Realization

Well, it's been a long strange trip. I started out of college and was considered an up and comer, then I slowly drank to ease this pressure to perform. Obiously the better I did the more I drank until I hit th Law of Diminishing Returns. I was now performing way under par, drinking more and more as I wasn't the person I thought I was. Now I know at 41, I have a true problem and scared as hell to stop. Why do I feel like a failure? Any advice?
Rob, I finished college and professional school and jumped headlong into a career also. Believe me when I say that there was point in time when I got too involved in the liquor for my own good too. I could have easily moved to where you find yourself.

But hey, we each have our own timing for these things. Just know that as fearful as you are -- and fear in a huge motivator -- there is help and you have taken a very important first step towards a better life.

We can help you here if you are willing. If you are comfortable with it, come back and tell us a little more.
Hey Rob - I've been on a similar journey (twice). I can't offer any advice because now for some reason over the past 2 months I have started the pattern again after 20 years. I have achieved inspite of myself. Am I afraid of failure or am I afraid of success. I know that sounds weird but why would I want to sabotage myself just when it all comes together.
In a similar boat my man. Truth is... To think of feeling a failure now Think how we'll feel ten years from now if we let'em slip by as well. Fear isn't such a bad thing & it's always available if we need a buzz to get cookin' in the direction. (: The cure for feeling a failure is readily available. Whatever path you have to take - Put a game plan together and utilize every cell you have to get where you know you're goin'. Those cells crave that more than anything.

Get Cookin'