i went to see a friend yesterday at the hosputil, she is wating for a liver, she was a big time youser, but got reacovory, 10or moer years ago, she has hep,c, but could not take the treatment, she got to sick, i also have hep,c, but did the tertment, and was succseful, but as some off you know i stared drinking, a little here and ther, and the funny thing is i was never a drinker, did not want, to be, like my mom, so i never drank, until, a few months ago, this could happen to me, i could realy screw,up, my liver, its, a wakeup, call i also see my son drinking, and he was never a drinker, so i have to realy look at this one, i do not want to get sicker then i all ready am, so today is my know starting date, pleace say a prayer for her if you can, her name is brenda, thanks karen. ps and my son,
Faith...
I have to say that alcohol was one of the worst drugs to be hooked on. I gave that up a number of years ago only to be replaced with pain pills. Now I am clean for over three months. Think of all the hiedous things alcohol can do such as the d.t.'s anemia, liver and kidney damage, and the list goes on.
Deirdre
I have to say that alcohol was one of the worst drugs to be hooked on. I gave that up a number of years ago only to be replaced with pain pills. Now I am clean for over three months. Think of all the hiedous things alcohol can do such as the d.t.'s anemia, liver and kidney damage, and the list goes on.
Deirdre
Faith,
I am glad that today is your new starting date. What are you going to do to get clean? Are you going c/t? Did you ever look into a rehab facility like you talked about a few weeks ago? I know you can do it I hope you have a good strong plan. I will say a prayer for your friend, your son, and you. Best wishes.
Shelly
I am glad that today is your new starting date. What are you going to do to get clean? Are you going c/t? Did you ever look into a rehab facility like you talked about a few weeks ago? I know you can do it I hope you have a good strong plan. I will say a prayer for your friend, your son, and you. Best wishes.
Shelly
Karen-
Your determination to get back up and keep trying amazes and inspires me. I have faith in you, and know you can do this. It seems you are surrounded by alot of drug abuse, and seperating yourself, if you have to from that in order to recover is something you may want to think about.
You are in my thoughts as well as your son and friend.........
I have alot to work on myself, but I wanted you to know I am listening and your in my thoughts.
Hugs.
Your determination to get back up and keep trying amazes and inspires me. I have faith in you, and know you can do this. It seems you are surrounded by alot of drug abuse, and seperating yourself, if you have to from that in order to recover is something you may want to think about.
You are in my thoughts as well as your son and friend.........
I have alot to work on myself, but I wanted you to know I am listening and your in my thoughts.
Hugs.
How are you doing Jody? Are you still trying to taper with the Sub? Take care honey...
Hey Lisa........
I can honestly say I am really truly working on it. I feel like I have tried a million times, but Im not sure my "heart" was really into it, I was simply going through the motions.
I am down to taking 2-3 mg's and have been able to even skip days...........I went from Friday to Monday without taking anything, I decided I would not take the sub until my body really told me it needed it, and is just what I did.
Had a good weekend actually.............I am noticing with the decreased dosage I am "feeling" more. Feeling is a scary thing for me, but it feels good just to feel anything really. I took a ride out in the country, and I could actually smell spring in the air.......and notice the little things all around me, that make life worth living.
I was really slacking in that I had no "plan", I was just taking sub, and that was about it. Sub is a great, but it alone is no "cure". I am in alot of therapy now, working on what brought me to this point, the good, bad and the ugly. (lol)
Trying hard..............and If I do stumble I intend to get right back up.
Thanks so much for asking...............I hope all is well with you.
Hugs.
I can honestly say I am really truly working on it. I feel like I have tried a million times, but Im not sure my "heart" was really into it, I was simply going through the motions.
I am down to taking 2-3 mg's and have been able to even skip days...........I went from Friday to Monday without taking anything, I decided I would not take the sub until my body really told me it needed it, and is just what I did.
Had a good weekend actually.............I am noticing with the decreased dosage I am "feeling" more. Feeling is a scary thing for me, but it feels good just to feel anything really. I took a ride out in the country, and I could actually smell spring in the air.......and notice the little things all around me, that make life worth living.
I was really slacking in that I had no "plan", I was just taking sub, and that was about it. Sub is a great, but it alone is no "cure". I am in alot of therapy now, working on what brought me to this point, the good, bad and the ugly. (lol)
Trying hard..............and If I do stumble I intend to get right back up.
Thanks so much for asking...............I hope all is well with you.
Hugs.
Karen,
This is a wake up call. The abuse of drugs will lead us down the road to hell...some of us get there sooner than others but the destination is always the same.
Jodi...good to see you! I am always wondering about your taper...it is going to be okay.
I truly believe with this medicine you do have to exert some "mind over matter".
The mental need to continue is so powerful and for me I believe a bit of a crutch. Keep going to therapy it will be alot easier to slide off!
I am down to 2mgs and some days I wonder why I take it....I plan to be off real soon.
You are always in my thoughts and prayers. I am happy that you are feeling good!
