i feel really alone and i think i gotta go to bed soon
((((((((((((((((((((stead)))))))))))))))))))))
there is a way out honey............
do you have a plan?
there is a way out honey............
do you have a plan?
no i dont have a plan
Your not alone! We all know how you feel. Your never going to be alone again. You have a huge bunch of people supporting you.
i appreciate that, but its still hard, like how do i stop, how can i control my body from taking the pills, its like when im taking them im watching myself from across the room take them, im not in my body when i take them, and after i take them i am back in my body. i know they are going to hurt me, i know its bad for my liver, but i watch myself take them and i cant stop it
ok stead.................get some rest well be here tomorow..............
post away anytime and lets see you begin to heal and cope with this addiction and you watch, you'll be living a life free from the bondage of pills..............
God Bless you sweet .dreams..................
i am going to bed myself......................
(((((((((((((((((((stead)))))))))))))))))))))))))
thumper
post away anytime and lets see you begin to heal and cope with this addiction and you watch, you'll be living a life free from the bondage of pills..............
God Bless you sweet .dreams..................
i am going to bed myself......................
(((((((((((((((((((stead)))))))))))))))))))))))))
thumper
Your addicted. The answer is simple. The pills control you, you have no control over them.
You don't have a plan yet. Keep posting and talking about what you going thru. You will come up with a plan that you feel comfortable with. It isn't going to happen today, just relax, your almost there.
Catherine
You don't have a plan yet. Keep posting and talking about what you going thru. You will come up with a plan that you feel comfortable with. It isn't going to happen today, just relax, your almost there.
Catherine
Hey stead fast...how about talking to a doctor for help? You can do this; but to stop taking pills, you just have to stop taking pills. We all here know how hard that is, but it is possible.
Do you get sick when you don't take them? That is a lot of pills; and you can buy them anywhere.
Have you tried AA or NA>? How about an addiction counselor? this is possible, but it is always best with support.
Just wanted to welcome you. You can do this...I know you can.
Do you get sick when you don't take them? That is a lot of pills; and you can buy them anywhere.
Have you tried AA or NA>? How about an addiction counselor? this is possible, but it is always best with support.
Just wanted to welcome you. You can do this...I know you can.
Steadfast:
I understand your pain. I also understand how the mind says: "This isn't ME taking these pills". I get it because I did the same thing. "This isn't really me"...
Unfortunately, it IS me. I am an addict. I became addicted to hydrocodone and my addiction NEVER got any better, it only got worse. Control is not an attribute that any addict has. It just doesn't work that way.
You CAN stop taking pills...of course you can. Everyone here has, multiple times, the stopping is really easier than the staying clean. You say that yourself, clean for about a year then one day...the Tylenol #3's, and you're off again. This is the cycle for an addict who doesn't ACTIVELY stay in recovery. Support has to come from somewhere. We all need someone we can talk to face to face to work through this problem.
Many here attend AA/NA. Some prefer counseling, all of us agree that some type of objective support is essential. This is what is meant by "a plan".
I appreciate that you reached out here. I think it takes a lot of courage to do that, and you should be proud of gettting some of that off your chest. What I know for certain is that my life is so much better pill free...I do not ever want to go back, and I work diligently on my heart to keep myself safe from using again.
You can get off these pills...but it usually involves being honest, with yourself and all the people around you. Secrets keep us sick. You will need help going through withdrawals, and you will need help staying clean. Do you have a Dr. that you can talk to? Are there addiction specialists in Canada? Are there places for you to detoxify, and get help? Start searching for your recovery and my guess is you will find more support than you can believe.
I wish you peace and grace and courage to find your answers.
I understand your pain. I also understand how the mind says: "This isn't ME taking these pills". I get it because I did the same thing. "This isn't really me"...
Unfortunately, it IS me. I am an addict. I became addicted to hydrocodone and my addiction NEVER got any better, it only got worse. Control is not an attribute that any addict has. It just doesn't work that way.
You CAN stop taking pills...of course you can. Everyone here has, multiple times, the stopping is really easier than the staying clean. You say that yourself, clean for about a year then one day...the Tylenol #3's, and you're off again. This is the cycle for an addict who doesn't ACTIVELY stay in recovery. Support has to come from somewhere. We all need someone we can talk to face to face to work through this problem.
Many here attend AA/NA. Some prefer counseling, all of us agree that some type of objective support is essential. This is what is meant by "a plan".
I appreciate that you reached out here. I think it takes a lot of courage to do that, and you should be proud of gettting some of that off your chest. What I know for certain is that my life is so much better pill free...I do not ever want to go back, and I work diligently on my heart to keep myself safe from using again.
You can get off these pills...but it usually involves being honest, with yourself and all the people around you. Secrets keep us sick. You will need help going through withdrawals, and you will need help staying clean. Do you have a Dr. that you can talk to? Are there addiction specialists in Canada? Are there places for you to detoxify, and get help? Start searching for your recovery and my guess is you will find more support than you can believe.
I wish you peace and grace and courage to find your answers.
