves. That is wrong no matter what way you look at it.
Hang in there, and you will live through this, and come out the other side looking rather well I bet. You can do this. I have faith you can, just remember to paint that smile on, and lick the wound elsewhere. Seeing you hurt is what that person wants. That is the person I will feel sorry for, because they can't be happy if they would do something so low. Misery loves company. Don't give them the satisfaction.
Lady M
It does not matter where you go sweetie, it is alway funner to believe the bad, the lie is always more interesting than the truth. It sucks, but you don't have to live in a small town to suffer it.
You know the truth, and the more you deny, laugh at the situation, and show it doesn't bother you even when it does, it makes things easier for you. Holding your head high is the right thing to do. No one ever died of embarrassment, even though we have wanted to at one time or another.
What can kill us is our addictions, letting them be active, and run our lives. Fighting for recovery is what is important. Living life to the fullest is what is important. Being PROUD of what we have accomplished is important. A silly rumor, damaging as it feels now, is minor. Losing you job over it is not minor though. Who ever did that to you is evil beyond evil. I have seen those who can spread a lie, but never ones who would mess with how a person supports themselves. That is wrong no matter what way you look at it.
Hang in there, and you will live through this, and come out the other side looking rather well I bet. You can do this. I have faith you can, just remember to paint that smile on, and lick the wound elsewhere. Seeing you hurt is what that person wants. That is the person I will feel sorry for, because they can't be happy if they would do something so low. Misery loves company. Don't give them the satisfaction.
Lady M
I appreciate it, Lady, thank you. I'm not to the point yet that I can feel sorry for whoever did that, I'll pray for that to come to me. And you're right, I have to focus on my recovery, I can't let ANYTHING get in the way of that. Stuff like this could drive me back to using in a heartbeat. Can't let THAT little voice talk! Have to go offline for awhile, the child is screaming for the phone. I'll be back..s
Hi, I'm back. Wasn't sure if I should post here or on the other thread, just wanted to let you guys know that in spite of occasional disagreements btwn. people, this is the most helpful and encouraging site I've found! Of course, when people feel so passionate about an issue(s), there will be things said strongly and everyone can't think the same, or we'd all be bored to tears! I'm not saying that anything is "right" or "wrong" - just want to thank everyone for being my shoulder to lean on. s