Relapse

Pain Pills
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My best friend in the program here relapsed the night before my birthday. She had 9 years then relapsed and just grabbed a year then relapsed. Thing is I talked to her the night she relapsed. I asked her if she'd been drinking and she said no. I kept asking and she kept avoiding me. The next day my birthday I could not reach her. I felt she was avoiding me and she was. Tonite she called and I forced it out of her practically.

Feel so bad. I've been going through alot. Maybe I was part of whatever lead her to that drink. I just don't know. Makes ya wonder if you can really get close to people in the program and be yourself.

Recently bought a condo but we can't seem to get the closing done. It's one thing or another. All having to do with seller paperwork. I thought when you bought something they set a date for closure and that was it? It's like everyday we wait to see if the next day is it and it never is. I have rescheduled so many people I have no idea who is coming when. I feel like dumping this whole scene, packing my bag and heading back to Brazil for about 6 months with the dogs.

Hope everyone is in a better mood than me tonite!

pm
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Hey PM..sorry about your friend. Relapse is horrible. However its not your fault. You can't control what someone else does. You can however be there for her to pick up the pieces.

Man I detest this disease.

I hope you get your real estate issues sorted out. If they are behind on there closing it will cost them money in interest. Whats the problem? I hope you have a lawyer helping you, these things can be tricky!
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Thanks KeeKee
I've just finally lost all my patience with about everything right now.

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Hang in there things will get better they always do. Try to visualize things as they will be when they improve. You know that is the one thing that I don't mind about being low. That there is only one way to go and thats back up!

I am so sorry you are feeling like this!

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Amy!
I read the title of your thread and my heart jumped into my throat!
It's not your fault. It's not your fault. It's not your fault.
Remember, accept the things I cannot change? That is other people. It's very sad but it happens.
Pick up the phone! I miss your voice. I know you're busy right now but get in touch soon.
xxxxxxxxoooooo
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Hey Sweet Amy, I am sorry about your friend, but you KNOW it isn't your fault! Would it be her fault if you relapsed? No. You are so sweet to care about her and be there for her, but that is all you can do. :-)
Congrats on buying the new home. I hope things fall into place for you soon, and that you love it once you get moved in!
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Hey Amy..so nice to see you post. Listen honey, you can't control another's drinking or using. It's none of your business if she relapses either, need to worry about yourself. That's a full time job. If she wants you to know, she'll tell you. I'm sorry about your condo..that sucks. Talk soon I hope...Love, Lisa
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She did tell me Lisa. She called yesterday. Anyway, she wants to come over today. So I will probably see her later. She said she just couldn't tell me when she was drinking and anyway she is sorry. I'm just upset she relapsed. But you guys are right I can't control these things.

Thanks, I'll call soon Kat.

love,
amy