I've decided to start posting on the recovery diary section just to check in, write my feelings down, and to have a safe place to share my daily ups and downs....feel free to read, or not. :) I won't take it personally if you don't read it. I am using it more as an additional recovery tool for myself.
Thank you all for being here.
Zipper
Hey zipper, I'm sitting in my lovely house, listening to beautiful music as the sun streams in through the window, and your post made me cry.
I'm seeing my ex today at mediation to talk about what we're going to do about our beautiful kids. They both want to live with me. I'm not their biological dad, btw, he's an alcoholic ex-paratrooper who hasn't seen his wonderful children for 12 of their 13 years. Their mum believes she hasn't got a problem with alcohol, but I saw her drink 3 or 4 and up to 5 times the "safe" limit every week for 6 or 7 years of the 9 we were together and endured her rants and rages for the sake of the kids for the last 4 of them. As a result of her drinking she has lost me, a man she claims to have loved, is about to lose the house her father bought her and is likely to lose the kids (to me) because "all she does is shout at us" (I'll spare you the gory details as to why I feel they're not going to thrive living with her right now.
All this, of course, is my fault.
Keep safe, well and happy. I might not ever get around to reading your recovery diary, but a part of my soul will remember your courage in taking these steps and a part of my heart will love you for it. All my life.
"Success is not final, failure is not fatal, what counts is the courage to continue."
- Winston Churchill, alcoholic.
I'm seeing my ex today at mediation to talk about what we're going to do about our beautiful kids. They both want to live with me. I'm not their biological dad, btw, he's an alcoholic ex-paratrooper who hasn't seen his wonderful children for 12 of their 13 years. Their mum believes she hasn't got a problem with alcohol, but I saw her drink 3 or 4 and up to 5 times the "safe" limit every week for 6 or 7 years of the 9 we were together and endured her rants and rages for the sake of the kids for the last 4 of them. As a result of her drinking she has lost me, a man she claims to have loved, is about to lose the house her father bought her and is likely to lose the kids (to me) because "all she does is shout at us" (I'll spare you the gory details as to why I feel they're not going to thrive living with her right now.
All this, of course, is my fault.
Keep safe, well and happy. I might not ever get around to reading your recovery diary, but a part of my soul will remember your courage in taking these steps and a part of my heart will love you for it. All my life.
"Success is not final, failure is not fatal, what counts is the courage to continue."
- Winston Churchill, alcoholic.
You're post just gave me goosebumps. Thank you for reading and responding.
Sounds like you have a lot going on. Good luck on the home-front. I'll be thinking of you.
Sincerely,
Zipper
Sounds like you have a lot going on. Good luck on the home-front. I'll be thinking of you.
Sincerely,
Zipper
