Morning rache hope all is well today with weather like we are having right now(beautiful) i honestly believe it gives us a starter for ten on our day and makes people smile.I'm starting stirling uni in september and religion and theology are two of my subjects i know they are very contested subjects but i have always kept my beliefs personal and believe they play a large part in my inner strength , i haven't got time to natter right now as i'm of out for a bite to eat with a friend who just got back from Afganistan but i hope that whatever youse are all doing this weekend turns out better than youse first expected take care paul...by the way the name st pauli is n't a religios refrence but a german football team linked with the team i support...
Dear Rachel
My freind I need to say good buy to you I did not want you to thingk that I left with out say cheers.
Rachel I am at the end. I just don't know what to do my brother has asked me to move out of his house.
I did not take drugs or do anything he is just taking strain with an extra person in the house.
I feel like my world just came to a end I have no were to go so it is back to the street back to hustling back to whoring.
I just don't have the strength to go back to that life I can't do this.
I can't alow one more sick man to toutch me. So there is my old life prison or death and death seems to be the easy choise for me.
You know some times I dream of another life were I had a chance in the world were some one cared for me but that is not my life.
I love my boys but they are better with out me maby with out me they will have a better chance in this life.
I am so broken and I can't be fixed there is just no hope. The tears have dried and there are no more left I am defeated buy a cruel word.
Today there was hope for me well so I thought I went to a rehab and was going to start some NA meetings I felt like there was some hope that maby just maby there was a way for me to sort out me after a life were there was no hope now that is gone.
I will get up early pack the few things I have and move on.
Rachel my friend I will always hold you close to my heart you really are an inspiration to me and you have a good heart. You should be proud of that and just know that I thingk you have the potential to be great.
You will make a great mother and make the most of every moment with that child they grow so fast.
Rachel I do not want you to feel bad for me I need to rest.
Stay strong you can do this life
All my best wishes for you
Cheers Jadene
My freind I need to say good buy to you I did not want you to thingk that I left with out say cheers.
Rachel I am at the end. I just don't know what to do my brother has asked me to move out of his house.
I did not take drugs or do anything he is just taking strain with an extra person in the house.
I feel like my world just came to a end I have no were to go so it is back to the street back to hustling back to whoring.
I just don't have the strength to go back to that life I can't do this.
I can't alow one more sick man to toutch me. So there is my old life prison or death and death seems to be the easy choise for me.
You know some times I dream of another life were I had a chance in the world were some one cared for me but that is not my life.
I love my boys but they are better with out me maby with out me they will have a better chance in this life.
I am so broken and I can't be fixed there is just no hope. The tears have dried and there are no more left I am defeated buy a cruel word.
Today there was hope for me well so I thought I went to a rehab and was going to start some NA meetings I felt like there was some hope that maby just maby there was a way for me to sort out me after a life were there was no hope now that is gone.
I will get up early pack the few things I have and move on.
Rachel my friend I will always hold you close to my heart you really are an inspiration to me and you have a good heart. You should be proud of that and just know that I thingk you have the potential to be great.
You will make a great mother and make the most of every moment with that child they grow so fast.
Rachel I do not want you to feel bad for me I need to rest.
Stay strong you can do this life
All my best wishes for you
Cheers Jadene
Jadene, go to a church and ask for help...go to NA and ask for help...go to a hospital and ask for help...
Praying for you real hard ~ MomNMore
Praying for you real hard ~ MomNMore
Jadene,
I was where you were 2 weeks ago. My neghbours want to evict me from a flat I have worked so hard to get.
My flat became a hangout for all my GFs friends. There were girls smoking pipes n one corner, sneaking to the bathroom for a chase, it was a nightmare. They had no where to go but I asked them to leavefor my own sanity.
Maybe look at it like this: leave for a few days. check into a b&b. Then phone your bro and tell him that without his hwlp, yu can't go on.
At the end of the day jadene, YOU have to fight for yourself. Imagine what it will be for those 2 boys to have to grow up knowing their mum killed herself. How selfiish is that! It would F**K them up for LIFE.
Think very carefully Jadene. If you must do it, write a suicide note. And in it, list ALL the reasons why you can't go on any more. Every single reason. If you can reach 20 reasons, fair enough. I bet you won't even get to 10.
Before you go, don't u want to see my lovely daughter. Send me your email and I will snd you some piks
Hang in there honey,one who loves and cares for you.
Reshie
p.s.: listen to REM's song "everybody hurts". I know of one person whp was going to kill herself that changed her mind after listening to this song. Try It!!!.
I was where you were 2 weeks ago. My neghbours want to evict me from a flat I have worked so hard to get.
My flat became a hangout for all my GFs friends. There were girls smoking pipes n one corner, sneaking to the bathroom for a chase, it was a nightmare. They had no where to go but I asked them to leavefor my own sanity.
Maybe look at it like this: leave for a few days. check into a b&b. Then phone your bro and tell him that without his hwlp, yu can't go on.
At the end of the day jadene, YOU have to fight for yourself. Imagine what it will be for those 2 boys to have to grow up knowing their mum killed herself. How selfiish is that! It would F**K them up for LIFE.
Think very carefully Jadene. If you must do it, write a suicide note. And in it, list ALL the reasons why you can't go on any more. Every single reason. If you can reach 20 reasons, fair enough. I bet you won't even get to 10.
Before you go, don't u want to see my lovely daughter. Send me your email and I will snd you some piks
Hang in there honey,one who loves and cares for you.
Reshie
p.s.: listen to REM's song "everybody hurts". I know of one person whp was going to kill herself that changed her mind after listening to this song. Try It!!!.
BUMP for Rachel...read your first post on this thread, Rachel, then try to remember those feelings...
Thanks, I've read it Mum. Must have been my twin self who wrote that.
