I have definatley made progress!!
Yesterday, unbeknown to me, I flicked a little switch in the car that knocks the side lights on. Because I didn't notice, it was left on all day.
When I went to use the car in the evening the battery was dead. Oh well, I almost laughed to myself. I hadn't accidentally flicked that switch for ages; and I realised the other day that I hadn't done it lately. I got out of the car, locked it up and walked the short distance home.
Backtrack a year, two or more, and when I would have got to the car and found the battery dead I would have blown up with infuriating over the top anger, irritation, annoyance, self condemnation at my stupidity, and cursed life all the way home.
It is now the next morning, and oh yeah I have got to sort the car out. I'll do that in a bit!
I love not drinking and taking drugs, it is fantastic!!
Hi Lacey...isn't great to be able to look back and see the progress...the changes that have occured within you...Whenever I feel "stuck"...I look back at how I handled a similar situation in the past and see how differently I am handling it now...even in sobriety...the changes keep happening...mostly for the better but at times I still have some lessons to learn...
How's the garden?
Love Gina
How's the garden?
Love Gina
Yeah, it is amazing!!
Better still, when the guy came and jump started my car, he told me to run it for half an hour to recharge the battery, so I had a spontaneous day out - which was lovely. Relaxed and did nothing but enjoy the sunny afternoon in Lichfield -the town I drove to!
Ah, the garden is lovely. The tomato plants are starting to flower, the peas are a few inches high, I've got radishes growing, lots of herbs, onions, some flowers, even the carrots have germinated!! I am so pleased. It is lovely to nuture the little plants and I can't wait to watch their progress and then see the actual food appearing - wow - it is amazing!
I shall be putting my potatoes in the allotment soon. That is miles away now though! I will get one over this side of the city for next year. It would be lovely to grow fruits and all sorts!
I could never have done this whilst I was drinking. I tried a bit a couple of times, but it just didn't happen. Drink is all consuming!
So is gardening actually- but it is much more fun, and much more rewarding!
Better still, when the guy came and jump started my car, he told me to run it for half an hour to recharge the battery, so I had a spontaneous day out - which was lovely. Relaxed and did nothing but enjoy the sunny afternoon in Lichfield -the town I drove to!
Ah, the garden is lovely. The tomato plants are starting to flower, the peas are a few inches high, I've got radishes growing, lots of herbs, onions, some flowers, even the carrots have germinated!! I am so pleased. It is lovely to nuture the little plants and I can't wait to watch their progress and then see the actual food appearing - wow - it is amazing!
I shall be putting my potatoes in the allotment soon. That is miles away now though! I will get one over this side of the city for next year. It would be lovely to grow fruits and all sorts!
I could never have done this whilst I was drinking. I tried a bit a couple of times, but it just didn't happen. Drink is all consuming!
So is gardening actually- but it is much more fun, and much more rewarding!
Oh I miss my garden...I had a great veggie/herb/strawberry garden a few years back...and flowers...but with limited time and my schedule I haven't had one in a while...there is nothing like eating fresh veggies from your own garden...
Your garden sounds lovely and it is a great hobby...and healthy for the mind, body and soul...
The one thing I have found in sobriety, that I can find the miracle, the good in anything...sometimes it isn't readily apparent but everything happens for a reason...
Love Gina
Your garden sounds lovely and it is a great hobby...and healthy for the mind, body and soul...
The one thing I have found in sobriety, that I can find the miracle, the good in anything...sometimes it isn't readily apparent but everything happens for a reason...
Love Gina
Thanks Lacey and Gina....your posts were awesome! "Progress not perfection", thank God I understand that now! My Sponsor would tell me early in my sobriety that trying to work the Program perfectly would indeed take me out, that it is day to day progress....
Hi Geri....it took me a while to understand progress not perfection because I am a perfectionist....There is this spirit Emmanuel that says we are "perfectly imperfect"...Sometimes it is hard for us to see our own progress...or how far we have come...I know it took me a bit for me to see it and I had to trust others when they pointed it out me...and when it finally really hit...progress not perfection it was such a relief...As someone else told me we are human...all of us...even me...Wow what a concept! lol....Love Gina
Hi girls!!
I think this is kind of relevant to the perfection idea. Today when I was glass painting; like always I was trying to get it perfect. Then I realised that if it came out with every little bit perfect it would be just a flat piece of art with no life to it. It has to have the little imperfections to make it real and vibrant and to show the process of how it came to be.
My philosophical thought for the day!!
I think this is kind of relevant to the perfection idea. Today when I was glass painting; like always I was trying to get it perfect. Then I realised that if it came out with every little bit perfect it would be just a flat piece of art with no life to it. It has to have the little imperfections to make it real and vibrant and to show the process of how it came to be.
My philosophical thought for the day!!