This is a wake up call. The abuse of drugs will lead us down the road to hell...some of us get there sooner than others but the destination is always the same.
Jodi...good to see you! I am always wondering about your taper...it is going to be okay.
I truly believe with this medicine you do have to exert some "mind over matter".
The mental need to continue is so powerful and for me I believe a bit of a crutch. Keep going to therapy it will be alot easier to slide off!
I am down to 2mgs and some days I wonder why I take it....I plan to be off real soon.
You are always in my thoughts and prayers. I am happy that you are feeling good!
Hey Kee......
So good to hear from you. So glad to hear you are still forging ahead with your taper. You have come a looooooooong way baby. :)
Your not kidding its "mind over matter", I know for a fact so much of it is in my head. I was dosing my sub just as I woke in the morning, but am trying to get away from that, and am waiting later and later in the day to take it. I want to get away from the habit of needing something to get my day started.
I do have alot of fear about coming completely off...........Fear of the unknown I guess. Just knowing I am not alone helps so much.
Thinking of you often, Keep me updated on how its going.
Take care of you.
BigHugs.
So good to hear from you. So glad to hear you are still forging ahead with your taper. You have come a looooooooong way baby. :)
Your not kidding its "mind over matter", I know for a fact so much of it is in my head. I was dosing my sub just as I woke in the morning, but am trying to get away from that, and am waiting later and later in the day to take it. I want to get away from the habit of needing something to get my day started.
I do have alot of fear about coming completely off...........Fear of the unknown I guess. Just knowing I am not alone helps so much.
Thinking of you often, Keep me updated on how its going.
Take care of you.
BigHugs.
Karen,
Thanks for posting and sharing this. It reminds me that we (ANY one of us) could have died from addiction. And that we still can if don't keep our heads on straight.
I will be praying for your friend......and for all of us.....
peaceout
dtroitj
Thanks for posting and sharing this. It reminds me that we (ANY one of us) could have died from addiction. And that we still can if don't keep our heads on straight.
I will be praying for your friend......and for all of us.....
peaceout
dtroitj
thanks you guys, iam up realy eraly this morning, and when i get up, my hubby is gone to the casino, we were booth addicted to that too, i can,t help thinking about brenda, i pray she gets a liver soon, she has a raer,blood tipe, thats whats taking so long, im going up to see her today, if it was,rnt for me having the treatment i could be there, so way do i keep putting posion in my boddy, thanks again, karen.
Hey faith:
I don't know how I still have my liver, quite frankly. A friend of mine who uses - has an enlarged liver. They can't really do anything for that. About 20 years ago she went to a Dr., they drew blood and told her here liver enzimes (sp) were off the chart. They accused her of being an alcoholic! She denied it, and they told her denial was a symtom. What was kinda funny, she didn't drink then, still doesn't. I've known her for about 25 years. She takes pp now, but no where near the degree I do. My ex had hep-C, he was able to take the interferon, and now tests negatively. I hope your friend is ok, does she have AB negitive blood? I think that's the one thats rare. I hope something comes thru for her, it could be any of us in that position. I'm glad you're there for her, it so helps to have a friend.
Take care
I don't know how I still have my liver, quite frankly. A friend of mine who uses - has an enlarged liver. They can't really do anything for that. About 20 years ago she went to a Dr., they drew blood and told her here liver enzimes (sp) were off the chart. They accused her of being an alcoholic! She denied it, and they told her denial was a symtom. What was kinda funny, she didn't drink then, still doesn't. I've known her for about 25 years. She takes pp now, but no where near the degree I do. My ex had hep-C, he was able to take the interferon, and now tests negatively. I hope your friend is ok, does she have AB negitive blood? I think that's the one thats rare. I hope something comes thru for her, it could be any of us in that position. I'm glad you're there for her, it so helps to have a friend.
Take care
i have a apontment today with a councoler, that my hubby and i know from were i went for treatment, last year, my husbied has been seeing him about me, for sometime now, his still not suer if he wants out, im to see him about what i want to do, im not suer what i want, things have been ok, but for how long, evertime i say that somthing happens, my son has been upset about all off this, he does not want to see his parents seprate, nor do i, my hubby says everthingf will be good if i go back into rehabe, he is doing the samthing as me, o well thats him, i have to take caer off me, so im a little nervos, about this apt, how onest should i be, about everthing, with my hubby and i, ther is a lot don does not now, other then that things are just ok, i have the kids today that always makes me happy, have a goodday. karen
Karen, How honest should you be with your counselor? 100% honesty would be a good start. Your statement about your husband wanting you to go back into rehab but he is doing the same thing kinda threw me off. If I had that way of thinking when I first realized I had a problem I would have been in big trouble. I would have never found recovery. Kinda like hell my friends are still using so why should I have to be the one to go c/t. That way of thinking gets you no where. Karen needs to worry about Karen. I hope you find what you are looking for and go after it. It's there for the taking just takes a little work. Shantel