Today is a new day with endless posibilities. I choose to live a life full to the brim with laughter, my caring partner, our dreams in the sky, rather than give in to this insidious poison. Together we can have a wonderful future together. We are looking at buying our own land and building our own place together. Have kids, living life to the full. This can't be done with heroin in my life, pretending it is my best friend and wants the best for me. I will not listen and I will choose LIFE.
Yay! Go Rachel!
Support and Healing ~MomNMore
Support and Healing ~MomNMore
Thanks Mumnmore :)
I've come back to re-read this. Amazing how quickly feelings change and I have to remind myself again already!
I've come back to re-read this. Amazing how quickly feelings change and I have to remind myself again already!
Rachel
Good to hear you so possitive hold on to that feelng and you will get places.
I know the good fellings come and go but at least you have some one that you can share you pain with and will get you throw the hard times.
You are very lucky and you sound like a strong person and just so you know I thingk you will get far with a positive attitued.
As for me I don't thingk I could ever be able to thrust any one enough to be able to date again but that is just me to scared to trust and to afraid to let any one in.
So this sight is good for me I can vent and no one ever knows me or will ever see me to be able to judge me.
Rachel if you have a good person hold onto that my friend.
Hope to hear from you soon
Cheers Jadene
Good to hear you so possitive hold on to that feelng and you will get places.
I know the good fellings come and go but at least you have some one that you can share you pain with and will get you throw the hard times.
You are very lucky and you sound like a strong person and just so you know I thingk you will get far with a positive attitued.
As for me I don't thingk I could ever be able to thrust any one enough to be able to date again but that is just me to scared to trust and to afraid to let any one in.
So this sight is good for me I can vent and no one ever knows me or will ever see me to be able to judge me.
Rachel if you have a good person hold onto that my friend.
Hope to hear from you soon
Cheers Jadene
How are you rachel? Hope everythings good and your doing well. Fight on sister, fight on x
Girls, thank you so much for the encouragement. Thanks for what you wrote, Jadene, and Kitteekatt and MumnMore.
By the time I got home last night after work I was pretty sad and upset feeling. I'm okay today--pretty flat but glad it's Friday. I can't work out why I'm so tired all the time, even when I'm not doing all that much activity? Maybe that's the problem--I need to be going to the gym again. I do miss it but just don't have the oomph and not sure if my body could handle a hard workout after all the drugs.
Today I'm having lunch with a 'friend' of mine. She is the other person who was bullied in the office with me which brought us very close. But then when I separated from my husband she started having lunches with him and turned her back on me. Now she's getting a job interview and she wants me as a referee. I have been really hurt by her, but I will give her a chance at lunch time to see where she's at. Hopefully it goes well and I don't just get hurt all over again.
By the time I got home last night after work I was pretty sad and upset feeling. I'm okay today--pretty flat but glad it's Friday. I can't work out why I'm so tired all the time, even when I'm not doing all that much activity? Maybe that's the problem--I need to be going to the gym again. I do miss it but just don't have the oomph and not sure if my body could handle a hard workout after all the drugs.
Today I'm having lunch with a 'friend' of mine. She is the other person who was bullied in the office with me which brought us very close. But then when I separated from my husband she started having lunches with him and turned her back on me. Now she's getting a job interview and she wants me as a referee. I have been really hurt by her, but I will give her a chance at lunch time to see where she's at. Hopefully it goes well and I don't just get hurt all over again.
Rache,
That's wild. Be careful. God Bless you for giving that chick a chance.
Rache, it's normal in recovery like early to go so back and forth. Ya feel up then ya feel down. It's the chemicals getting all sorted back like they should be in the brain.
Have ya tried some Omega 3? It helps. Amino acids as well and some B-Complex. Well, they all helped me. Worth a try.
You're doing good. Hope the lunch goes well.
That's wild. Be careful. God Bless you for giving that chick a chance.
Rache, it's normal in recovery like early to go so back and forth. Ya feel up then ya feel down. It's the chemicals getting all sorted back like they should be in the brain.
Have ya tried some Omega 3? It helps. Amino acids as well and some B-Complex. Well, they all helped me. Worth a try.
You're doing good. Hope the lunch goes well.
Dear Rachel
GOOOD LUCK
With the lunch you are a better person than me my friend. When some one hurts me I'm over them just be care full or am I just being skeptical.
Well let us know how it went.
Rachel I've been googling about my thyroid and it says that it caused anxioty, depression, fear, causes me to feel drained, fateged and all kinds of things so I will have to go for that opperation well when I am done with this new court order.
