I met my husband 3 years ago. I knew he was a recovering drug addict like me. I've been on subs since I was 18. It changed my whole mind set of things. I always only took what i was perscibed. After we had our first child. He started doing meth. He was psycho, he would keep me up all night and we just had a newborn so i needed my sleep. Well I would take extras to stay awake while I am being tortured bc he would not let me go to sleep. Then I started enjoying taking more than prescribed. Let me remind you he continued to do the meth. Well now my child is 2 years old and he isn't doing meth anymore, but he is smoking that spice crap. All he does when he gets home from work is smoke, sleep, & repeat. Well we came to an agreement if I let him hold my meds and he gives me what I'm prescribed and he quits smoking that bs he would be sober. It was the best 3 weeks of my marriage!!!! Now he started smoking it again! I've already told him how I feel. When he f***s up I want to f*** up!!! He acts like he doesn't care! What do I do?!? He is so reckless with this s***. He passes out on the porch where everyone can see him. It's really embarrassing. I'm to my breaking point I cry everyday. I know I take more bc I'm so depressed and have NO energy! I love him so much but I know I can't change him. What should I do or can someone just talk to me! Maybe give me some suggestions?
I don't feel like I have anything to say that you wouldn't already know so I guess I'm replying to remind you that you must put yourself first. If he is not ready to quit and that is now affecting your recovery you should go your own way and take care of your kid, before you too lose yourself. Do not self sabotage. Not being an addic in a relationship with one is hard enough, you, being a recovering addict have to take extra care, one would think.
Get help! With support you can do it.
Nina
Get help! With support you can do it.
Nina
Are you attending NA meetings?
You both need help...
All the best.
Bob
You both need help...
All the best.
Bob
Yes! Please, be so kind to spare a few thoughts.
