I am new here but I have been a heroin addict for about a year. In that year i have managed to get myself into tons of trouble and major debt which is pretty typical of addicts I am learning. Anyway, I am now out of jail on bail and facing a violent felony, I have been clean for 2 weeks and 4 days! That is the longest in the past year. I was doing about a gram a day so this is very good for me. So my problem is, due to my felony the cops took my car and everything in it (they can if they think it was used to commit the felony). Now I am trying to get into an impatient rehab and get my life straightened out so that I can maybe try to avoid prison but I have no means to pay for it and I am trying to get medicaid but they need proof of this and proof of that, which all of my stuff was in my car and the police wont give me my property back until my sentencing. Isnt there an easier way to get help to pay for rehab? And does anyone know of any good ones in NY State?
..Jacquelyna..
..Welcome to the board..im sorry but i can,t help ya..im in London ..but im sure sumone will come on and try help you out..it gets a bit quiet on here sumtimes..so be try be patient and sumone will post sum info to ya good luck..Robbie..
..Welcome to the board..im sorry but i can,t help ya..im in London ..but im sure sumone will come on and try help you out..it gets a bit quiet on here sumtimes..so be try be patient and sumone will post sum info to ya good luck..Robbie..
Thanks. I am doing ok so far, taking it 1 day at a time but it is so hard i cant get it off my mind. I want rehab kind of far away from where i live so the temptation will be easier to resist but it is just not happening. I wish you could just walk into one and they had to take you. That's how it should be.
..Jacquelyn..
..Yeah i hear wot ya saying..but heroin is such a powerful drug..it will follow you wherever you go..its in ya head..you know that feeling you get when you want your powder..if you think you can do a rehab course and stay off it when you get out..then good luck i hope you can get in one as soon as poss..and get yourself clean..and come out a new women and be able to stay off it..im being honest with ya when i tell you..i,ve got loads of mates who have done rehab and came out and used again..sum within the first couple of days of getting out..if you do get into one..you need to drop all your old using mates and dealers numbers..cos your just get sucked back into addiction again..hope all goes well for ya..Robbie..
..Yeah i hear wot ya saying..but heroin is such a powerful drug..it will follow you wherever you go..its in ya head..you know that feeling you get when you want your powder..if you think you can do a rehab course and stay off it when you get out..then good luck i hope you can get in one as soon as poss..and get yourself clean..and come out a new women and be able to stay off it..im being honest with ya when i tell you..i,ve got loads of mates who have done rehab and came out and used again..sum within the first couple of days of getting out..if you do get into one..you need to drop all your old using mates and dealers numbers..cos your just get sucked back into addiction again..hope all goes well for ya..Robbie..
Hiya,
The thing to stay focused on, when assailed by all that crap: cops, possessions, charges s***, s***, s*** is YOU ARE NOT USING. That is an amazing achievement.
And don't lose site of it. And dont let life's crap give yourself a reason to score.
It's really really hard in the first days/weeks of recovery, so TRY to stay away from stressful situations. And if something seems really daunting/stressful try focusing on where you want to be and not where you are. I.E. Keep a good picture of the sort of person you want to be fixed in your mind.
Make it as difficult as possible for yourself to score. DO any/all of the following if you think it will help because staying clean is the primary objestive. FOR ME everything else is secondary.
LOSE scores.
LOSE you drug buddies.
MOVE home.
CHOOSE good people/ things to do.
Good luck, You KNOW you can do it.
LOVE
julius
The thing to stay focused on, when assailed by all that crap: cops, possessions, charges s***, s***, s*** is YOU ARE NOT USING. That is an amazing achievement.
And don't lose site of it. And dont let life's crap give yourself a reason to score.
It's really really hard in the first days/weeks of recovery, so TRY to stay away from stressful situations. And if something seems really daunting/stressful try focusing on where you want to be and not where you are. I.E. Keep a good picture of the sort of person you want to be fixed in your mind.
Make it as difficult as possible for yourself to score. DO any/all of the following if you think it will help because staying clean is the primary objestive. FOR ME everything else is secondary.
LOSE scores.
LOSE you drug buddies.
MOVE home.
CHOOSE good people/ things to do.
Good luck, You KNOW you can do it.