I geuss that is why I always feel so down and with coming off the drugs has made it worse
Chat soon
Cheers Jadene
GOOOD LUCK
With the lunch you are a better person than me my friend. When some one hurts me I'm over them just be care full or am I just being skeptical.
Well let us know how it went.
Rachel I've been googling about my thyroid and it says that it caused anxioty, depression, fear, causes me to feel drained, fateged and all kinds of things so I will have to go for that opperation well when I am done with this new court order.
I geuss that is why I always feel so down and with coming off the drugs has made it worse
Chat soon
Cheers Jadene
Hi everyone,
New day,new beginning,here's hoping for better things.
R>
New day,new beginning,here's hoping for better things.
R>
Well everyone, lunch with my friend, Ruth, went really well the other day. She apologised for hurting me so much. Looking back, after being bullied she went into the psych ward and I turned to drugs. We are both going to fight this in court together. Her claim might even be finished with this year, but I've been too drained to even think about going there. She said she would come see the lawyer with me again which will be good. Anyway, we had a really good lunch together and then she and her boyfriend came for dinner on Saturday night which was lovely too. First time Sammy and I have had someone over for dinner. We had to hide the pot for a few hours, but it was worth it. :)
So Jadene, sometimes it's worth turning the other cheek and giving someone another chance, especially when we were so close beforehand. She just couldn't deal with all of my stuff when she had so much to deal with herself. And by the way, just because I gave her another chance doesn't make me a better person than you.
Guys, thank you so much for all your encouragement. Don't know what I'd do without you!
So Jadene, sometimes it's worth turning the other cheek and giving someone another chance, especially when we were so close beforehand. She just couldn't deal with all of my stuff when she had so much to deal with herself. And by the way, just because I gave her another chance doesn't make me a better person than you.
Guys, thank you so much for all your encouragement. Don't know what I'd do without you!
Hey rachel how are ya? Im so glad all went well with you and your old friend. Sometimes you get a ray of light from unexpected places. X
Hey Kitteekatt,
Yes, sometimes unexpected wonderful things do happen. :)
I'm feeling really crappy today. Just want to curl up in a ball somewhere and go to bed. Hope you're doing well.
Yes, sometimes unexpected wonderful things do happen. :)
I'm feeling really crappy today. Just want to curl up in a ball somewhere and go to bed. Hope you're doing well.
Dear Rachel
You are wiser than I my friend and I can learn so much from you.
When I say you are a better person than me you are you were being the bigger person and I admire that.
Hope all is going well for you and know that I am thinking of you
Best wishes Jadene
You are wiser than I my friend and I can learn so much from you.
When I say you are a better person than me you are you were being the bigger person and I admire that.
Hope all is going well for you and know that I am thinking of you
Best wishes Jadene
"Greater love has no man than this, that he lay down his life for his friends." John 15:13
The above is my motto on friendship.
The above is my motto on friendship.
Dear Rachel
I don't even know how to responed to you comment, I have never come across some one that thingks like that.
So you must be a very special friend and who ever come's to become your friend will be a very privileged person.
You must understand how I see to be a great person and you will make a great mother one day to.
Hope to hear from you soon
Cheers Jadene
I don't even know how to responed to you comment, I have never come across some one that thingks like that.
So you must be a very special friend and who ever come's to become your friend will be a very privileged person.
You must understand how I see to be a great person and you will make a great mother one day to.
Hope to hear from you soon
Cheers Jadene
I thought you might like that quote. It's from the Bible in the gospel of John and they were Jesus' words. Only he didn't just lay down his life for his friends, he sacrificed himself for the whole of mankind, both friends and enemies alike!
Hi rachel your outlook on life is truelly inspirational when most people in this life seem to want to take the moral high ground its just so refreshing to see someone who can see things for what they could be and offer their hand in compasion, the meek shall inherit the earth , (mathew 5:5) one of my favourites, take care my friend good things come to good people ,,paul
Thanks St Pauli :)
It truly is the way I look at friendship and always has. It does make it hard when you have high expectations of friendship when sometimes others don't see it that way and you get hurt. But I have a few really wonderful friends who I can count on no matter what, and friendship is truly a precious thing.
Rachel
It truly is the way I look at friendship and always has. It does make it hard when you have high expectations of friendship when sometimes others don't see it that way and you get hurt. But I have a few really wonderful friends who I can count on no matter what, and friendship is truly a precious thing.
Rachel
You should check out footprints in the sand i often think of that poem when im at my lowest, it fills my heart.
I have the Footprints poem as a cover on my Bible. I have always loved that poem and it's so true. Looking back on my life I can see just how much God has been my Rock and my strength, especially in the difficult times. I know for absolute certain I would have taken my own life by now if it wasn't for Him.