LOVE
julius
Some inpatient rehabs can get state aide for uninsured patients. And, usually, if u tell them that you're a heroin addict, u can get it for sure. Inquire about state aide at the facility you've been talking to. The sooner u get in there the better. I'm not saying that rehab will cure u. I've been through several but it will help tremendously to get some clean time behind u, in a safe environment before u have to deal with old using buddies. Inpatient time will also give u a chance to make a plan. (where u want to live,who u should avoid, stuff like that.)Also, as u get more clean time under you're belt, you'll be able to see your legal problems more clearly. The most important thing is that you are clean. You're a very brave person!! I could never quit without checking into detox first. The only times I quit "cold turkey" was when I had to because there was nothing to be found. I'm glad those days are over!!! Good Luck to u and keep us posted on your progress!!! peace, Shirley
Thanks for all of the input. The hard part really is that you are supposed to have the state aid already when you walk in the door to start the rehab and thats what i am having issues with.My mother put up 20g's in cash to get me out and if i use again or screw up she will go get the bail revoked so that is the biggest thing keeping me strong because I hated jail and i never want to go back.I stay at her house which is far away from the city and my dealers and it makes a big difference when it is actually a real pain in the a** to even try to think about getting something. That is a good idea to make staying clean first and everything else second in life. I guess thats the only way! By the way my detox was in jail so that was unbearable but i thanked my mother ( she turned me in! ) because I never would have stopped if i wasn't forced to. By the way also, nice names Julius and Terrapin, my favorite bands~ grateful dead and phish! right on ;)
Dear Jacquelyna,
Congratulations on 18 days clean! My now 30 year old son was addicted to heroin and got himself into major debt ($50,000) and lots of legal trouble because of his drugs too. On the 10th of this month he will have 18 months heroin free....praise God!!!! He has fought the fight and gotten his life back. He opted for rehab when he went to a hearing for one of his retail theft offenses. He put his heart and soul into that rehab and chose to go to a partial for relapse prevention when they couldn't locate a halfway house for him afterwards. He realizes what heroin cost him and he says he has NO DESIRE to go back to it. I pray every day that he stays strong against it! You can do this too! Here are some websites for some free or low cost rehabs in New York. I will keep you in my prayers. Please keep in touch to let us know how you're doing. I care!
http://www.drugtreatment.tv/newyork.php
http://www.salvationarmyarc.org/ Click on ARC locations at the right
Love,
Susan
Congratulations on 18 days clean! My now 30 year old son was addicted to heroin and got himself into major debt ($50,000) and lots of legal trouble because of his drugs too. On the 10th of this month he will have 18 months heroin free....praise God!!!! He has fought the fight and gotten his life back. He opted for rehab when he went to a hearing for one of his retail theft offenses. He put his heart and soul into that rehab and chose to go to a partial for relapse prevention when they couldn't locate a halfway house for him afterwards. He realizes what heroin cost him and he says he has NO DESIRE to go back to it. I pray every day that he stays strong against it! You can do this too! Here are some websites for some free or low cost rehabs in New York. I will keep you in my prayers. Please keep in touch to let us know how you're doing. I care!
http://www.drugtreatment.tv/newyork.php
http://www.salvationarmyarc.org/ Click on ARC locations at the right
Love,
Susan
Thanks guys you have been a lot of help. Your son deserves a lot of credit for 18 months clean, It is ungodly hard in my opinion. I am taking it day by day but it's hard for me to even believe I have almost 3 weeks, I never thought I would see this day even! So for me I just have to keep telling myself that it is not worth sitting in jail, getting locked up opened my eyes..Thanks again for all the help!
Terrapin.. by the way..I detoxed in jail! The hardest way there is in my opinion, because aside from feeling like hell and puking for 3 days, I got treated like an a#$hole, couldnt have anything, had to be watched 1 on 1 by C.O.'s for 5 days, I could go on and on. It was the most horrible experience in my life. I dont know that I would have ever detoxed on my own
Detoxing in jail is the WORST! I know. I've been there--Done that:Got the orange jumpsuit!!Ha!Ha! By the way, It's always nice to talk to another one of "Jerry,s Kids". The last time I detoxed in jail, the other girls all got mad at
me because I used all the toilet paper up and I kept falling out of bed. Ha! Ha! Peace, Shirley
me because I used all the toilet paper up and I kept falling out of bed. Ha! Ha! Peace, Shirley
Again well done jaq,
I just wanted to tell you that I had to move three times and a total of 450 miles over a period of 9 months to get to the point where I was clean in my body and my mind.
And I spent alot of that time in what could be called convalescense. Sitting tight, goin through my emotions, and getting my head straight!!
so all I'm saying is go EASY on yourself.
You've done a great job, but ALLOW yourself time and space to heal. know what I mean.
It's really help me saying all this stuff, cos after 4 years clean I had a small relapse recently. and I'm now revisiting some of the stuff you are now experiencing, I think.
LOVE
Julius
I just wanted to tell you that I had to move three times and a total of 450 miles over a period of 9 months to get to the point where I was clean in my body and my mind.
And I spent alot of that time in what could be called convalescense. Sitting tight, goin through my emotions, and getting my head straight!!
so all I'm saying is go EASY on yourself.
You've done a great job, but ALLOW yourself time and space to heal. know what I mean.
It's really help me saying all this stuff, cos after 4 years clean I had a small relapse recently. and I'm now revisiting some of the stuff you are now experiencing, I think.
LOVE
Julius
p.s. I just wanted to point out to you that you used the word 'unbearable' when you spoke of your detox in jail.
well........ it wasn't.
your still here!!!!!!!
The point i'm trying to make here is pay attention to the language you use in your head, as you MAY be building this thing up to be bigger than it actually is. :-)
Who was it who said 'what doesn't kill us make us stronger.'
I don't know, but they have a point.
Love
julius
well........ it wasn't.
your still here!!!!!!!
The point i'm trying to make here is pay attention to the language you use in your head, as you MAY be building this thing up to be bigger than it actually is. :-)
Who was it who said 'what doesn't kill us make us stronger.'
I don't know, but they have a point.
Love
julius
Friedrich Nietzsche made that quote.
